good day,turned into a bad day.

Things are not good here at all,this moring was a good day,untill on the way home,we got to talking about the past.I was talking about my couisn and it went down hill from there.Yes,Mom and I arent speaking.She even told me,She thought it would be best if I moved out.hwo knows.I cant take it anymore.Than She bought up some bad stuff from the past,and She was thinking I thought She was a bad Mom and She didnt do anything right.I never said that.I feel like I am always to blame for everything,than again,She thinks She is to blame,so,who knows.Than I got mad and I Said,I wasnt going on this trip,I dont want to go anywere I am not wanted.right now,I feel like I am not wanted,tears are about come down to my face.My boyfriend will be here to pick me up in a munite.I havent had anything to eat all day.Why cant She understand what I go through?She thinks its all my falt,that Dad and I are in this together.Its crazy.I just came back from talking with my thereapyst and well,it was a good talk from there.now all hell breaks loose and you know I dont curse if it is that bad.What does She want from me?She feels She cant say anything or do anything right with me,well,I feel the same way.I feel at falt for everything.Well,if She wants me to get my own place and move out,well,if I have to do that,well,than I cant be going on this trip.Who knows what more is going to happen.I will even look into getting into somehting.Than if I move out,ti will be HEr and Dad.I dont know what to do anymore.But I am going to get off of here,sit outside and wait for my ride.I will talk with you latter.