Cya Tomrmow.

Hi all,

          Its been a long day,well,yes,I know its late and I should be sleeping,I am actullay working tommrow.So,thats good.How ever,my work today,didnt go well at the begining,but,in the end was ok.When I went into work,I had to go to the office,I got written up for my first verbal warning for a little girl who sliped right in front of the bakery.Yes it was my falt,I couldnt find a wet sign,but now we have one.Work hasnt been going well for me.But I did my best today and try not to cry when I got it.I wanted to cry so hard when I punched in and went to work.But,I held it in.I didnt really talk to anyone,jsut did my work till my other coworker came in at 4.We talk.Work has been driving me nuts and I just really want it all to go away!!!!!

I just dont know what to do anymore.Maybe God is trying to tell me something,I dont know.Just right now,I am doing what I am doing,thats all I can do.I feel like giving up and quiting,but I wont,than I would feel like I have lost everything I have worked so hard to get.Maybe things will get better.they cant get any worse.I been trying to stay away from Tiffany.I feel like right now,I am nothing,that people at work cant see who I realy am.Bt if they want to have it there way,than let it be.Well,I am going to try and get some sleep.I hope you all have a nice weekend and a nice Sunday.Be safe/warm and kool out there.Peaceout.

Sat happenings

Good moring everyone,

Hope you all had a good nights rest.I could of slept better,but,I didnt.I kept waking up and going to the bathroom and than when I finally woke up this moring,I felt very stiff.I hate that feeling,in my neck and shoulders.

I will be heading off to work in a little while,at least I dont have to work late tonight.I am not worried about work,that much anymore.I just go in there,do my thing and leave.I do come in and say hello,thats about it.lol.The other day,it did feel werid for the first time seeing my Boss in a while,because I work at nights.She couldnt even look me in the eye,thats how I know,She was in the worng.I know Shes mad,but,She will get over it.If nothing has been said by now,its not going to be.I dont even tak to Tiffany anymore either and I really dont care that much either.She calls me,but,I cant seem to call Her back.Why should I?Yes,I guess,I am still hurt by what they say to Tiffany.How can they say I use people?Anyone who knows me,knows the kind of person I am.Yeah,I know,I make mistakes,but,I am only human.Tiffan is slow,very slow,I think,not only think,I know,they give Her more attention than me,it used to bother me,but,it doesnt.Because,I know,what they are doing.I know some of you all say I need to look for a better job,maybe I should,but,I cant right now,but,I am praying about this and have been.I have my health insurance with this job and thats what I need.So,untill somehting good happends,I am sticking with it.I just cant belive my Boss wont even stand up for what She said,because,I know,She knows,I know,if you know what I mean.lol.But I been better about this.I go into today and I see the other asst manager who I also havent seen in ages.But,trying not worry about that.I think you all for caring about e and praying for me.I hope you all have a nice wekend.Be safe and warm and kool.Peaceout.

TGIF Weekend.

Good moring all,

Hope you all slept well,I was tossing and turning there for a while,dont know why.So,I took an Ambien and it helped for a while.When I wake up in the moring,I am all stiff,dont know why.But I do,do the stretching in the moring.lol.So,whats everyones plans for the weekend?I hope you all are having a good one.

About work,it went ok.when I came in,I saw my Boss clocking out and I didnt even say anything,She knew She saw me.But when I went back to my work,I said hello and asked Her how She was doing.Thats all we said was thoes words.man,you could feel the tension between us.I know things are very diffrent between us now and I dont mind it.It still does bother me,to think,She thinks,I am a bad person that I would use people.She knows I know,because,I am sure when I talked to the other co worker the other day,I told Her and I know She said something.Nut nothing was said and it will saty that way.I like it this way.It is fine with me.

Thats the first I saw Her in a long time and I havent even seen my asst manager,I will probllay see Her tommrow and you know,She better not saying Boo Hoo to mme.lol.Ok,now onto some other good news.I saw my Brother and the family last night.They were at the house when my Dad picked me up from work.It was nice to see all of them.They have gotton so big and tall.I saw the baby and I got to hold Her,She is so precious and adorable.My oldest neice Emily,My Sister N law says,Emily is like a 2 Mom.lol.She is good with kids.I missed them alot and it was good to see them.My Sister N law hurt Her ankle on a manhole,I guess thats what they call it in London and when She went to the Doctor,they didnt even wrap it up,they do here in America,but,mot in London.Dont know why.Anyways,I need to get off of here and get some things done.I hope you all have a nice weekend.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

 

w onto some

Whats in a name.This was kinda hard.lol.

What's in a name...

Your Name: Amanda

Famous Music artist/group:Alanis Morisseette

3 letter word: Ahead

Color:Alphabet colors

Gift/present: Air

Vehicle: Acura

TV Show: Angel

Country: Liechtenstein

Boy's Name: Aagail

Girl's Name: Adam

Alcoholic drink: Apple Martini,which I never had.lol

Occupation: A bakery dapartment,in a groice stoor

Flower: Azalea's

Celebrity: Ashley Judd

Food: Appetieizer

xSomething found in a kitchen: Apples

Reason for Being Late: Alarm going off,ut,I am never late.lol.

Something You Shout: About it,dobut it,baby.lol.I dont say it,but,came to my mind.lol.

I did it,so,now its your turn,have fun.

Thursday Happenings

Hi all,

Good Afternoon.I hope everyone is having a good one.I wanted to thank each and everyone of you all who left so many kind and caring words in my entry yesterday.You all gave me so much good advice.I want to thank you,for being there for me.I wouldnt know what I would do with you all.Thats what we all thank of eachother here in J-land,when we all go through struggles and trials,we all know we are there for eachother.I love you all for it.You are the best of the best!!!

Now,I would like to talk about some stuff in my life.I relize my life isnt over,so many times,even now in this day,I think,this is it,this is my life.I want to so much get up and do something.But I just cant,its that fear of being out there in the world,oh,I know,everyone has told me to take baby steps,I cant even do that and you all dont knkw how much I need to get out there and just go for it.I want to make and meet friends,good friends who will encourge me,just like you all do.I want to make a diffrence out of my life.I dont want my work,just to be my life,you know?I want more out of my life and I dont know how to do that.

Were do you go from here?I know I made many mistakes lately and havent heard the last of it.How do you just have fun in your life and stop worrying all the time?I have got so many things in my life I need to.with work,sometimes I want to quit and I cant and people at work who I have talk to,who I can trust,they tell me to stick with it,because,I need to.Anyways,this has gone on long enough.I need to get off of here and get ready for work.I dread going in there.My Sister tells me when I go into work,just ignore them and thats what I planed on doing the first thing.I know I did make one mistake last night,when moping the floor I had to much water on the floor and a little girl got hurt,just a bruise,but,the manager of the stoor had to take pics and probllay will give it to my Boss.If I get written up,than I do,I could go back and say what She did to me,but I wont do that.I just go in there execpt what I did and do my work.well,I better get off.Thank you all again.Thanks Cherry,you comment made me laugh.But,I know you and everyone is right.Have a nice day all.be safe and warm and kool out there.Peaceout.

 

upsetting news about work.

I just  found some upsetting news about work.I didnt find out from work,I found this our from Tiffany telling Her friend who is a friend a mine outside of work who used to work there.I am so upset about this and I am not sure how to handel it.I have been crying so much about work lately.I know I have messed some things up,but what I found out today,is not right at all.My Boss telling Tiffany that they all think i am using Tiffany,calling and asking about Her hours,when Shes working or not.When Tiffany has called and rubbed into me that She has more hours than I do.Its not right.They told Tiffany to watch Her back.that She shouldnt be around me.Well thats fine,2 can play at that game.Tiffany calls me friend and my friend calls me to tell me that.I have been so upset,crying,not knwoing what I should do.I may go in a little bit early,if my Boss is there,I may talk to Her about it.What do you all think I should?My boyfriend says leave it alone,it will pass.But its upsetting me and I dont know what to do.I am about to quit or see if I can be moved to another dapartment in the stoor.They dont know me,they dont the kind of person I can be and to think they can think of me like that.I dont know what I am going to do.But I do need to get off of here and get ready for work.I need to see if my Dad can take me in early.I hope you all have a nice day.Peaceout.By the way,its nice here,in the 70s.Spring is here next is Summer.Wooooooooooooohooooooo.

Wed Happenings.

 

Good moring all,

              I hope you all is having a good start of the day.I am doing alright here.Just tired.I had a long fun day yesterday.I didnt get home till almost 8 last night.I go to work today at 3 to 8.Its kinda gloomy here.Maybe thats why I want to go back to sleep.

My ankel still hurts and I am limping,I am going to make an app with my boyfriends Doctor,He is an foot ankel Doctor.Seems latey all I been having is pains.I am getting old.lol.Of course I will be 35 in May. keeep hearing that saying,the more you get older,the more aches and pains you have.lol.Well,I am going to get off of here and get some things done.I hope you all have a nice day.I think I might go back and take a short nap.Have a good day all.Be safe and warm/kool out there.Peaceout.

It sure is a nice day!!!Enjoy it!!!

Good moring all,

         Hope you had a good nights rest.I slept some what ok,but woke up dp to the fact my ankle was hurting me sooo bad,I had to take 2 tonal 3 to take some of the pain away.It did for a while,but,didnt last long.I am ok to walk on it.I just hope it all gets bettter.Seems like I am complaining about something.lol.

I just want all my J-landers who are going through cancer and other things,just know,I am praying for you all,I am praying for Sugars surgey,that all will go well,I am praying for Jeannetts recovery and for Joyce(Springtimes)Mom and who else is going through trials and strugles.I pray for you all that God is with you and holding your hand.

I am going out with Gary today,we are going to go pla the slots and have lunch over the bay bridge,thats if were still doing that.I havent been able to get a hold of Him this moring.We do this every once in a blue moon.lolBut its nice to take a day trip.I havent seen my Brother and the family yet.I think they are comming over today to See Mom and Dad,I may not be here.But they are having a welcome home party for them at one of the friends from the church they sed to go here before they went to London.

So I will think about going to that one.They said that if you want to bring a gift,bring something for the kids,because,they dont have any toys,except for what they had in there carry on bags,so maybe I will get to a Dollar Stoor and get a few things for them.I dont even know what Emily likes anymore.Shes 11,I know girly stuff,but,what kind of girly stuff.Any ideas would be helpful.Anyways,I better get off of here and get a few things done.I hope you all have a nice day.the sun is out,shining bright.I also wanted to thank you all for being so kind and caring for the comments you all give me.You all are such a blessing.Well,I bettter run and get ready.Be safe and warm/kool out there.Peaceout.

An exciting day!!!

Good Moring all,

                     Hope you all slept well,I could of slept better .Its a good thing I am going to see my Doctor and tell Him whats going on,it is my Sycloagyst,I know,I spelled that worng.I am a bad speller when it comes to big words.lol.When I wake up in the moring,I am in more pain than usllay.My neck is always killing me and my shoulder.I dont know why.I like to write things down on paper and tell Him,so,thats what I am going to do.We will see what happends.

Today is an exciting day for all of us.My Brother and His family will be here this evening from London.I know everyone is looking forward to seeing them and the new baby.Dont worry,I will be taking alot of pics.How ever,I do need to get another chip for my Digtal.I would love to go to the airport and see them all come in,but,I have an app,so,I cant.

I still been thinking on a 2 journal,a christian journal,still debating rather I should do it or not.I amm not sure.But,I feel thoe as God has been telling me to do this,to get closer to God.But dont know when I will be doing this.Anyways,I guess I should get off of here and get some things done.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

almost time for me to go to work.

Good AfterNoon everyone,

                   Hope all is good on your end.Ii am off to work in a little bit.I so do not want to go.All I feel like doing is sleeping all day long.But mayne I can do that tommrow.I uslay never get a chance to sleep in like use to a long time aog.lol.Only on days when Gary has eventory,which is about every 4 weeks.So He works tommrow moring,gets off about 12,goes home,sleeps about 9:30,goes back to work at 11 and starts doing His eventory,which His Boss shoukd bedoing,thats not His job.But Hes Da man.lol.So,I dont see Him till Monday.I was usllay offf today,but they relized they didnt have no closer,so,I am closing.Just hope it itsnt to bust and it goes by fast.I hope I am working by myself.I am still thinking about that 2 journal.Monday is almost here for my Brothe and family comming home.Have a nice weekend all.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

Photo Scvanger Hunt #106

Photo Scavanger Hunt #106

This is my Photo Scvanger Hunt 106,hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

That is my Mom and one of my nephews Sean and the net,that is a set of three.lol.

This is actullay my couisn,but,we raised Him since He was little,so I call Him my brother.Thats Him,His wife and little Ashley,who isnt so little anymore.Shes,I think 5 and has another Sister and a Brother.

My 3 little rug rats who spent the 2 weeks here while there Mom and Dad was in Hawii.Thet were good kids thoe.

This one is of my Sister N law married to my 2 oldest brother,She is with Her to kids,Jeffrey and Maddison,they have 2 other kids,Shannon who is the oldest and baby Alexander.

Not a very good pic,I took it off my cell,sorry aboutthe glare.This is my Sister N law in London,with Zack on the left and Emily on the right,who has also,Stephen,Jacob and Felisity who will be here this comming Monday.

The three stooges,Zack,Kyle and Stephen,2 years ago on Thanksgiving Day.

My Grandparents when yougner,holding one of my uncles.

Isnt this the cutest picture,Stephen,Emily and Zack.

I know,not a good pic,sorry again about the glare.This is when we were little,mt other brother is in it,I tryed doing another set of 3 with Him,but couldnt.lol.Thats my Oldest brother,my Sister and I.

Mom,Emily and Kyle.lol.

Gary and I and the Ocean.So that includes my Photo Scvanger Hunt #106,hope you all liked it as much as I did.

I would ike everyones opoion,ideas,advice on a new journal,I want to make.

Hi all,

       It just dawned on me,maybe this is what God is telling me to do.Maybe this is what I need,to get my faith back,in beliving god is there.I want to make another journal,not a private one.I want to make a Christian journal for myself.Just something I can come to.I feel that god has been talking to me and teling me to do this.If you have any ideas,advice,let me know.I think I could really use this.Let me know how I can make this journal right for me.Like my own private talk with God.I have been so out of touch,that I need Him back in my life.I belive that all my J-land people have been reaching out to me and praying for me and showing me the way.I need this.But dont know how to go about this.So,any ideas,advice,would be greatful.Thank you.Also,like,how to put the right colors,ect.I really want this,even thoe it will be hard,I want this.Thank you.Peaceout.

TGIF

Good moring all,

                Hope you all alspet well.I slept good but when I woke up this moring,my right ankle and foot is killing me.I dont know why.I dont think I have bruisd it,maybe I did and didnt notice it.I am still nervous about work.I had left the note for my Boss to call me,but She never had.So,I guess I will leave it aloneI just dont want anyone else saying anything to me.That is my Bosses doing.I know I gott other people invloved,but,its not going to happend anymore.I still think they are favoritism Tiffany.

I made the mistake of telling my friend some things and Tiffany talks to Her and Tiffany was going to tell the Boss to give me more hours.I had to call Tiffany and tell Her do not say anything,I can handle it.I told Her it was over and done with.But what I cant belive is,when I told Her I needed space away from Her,all She is worried about is,are you still comming to my bday party for Her sleep over.I cant belive it.But I guess I can beause She is slow.I told Her I dont know,because,guess what guys.My brother and family from London will be here this Monday.I cant wait,I am excited.We will finally get to see the new baby.Dont worry,I will be taking alot of pics and I know everyone else will.

I know my Mom is looking forward to seeing them.We wont have them Easter Sunday,but will have them over that Monday.My SIster will want to use my Air mattress.lol.I am so tired,I think I will go back to bed.I am still neverous everytime I go into work,thinnking they will say something.I am just going to have to try and not think about it.But other than that,I guess I am doing ok.lol.I think Spring has finally sprung.lol.Which I am glad.I hope you all have a nice weekend.Be safe/warm and kool.Peaceout.

Thursday.

Hello everyone,

              I hope everyone is having a good day.I am doing some better.Man,let me tell you,its been a very stressful 2 weeks.I love my neice and nephews,but,I am so glad I have my quiet back.I so needed it.I woke up this moring feeling kinda ok.I took 2 of my depression pills,it helped me relaxed and still is helping me to relax.I am not going to worry about work,well,try not to anyways.If they want to talk to me,they can,if they want to give me more hours and help me out somewere else in the stoor,thats fine to.I did leave a note telling my Boss I would like to talk to Her and gave Her both my numbers.But no call yet.So,I am not going to worry about it.You know me,you know how that goes.lol.

I think I been stressing out so much for one reason,the kids had been here,but,the have been really good kids,I have to tell you.They were bought up the right way.They have good parents.My Sister and Her Husband is going to report the airlines,because they had a lously trip,they didnt get fed at all and that was a day trip,come on now.They said they was so hungry,after church last night they went to dinner with the kids.So,that was good.The kids missed them so much and was so glad to see them.Gary said He called up at work to talk to His produce manager and asked if everything was ok,it was,I cant belive after all that,nothing was said.But the day isnt over yet.Maybe they will talk with me when I go in today.not sure.But let me tell you,from now on,things will be diffrent.I will go in,do my work and leave.As I have been.Tiffan just called my cell phone,I am not returning Her call,I cant talk to Her right now,I wouldnt even know what to say.So as for as now,I guess things are ok.I have to start standing up for myself,I dont know how to do that,but,I need to start doing it.With that said,I think I got my sainty back for now.lol.I am still working on my Scvanger hunt.Wont post that till maybe tommrow or Sat.I have more pics to do.Hope you all have a great day.Be safe/warm/kool.Peaceout.