Wed evening stuff.

Hi all,

How is everyone doing?Good I hope.I am doing alright here.My dad doesnt know what He wants to do.So,who knows whats going to happend.Which,I am not going to worry about it till it happends.Of course,you all are saying right now,you know you are going to worry.LOL.But thats that.

I am kinda excited about seeing a new Doctor.I am looking forward to it.I hope it is a good Doctor and I get some answers.I have to call the other Doc and cancel my app.Because,I am not going back there.No way.I hope I dont sit in there for hours.I dont think that will happend.But I will tell you all whats going on.I wrote a 3 page letter.LOL.

But on the other hand,I am doing pretty good right about now.I bought this tea called good mood tea and it is good.LOL.I add a little sugar and honey and I am good to go.I just wish it was tommrow already.LOL.But it will be.We dont get any trick or Treaters.I know I pictured a pic of my front of the house before and it looks like a haunted house at night.LOL.Plus we live way back in the back with other houses in between us.Besides our lights are always out.when we were little we used to have Halloween partys.It was fun and scary.LOL.Be safe and warm out there.This is probllay good night till tommrow.Peaceout.

 

What else could happend?

Its me again,

I feel like my world is crashing down.Maybe I am taking things out of portion.But there is a realastate lady here looking at the house.My Dad wants to rent it out.hes been thinking about that for the lonegst time.Now Hes finally going to do something about it.I can probllay say,nothing wont happend anytime soon.It will be a while.But,I am thinking ahead and you all know I worry to much.My Dad has been wanting to get out of this town for the longest time,so has Mom,well,move into a smaller house.Mom doesnt want move far.My Brother has been talking to my Dad.Unfortunllay.I cant move,I have so many things here,that I just cant move.

 

I have my Boyfriend, job here,my health insurance,My Dad is talking to Her now.I dont like this.I dont want to move.if this doe happend.I wll have to think of something.I dont know what.But,I will not move,even if it is an hour away,or 2.I just dont want to move.I have everything here.My life.

Funny,Mom just called my cell,to ask me if She was still here.She is in Her room,I am in mine,they are down stairs.LOL.I need a valum.LOL.Hey,do you guys have anything I should ask my Docto tommrow?I wrote everything down om paper and still need to write more.Anyways,I need to get off of here and get some things done.My Bathroom is a mess.LOL.She looked in there.I cleaned it as best as I could.My room is ok.LOL.Anyways.Be safe and warm.Peaceout.If I have to,I wll move in with someone,maybe my Sister,but,dont really want that.You all know how that is.

 

Happy Halloween everyone.

 

Happy Halloween everyone and be safe out there tonight.

 

 

                                                                           

                                                                                           

 

                                                                                             

                                                                         

 

                                                                              

 

 

Wed stuff.

Good moring all,

I hope you allare doing well.I had an ok night,but,my hands still sore.Good thing I am going to the Doctors tommrow,again.I hope I get some good resalts.Nothing much going on today.Boyfriend had to actullay work today.Bummer.It was His day off today,but,His Boss is stuck in Ca,so He says.You never know.He does lie alot.I do hope Hes ok,if He is.I will get to spend some time with Garry today anywas.I have alot going on I need to get done here at the house.

Tonight is Trick or Treating.You all be safe out there.Save some candy for me.No,I dont need anything.I think I put on a few pounds.I will work it off at work.LOL.I love to see all yals kids dressing up in there coustomes.I remember thoes days.I was a witch a few times.LOL.I was also a clown and a few other ones,I cant remember.LOL.

Well,I am going to get off of here and get some things done.I wish I was going to the DOctors today,but,i tommrow was better for me.I am going to call that other Doc and tell them I wont be coming back.Rellay makes me upset.But you got to do what you got todo.Have a nice day all.Be safe and warm out there.Peacout.

Its ok,I think.

Mom and are fine.We made up. :)

Hi all,

I hope you all are having a good evening.You all was right,as usllay.LOL.Mom and I are fine.I bought Her something to eat.She was happy about that.On the other hand,I am happy and nt so happy.because let me tell you,my hands,both hands,my left hand is swolen,red and finger tips are purple,same with the other hand.They hurt so bad.I want to cry.They hurt,I cant stand it.I cant belive the Doctor I was seeing never even bothered to call.Well,I am not going back there,but will call them and tell them why I am not going back there.They didnt care enough to call me,what if it was a real Er,which it wasnt to bad,but,now,I feel it is,because I am in pain with my hands.

I thought this would be a good Doc,but,not.I am frustated with that because I been to so many and nothing.I get zip.I just hope this one I see on thursday,helps.I just now,have to write everything down on paper,like I always do,to let them know how I am feeling.I think I am going to head off of here and show Dad my hands.Its pretty bad.So,I will be back later.Peaceout.

                                       

I am hoping this to shall pass?

I am kinda sad right now,I guess I shouldnt have said what I said to my Mom.It was a joke,but,She didnt take it to well.I think She is really mad at me.I hate that feelinf of Her being mad at me.I didnt mean anything by it and told Her that and said I was sorry.But,She is not happy with me right now.I am not happy with myself right now.I am getting ready t go out.I feel like crying.But,maybe it will be over with and forgotton.I hope.I really hope so.I wanted to make Her laugh and I guess it didnt.I wrote Her a not and I did tell Her sorry in person,but also wrote Her a note saying I was sorry and didnt mean it.I told Her I would get Her something while I was out,but,wonder if She will take it.LOL.Its not funny.I still feel like crying.Please pray that She will forget about it.I so wish She had health insurance.To be honest,this is one of the reasons why I am depressed.Dont get me worng.I love my Mom so much and we are close,maybe to close,sometimes.LOL.But thats what I wanted to share with you all before I leave and I will tell the Doc why I am cancling,can you belive,they never called me.That is just rude.Have a good day.be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.Hopfully,this to shall pass?

Tuesday moring.

God moring all,

I know alot oof you all are stil in bed,wish I was.but,I can sleep in tommrow.I am off tommrow.Its been a long time,since Gary and I had a same day off together.It should be nice.Well,I finally had to make a call to see another Doctor.The Doc I was seeing was off again today and never had call me.I dont know if they are ignoring me or no.So,I am not dealing with that again.I will hae to call and cancle the app I had for next month.Do you think I should tell them why I am cancling?

I will probllay tell them why I am cancling.It just makes me mad,they never called me back.They had a whole weekend off.So,I am tired of it.And made another call.I see this one on Thursday,which I was susprised I got to see one this week.They take my insurance.Anyways,I beter head off of here.Gary will be here to pick me up soon.I hope you all  have a nice day.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.I will tell them about my hand,its hurting all the way through me shoulder,I know I have a touch of tendenitis.

Monday moring

Good moring all,

I hope you all are sleeping well.I am off to work in a bit.Its so hard waking  my Dad up.LOL.But,I know He wouldnt want to get up early to take me.I can understand that.But He doesnt  have to take me the rest of the week.Since my Garry will be taking me.We go into work at the same time.It is still dark here.Because it is only 5:30,I have to be at work at 6.Anyways,I better head off here and wake Him up again.I am going to try and call my Doc today,if I dont get anything,I may just have to look into another one.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

Tell me,what are your ways to relax?I got questions,need answers.LOL.

Hi all,

I was going to go in early with my Boyfrind in the moring,even thoe I have to still get up early,I just decded to wait to go in at 6 instead of 5:30.I get to stay up a little later.I have some questions for you all.What are your ways of relaxtion?Deep relaxtion?How do you relax?How do you let you worryies not get the best of you?Right now,I am drinking some hot tea,tension tammer tea,it helps a little.I added a little honey to it.I want to know so many things.Can you really train your mind into being a posative good one and not always thinking of a bad mind?If you all know what I mean?Well,I am going to go for now.I smell dinner,its not ready yet.But it sure does smell good.Have a good night all.I will probllay be back later,maybe.Be safe and warm.Peaceout.Oh yeah,does tea really help you relax?what ways help ypu relax?

Just Stuff.

Hi all,

I hope you all are having a good day.I am doing good here.Work was work,glad to be home.I just did my work,cleaned up and went home.It was an ok day,me and that other Co worker dont talk at all.She is so fake as She can be.I am sorry,just had to say that.I cant stand people that way.But,you cant always get your pick,if you know what I mean.LOL.Speaking of the one who is in Jail,She is now in the Hosiptal,doing well,I did talk to Her on the phone.She seems happy.Just hope things goe better for Her.

On another note,I cant wait till tommrow, am calling my Doctor first thing in the moring.I hope I will get an answer.Maybe I will have to go in and see Her.But I need to,yet again.If I go in,things will be worked out.My hands hurt.They better not be off yet again.They was off the whole weekend.Or I will get another Doctor.we shall see,Anyways,I am going to get off of here and get a few tings done.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

Nity nite.

Good evening all,

I hope you all are having a good one.I am doing good here.I am just getting ready to head to bed.My hands on the other hand,not so great.They hurt all over,they are sore,swollen and red.I will call my Doc Monda moring.I dont know if this sounds stupid,but,if I touch anything,even typing,my hands hurt.They feel hot.But I will make it till Monday.Seeing as thoe my Doc has never called me anyways.I hope you all have a good night.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

Its that time again,Trick Or Treat Thru J-Land.This is so much fun.

Trick or Trea Thru J Land,once again,I love this time.

thank you Donna for the great opening Jland tag

Here's how to play. We're making our way through the neighborhood. If you'd like to play along make yourself a Halloween entry (snag the tag above if you like, Donna was nice enough to make it for us all to share) in your journal.

Come here leave me a comment with a link to your trick or treat entry. When you visit all your friends don't forget to leave the link and ask for a visit. See how many Jlanders knock on your door. Even if you don't have a journal you can visit and leave a comment too. This is a great way to make new friends. Hope everyone can play along.

                   

 

Just stuff.

Its me again,why does it seem as thoe I am a night person,I dont want to go to work tommrow,told,you,had alot of  things to get off my mind.I am  night person as well.I kinda wish it was night all the time,I know,werid,like around 8 is my time to settel down and get relaxed,if I can.If I cant get through to my Doctor,I will have to call my Sycolgyst,I know,I spelled that worng.But,dont know what else to do.I know I have Restless Leg Syndrome.Right now,I am kinda relaxed and I could probllay go to sleep.LOL.

I want some answers and I want some now.LOL.I dont want to go to work and deal with people there.I know I will have a heavey week next week,due to someone being out,in Jail.She is in lock up.I really dont know what happend to that and I dont ask.Well,I listen.LOL.I dont want to deal with the other whats Her face either.She is so fake,its not funny,you can see right through Her,even when She told the head Boss,that She calls me to check up on me when I am sick and not feeling good.Big deal.People just get on my last nerve.LOL.I am tired of getting up early.I am tired of doing alot of things.

Does it seem like I am complaing alot?I am sorry,I am greatful for so many things,but,right now,all I want to do is just feel better for my health wise and my whole body.I do try to smile and I like to smile.I love to do alot of things.Anyways,I am going to get off of here and get some sleep.I have to wake up early in the moring.Well,not to early this time,well,it is but,oh well.LOL.Have a good night all.Be safe and warm.Peaceout.

I seem to have alot of questions.

Good evenin all,

I feel so stressed out,I been trying to get a hold of my Doctor all weekend,they ben off since Friday,so,I probllay wont hear anything till Monday,unless they call tommrow why I am at work.I dont know.How do you just let things not stress you out?What?By keeping yourself so busy,you wont even noticed?Kinda hard.I will probllay have to make another app to se the Doctor.I really dont want to,knowing I would have to wait for hours in there.

Maybe they will call tommrow,or if they cal on Monday,they can just give me a diifrent medicine for me,so,I wont have to go in.The worng Doctor called so I had to call back and tell them.How do you jsut stop worrying?Someone please tell me?Stressed out from work,from life,ect.Do you think I worry to much?LOL.I can tell you and be honest with you all,I want a pain killer,but,I dont have any,so,dont worry.I do have something to help me sleep,but thats what is kinda not helping me that much.So,I will just have to wait and see.I cant belive the Doctors office had a whole weekend off.Sounds nice to me.LOL.Uggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!

 

How do you all do it?How do you all just let things go?You think I should keep calling or wait till Monday?Maybe I should just wait till Monday.I think I can hold off =,I held off this long,I can hold off till MOnday moring.I am just stresseed out.How does one person who doesnt take anything,nothing for depression,nothing to help them sleep or anything,how do you just do it?I would really like to know?I did how ever take a shot this evening which I havent took one for a long while,which is bad for me.My Arthitis shot,so,it is helping a little.I take it every other week.

I am reading a book I got from the Libray,which I think they have my Id,so,I might have to go back there next week.Its called,Acupessure for Emotional Healing.What have you all tryed to help you all get through your day of crazyness?I would love to know.I am going to do another entry,so,I am ending this one now,I seem to have alot of questions.LOL.

I am tired.

Hi all,

How is everyone doing?Good i hope.i am,well,I need to vent,Havent i done that already?LOL.Well,I am going to do it again.work is crazy,I need a vaction.I had to have a meeting with the head Boss of the whole stoor,my bakery manager and one of my Co workers,not the one who is in jail.This is another one.I problayy mentioned before.she really gets on my last nerve,We went into the office,I was so nervous and I didnt know what to say.we got it all out.She,the co woekrer who I dont get along with,well,everyone doesnt get along with.

She says that I should know how She acts and I do,but doesnt give Her the right to treat me like that,I feel very timataded around Her and I dont like it.She acts like She is boss and Shes not.So I stood up and stood my ground.If She wants to be a Boss,She needs to be one,but if She ever is,I will leave.LOL.But I dont think She willI think she wants to leave.Fine by me.LOL.Anyways,I am going to go lay down and take a nap.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.