Kinda long,sorry,my bad.lol.

Are you all out there?Hope yal had a grand ole day.Mine was ok.A little stressful at work,but,I guess it was alright.One of my coworkers tells me,She knows when I can get everything done and She knows when I cant get things done.That jsut burns my buble.When Shes back there talking all the time,I mean all the time on her dagon cell phone all moring long.Who does She talk to?Who does She think She is,whcn can tell me how I work from day to day.She dont know me,She dont know what I can do.i probllay have mention in one of my entrys way back about a girl we have in our dapartment.Shes slow,I know I should be this way,but sometimes it bothers me,because,people kinda stick up for Her,trying to be all nice to Her,jsut because She is slow,She doesnt have a good living sitution.I try my best for Her and be a friend to Her.I would have Her over and soend the night withShe would,She would spend the night with me and we would hang out.But sometimes,it is just to much.I feel like,no one gives me credit for anything,for anything I do.Do I sound jealous?I guess I am,I am sorry for being that way,But I feel,right now,chop liver.lol.JUst beacuse I have a good life,I have a good family who is there for me,a good boyfriend who is always there for and maybe thats why they treat Her more better than I do.Maybe its just me.But I feel like I am on the back burner.No one ever says thank you,well,I take that back,my boss has said thank you to me for doing good.Shes a good boss,not like the boss we have had before,She was a good boss to and done alot for me.One thing I like about this boss is,you have no worrys when your day is over,you know how sometimes,you mess up,but this time,She would say its ok,dont worry about it.I really want to try and make a better life for me.I just dont know how to do that.What is it that I want out of my life?I know my Mom would love to see me in church all the time,regulary,I love the Lord,I am a christian,ok,but maybe I have my doubts about that.I was in church a long time,I guess I stoped going maybe about the time when I was dating my boyfriend.My boyfriend never told me I didnt have to stop going,He even told me to go.But I dont know about that.My family is a christian family,but for my Dad,He isnt saved and doesnt know the Lord,my boyfriend is catholic.My,I dont know what I want.I try and be the good person,but I just cant do it anymore.To stressful.So,hod do you have a good time?I am thankful for all the advice you all give to me.Am I saying the same thing over in my journal?Do I sound happy?Am I being a pitty party?How do I turn things around?Kinda getting of the subject here,I been doing laundry all day,just waiting for it to stop,let it dry and put them up.I am so tired from doing so much for the last few days.Like I said,getting ready for next week.Knowing what I need to pack,what to wear.I will say,my Mom had always told me She wasnt to crazy about me going,because She is fromt he old school,wanting me married before you know.lol.I think my Dad used to be like that,but He is like,He dont care.lol.I have to find ways into stop worrying about so much,about work,about what people say about me.About how I look on life.Uggggggggg,I am so tired,I could sleep the whole night through.One the other hand,my shoulder feels better.Knock on wood.After the accident,it felt better.lol.This moring it was sore.Man,if I was writting this all down on paper,my hands would hurt.A funny thing thoe,when I do write things out on paper,my hands start to shake,dont know why.But I belive I have to get off of here now.Dadyo wants on here to check His stocks.Good thing He doesnt chechk my journal.But I guess I better get off of here,tend to my laundry,among many other things.Sorry it is long.My bad.Hope you all have a nice night.Thanks for caring and just being YOU!!!God bless you all.Peace.