Just your normal stuff.

Hi all,

I hope you all are having a good day.I guess I am doing ok here.I feel like venting.About what,everything.Sometimes I feel like going private with this Journal,but,I wont,because I have done alot with this Journal and who cares who reads it or not.But this is my life and how I choose it to be.I am so wishing it was Wed right about now at 2.I want to go to my Doctors now.I keep counting the days.I know,it will be here sooner or later.I am still writting a list down.But will it help?Sometimes it seems like,when I write it down,nothing seems to work.

But now that my Arthitis Doc knows what i am going through and has there addres,maybe things will get taken care of.I just want to start feeling better and I know I have to do alot on my part.I am strugling,but,its ok,I will get through it.I strugle with so many things.Makes me mad,I want to scream.I have been reading some of yals comments as I read them all,of course and one that cought my eye,cant remember which one.

That I relize I know I need to get out there and enjoy life,life on my own.I know what my heart is telling me,even thos my heart is stubborn.LOL.Why does life have to be so hard?Well,I guess,you cant always have it easy.i am trying to take it,one day at a time,bu even that is hard.Work is hard,I do the best I can in 5 hours.What do they want from me?They are cutting back hours and I cant help that.Because when I went to punch out and clean up,my Boss asked me,is there any bread left?Yes,theres was alot I had to do in the first place.I will see Her tommrow.She cant write me up for having somany hours and not getting it all done.I do the best I can.I am thinking of calling Her,because,I know She will still be there,but,I wont.I will see Her tommrow.I worry about so many things.Why do I have to worry?Why cant I just let life be?It always has to be something.

Do you thin I will get some answers when I talk to my Doctor?I am actullay seeing a diifrent one,I think,but in the same office.Maybe this one will be better,but,I like the other one as well.But havent met this one.I am fustated,I want to scream.when will life,just be life?when will it all be right?Anyways,I havent even layed down to take a nap.To late now,due to Boyfriend and I are probllay going out today.So,I will close this for now.The weather is crazy.LOL.Its stll nice out.Be safe and kool/warm out there.Peaceout.