Being lazy and not doing much of nothing.lol.

Hi all,

          How is everyone doing?Good I hope.I am not doing so well here.I feel sick to my stomach,feel like I am going to throw up.I jsut hope I am not catching anything.I am sooooo cold,I dont feel like doing much of anything,not even taking a shower.I havent like that in a long time,that is werid.Mom says I should problay get a flu shot this year,I never get em and I work in a griocer stoor.I dont even know what I am really saying.I feel werid and yku.Like i said,the first time,I havent felt like that in a long,long time.Oh yah,I wanted to mention again,if anyone is still playing the magnet game or going to start something new,let me know.Me neice is driving me crazy.Of course,the computer has to be down stairs,and thats were the play room is.lol.My nephews are here also,they are every SAt,because,my Sister and Her Husband go around to visit people and get peopel to come to church.My neice loves to take over the play room.lol.She wont give Her brothers anthing,And She said,they are getting on Her nerves,I said,your nerves?lol.Oh well,they wont be here to long.I think I am going to have to cut this short.I really want to take a bath or maybe just a quick shower,but,I dont feel like doing anyhting.Wonder if it is my alagries.I think I might take a benadryl.I hope you all have a wodnerful weekend.Be safe out there.Peaceout.Oh yeah,I would have worked from 1 to 5 today,but,I got lucked out and they called me.I was glad.My Mom yells up the siairs and I was on the puter.lol.So funny,She does that all the time.Anyways,cya later.

Welcome to the world Felisty Ann!!!!!!!!!

Hi good moring to you all,

                  Hope you all are having a n ice day.It sure looks pretty outside.But I am feeling a bit grogy this moring,I tihnk it is my alagries acting up a little bit.Either that or I need to go back to sleep.lol.The phone kept on ringing off and on through out the moring.We now have another little baby girl,My Sister N law in London,She and the baby are fine.I am so glad they are both ok,but I am excited for my neice Emily,She now has a little Sister,after 3 boys.lol.I was telling you all that they all had red hair,She came out with black hair.lol.I will have to get the correct spelling on Her name.But it is Felisity Ann,not sure how much She weighs,just know they are both fine.I am sure my neice Emily,is so exicted.Shes going to be a good big Sister.It makes me happy.On another note,all I feel like doing is jsut going back to bed,did I say hat before?Oh well.Sometimes,it can be  pain,knowing you have to come into work,working 1 to 5 today and tommrow,I just dread waiting so long to go in.lol.Now that I dont feel good.Its just my alagries.But I am trying to get stuff done,so,I wont have to do it tonight.lol.We had a bad storm last night,but it was over in a few seconds.But,it was thundering,lighting and heavy winds.Good sleeping weather.I am going to get off of here,get a few more things done.I had to wash me sheet,smelled like bengay.lol.I think I will get the ben gay patches.lol.Hey,the stuff works,just dont put it on right after you shower.lol.Your shoulder,neck,will burn.WISHING AND HOPING, PRAYING AND BELIEVING,nelishianatl,tank you  so much for trying to help me out with the pics,still confused about it,dont understand,either that,or,I am doing something worng.lol.I would like to make it easyer for me to just add pics without pohotobucket,I like photobucket,but,would be alot easyer if I didnt have to go through all that.lol.So if you know anymore ideas,or if anyone does,let me know.I hope you all have a beatiful day.I am an Aunt again.Wooooooooohooooooooooo.Welcome to the world,baby Felisty Ann,Will let you know more later on.Peaceout.Just another note to add,that will make 16 all together,necies and nephews I have.

Just talking.Nothing more than that.lol.

                               Hi all,

                         Hope everyone is doing good.I am doing good here.I dont have to get up to early in the moring tommrow,so,I can sleep in some.Unless,you never know,they might call me in.My Mom is so anixous,waiting for my the call that the baby has come.My sister N law in London,should of had the baby last wed,but,I guess they do things diffrent there.what I really need to do is sit down one day and post some pics of all the kids,well,in my early entrys,they are some.But,my Brother and family in London,Let me tell you a little story,they have Emily,Stephen Jr,Zack and Jacob,would you belive,everyone one of them has red hair,I mean,you talking about red hair,carrot,red hair.lol.I used to tease my Sister and call Her carrots all the time,She is the only one in my family who has red hair besides my neice and nephews in London.Would it be funny,if the baby came out with another diffrent color of hair.I want the baby to be a healthy baby,but,for my neice,who is,I can never for the life of me remember there ages and everyone always ask me.lol.I think She is 10 or 11.lol.She really wants a Sister,I know She would be an AWSOME big Sister.They even picked out a name,I wil type it out,but probllay spell it worng.Falisity.I know,I spelled it worng,but,I love that name.Today,things have actullay calme down here some.that is good.I keep praying that my Mom will find a friend,someone that She could go out once in a while.She has friends that who She talks on the phone with,but they dont live close.I feel prety good today,but for some reason,alot of things on my mind.Theres always things on my mind.lol.So,maybe I will sit here and tell you a little more about myself before I head off of here,because,I know,I am missing my show.lol.Oh well.I am 34,I am the baby of 3 brothers and 1 sister.I am the only one living at home,just me,my Mom and Dad.All of my brothers and Sister are married and have kids of there own.Let me see,the oldest,Steve,whos in London the one I was telling you about,He Has 4 kids,one on the way.My Sister,has 3 kids,Kyle,was the only grandson for so long,Emily was the 2,and so on.lol.I lost count who came after that.lol.But my Sister,has Kyle,Katie and Sean,Katie, is a rabit.lol.Neve wants to sit down and always wants attention,my Sister says,She is,what do you call it,the middle kid who gets left out,but She really doesnt.lol.Ok,whos next?My 3 brother,which is the 2 youngest after Steve,I am confusing myself.lol.Jeff,or Jeffrey,is married and has 4 kids,Shannon,Maddison,Jeffrey and Alexander.And onto the last,I probllay mention before,that He is my couisn,but we call Him my brother,Allen,who is also married and has 3 kids,Ashley,Stephine and little Steve.So there you have it.I am the only one left home now.Will I ever leave home.that is the question?If you have anymore questions,just let me know.Told ya,I have a big family and it keeps on growing.No,I dont have any kids.lol.Well,thanks for listning to me rambling on.I am going to get off of here and go watch the rest of what I am missing.Smallvillie,or how ever you spell it.God bless you all and have a wodnerful night.By they way,what color you all think I should stick with in my journal back ground,what color fits me?Peaceout.

Heading off to work.

Hi all,

     Good moring,just a quicky before I leave.I hope everyone will have a good day.Looks nice here.Thank you all so much for your concern and prayers,please keep on prayong.I will do the same.It sure does help alot.Anyways,I better get off and get going.Love you all,have a wodnerful day and be safe out there.Peaceout.

Just playing around.

ok,I am about to head to bed,I just got off of work,man,being back in the swing of things,after being off a whole week,taks a toll on you,specillay when I had to work tonight,wasnt to bad,just my shoulder kinda hurting.But I am going to bed soon.While I was at work,I said a prayer for my Mom and kept praying.I am going to keep praying,that She meets a good friend,that will maybe hang out.We were both fine this evening.Ok,off the subject,I am going to hurt that criket.WHy do they always seem to come into our house?It is so loud,can wake anyone up.lol.It seems like,there is one if every room,or it just maybe the same criket.Why cant they just stay outside?Dagon it.Good thing,I cant hear it while I am sleeping.Anyhooo,hope you all had a good evening.I will probllay talk to you in the Am or in the Pm.lol.Now,go eat some choclate!!!.lol.Bye Bye.

Rambling

 

Good moring all,

           Hope you all having a good start of a day.today is Wed.lol.I guess its been an ok day,somewhat,with my Mom kinda getting on my nerves.You all know I love my Mom,but sometimes to much cloessness is to much.I feel She wants me to be there for Her all the time.I guess I made the mistake os asking HEr,you want me to go to the stoor with you?I will already be going to a storr,to were I work at.She always throws this in my face,if it was Gary,you would go in a heart beat,She didnt say thoes exact words,but,it kinda felt like She was saying that.Than She asks me what time I work tommrow and if I need a ride home,I said,I didnt need a ride home,gary was picking me up.I said,did you want to do something?She said,no,you have your own life.I feel like She really makes me feel guilty.She depends on me alot and sometimes,I feel like ust being left alone.If you all could say a prayer for Her,I would be greatful for that.I know that She is depressed,I dont think She belives in taking any medicine to help with that,She taled about getting on something to calm Her nerves,but,would only take it if She really needs it.But I honestly,between you and I,I feel She needs to be on something.I think it would help Her alot,even thoe,alot of medicine She takes,make Her sick.I just feel like I am at my wits end.I feel I let Her down all the time,She doesnt say it,but the look in Her eyes,when She wants me to do soemthing,specillay going to church.What if I just dont want to feel like going?The other day at work,She calls me,but doesnt leave a message and I called Her back,She was upset,crying about something,dont know what,it was probllay nothing.Than She askes me,I really need you tonight to come with me to church,than She would say,just say,yes or no.She puts me on the spot.Today,right now,She is mad,angry,dont know why,She mostly yells at my Dad or me,if I dont want to do anything.Thats just it,I dont understand and I cant keep going on like this,it will drive me tottlay insane.I always look after Her,making She sure She gets soemthing to eat,while I am out with my boyfriend..Sometimes I feel like just packing it all in and say,I give up,thats it,I cant take anymore of it.That I jsut want to be left alone,on an island by myself,were I dont have to be bothered.Now I feel like I am bashing out my Mom,which I dont mean to do it,you all know I love Her.But I just cant take it anymore.I feel like She never sees that She does somethings worng,when She says,its my falt.Does that make me a bad person to say all this?It also kinda hurts me,that She is there more for my sister and HEr family.I know she will do anything for us kids.But when my Sister needs my Mom,She is always there.I think I may have said to much,so,I am going to stop.Hope you all have a nice day.Cya later.

My life is worth?

Hi,Good moring all,that is to funny,here is how much I am worth.I am a bit susprised myself.lol.Or maybe I did the list worng.lol.I hope you all have a great day.Cya later.

 

***Your Life Is Worth...***

$538,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?
http://www.blogthings.com/howmuchisyourlifeworthquiz/

Going to get a few things done.

Hi everyone,

          What is everyone up to tonight?I am probllay just going to chill.I dont have to be at work tommrow till 4 in the evening,so,I cab stay up a little late,but,probllay wont stay up that late,cause you never know if the going to call me in early or not.lol.Today was a good day.I got my movie,watched half of it,will finish it later.The lake house,it looks pretty good.Has anyone seen it?You ever get the feeling that sometimes people,even in your own family,just tottlay get on your nerves?I bet you do,or maybe you dont.Sometimes I want to be on an island all by myself,with all the things I need.lol.I had a little talk with my boyfriend about what I want in life,I actullay was bold enough to say,look,I am not going to be hanging around here forever waiting for someone to do the right thing and He keeps on saying I love you,I know He does,but,I also said,well sometimes that isnt enough,I want more out of life and you know it.He says give me a year,I say,ok,I see it,when I belive it.lol.Or how ever the saying goes.But I am getting to tired of waiting.But I do love Him and He does alot for me,ven thoe Him and my Mom dont get aong to good.They get along ok,but you know how Moms are,they want whats best for there daughters.She knows He is good to me,that is a good sign.But you know the rest,wont fill that in.lol.I need to get off of here,get a few things done before my shows come on.i will be watching a new epsiode of The Gilmore Girls and probllay will be watching Veronica mArs,even thoe there new shows wont start till oct.Not to far away.lol.I also bought a pari of new jeans,they look good on my,I love the stretch kind.lol.Well,hope you all have a good night,I will most likly be back on here later tonight.Till than,peaceout.

Family Tradtion Ghost Storys.Now I want to hear form you.

The ghost story behind this house....

 

We all grew up in this house,al 4 of us kids,sorry,count that as 5 kids,one of whom was my couisn,whom we took in and He is a brother to me.Anyways,thinking back and remembering all the storys that was told about this house and let me tell you,if you took one look at this house on the outside,it might as well be a haunted house,because it looks like on,still looks like this one.We had alot of fun growing up in this house old house.My Dad bought it from someone by the name of Mr and Mrs Maskey,Mr Maskey has been dead for a long time,Mrs MAskey,I belive is still living.We had so many ghost sorys about this house.let me back up here a bit.All of kids and mu couisns who came here and always played with us,Dad would tell us about the man who died in this house and was buried in our front yard,along with His horse.Now you know,knowing us kids,we were scared to death,we could even go to sleep at night.Me,my sister and my couisn,shelly,slept in the same bed that night.Over the years as growing up,we still hear storys.one night when were susposed to be sleeping my couisn,screamed,said She saw something,like a shadow,tall,dark man,with a black hat,me and my sister were like,dont be lying and scaring us like that.lol.We finally fell alseep and in the middle of the night I woke up,I saw the shadow and nudged at my couisn,so I wouldnt wake up anyone else.We just looked at eachother,looked at my sister,She was sleep.She said,dont wake Her up,just try and go back to sleep.lol.I belive till this day,He was burried in our front yard with His horse and I forgot,I am sorry,He also had a dog.All of you wanted to hear some ghost storys,so there you have it.I also have another one that I will add.

 

I didnt know my Uncle CHester very well,my Sister did,She claims till this day,one night in Her room,the room,that I am in now,the night He died,She could have sworn She saw His ghost.I think I am scarying myself now.If I wake up in the middle of the night,you all know why and it will be all of your falts.lol.Kidding.Theeses are storys I have grown up with all of my life.

 

When I get a chance,I will take a pic of this house and add it to my journal.Hope you had fun reading my family tradtion ghost storys.Which I still belive the first one was true.lol.

Morinin all!!!

Good moring all,

               Hope you all had a good n ight sleep.I love all of yals friendly and funny comments.It always makes me smile.I wanted to mention something before I go on.I am wonderging if anyone has any good christian romance books,I am looking for my Mom.I dont go to Ebay,because,I think you have to pay for the site?So if anyone knows anything,let me know,if you have any old good ones to give away.Thanks a bunch.I also have tryed thrift stoors,but they didnt have any.By the way,I just got a rude call,I was nice,it was for my Mom,they said it was a buisness cal,probllay just a telamarket.I cant stand them.THan He said as He hung up,I will tell Her you didnt take my message,oh well.I said you can call back later.Ugggggggggg!!!!I hope it didnt have anything to do with Her monthly check.But I was nice.Anyways,here is something I wanted to share with you all.As I get more,will be adding them more.I get one everday,kinda helps me,lift my spirits up.Have a great day all,love you all.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for.
Hebrews 11:1

Faith in God
~N~ Faith must have an object. We don't simply
have faith; we have faith in something or someone.
Faith in "faith" is meaningless.                           
For a Christian there is only one object for
faith: the living God. Anything less is insubstantial,
unreal, even deceptive. Our faith is in God who     
created this world and came down to earth in the  
person of His Son, Jesus Christ. We put our faith
in Christ because He alone is the Savior. The Bible
says, "Through Him [you] believe in God, who raised
Him from the dead and gave Him glory, so that your
faith and hope are in God" (1 Pet. 1:21).                 
People today put their faith in all kinds of
   ideas and beliefs, from astrology and alleged "spirit 
guides" to science and humanism. But only Christ    
reveals God to us, and only He can bridge the gap  
between us and God-a gap caused by sin. Do not    
be deceived or misled. Only Christ is worthy of    
your faith.                               

 

Goodnight all,its past my bed time.lol no.but I am tired.lol.

I just wanted to say goodnight all,I am so tired,cant keep my eyes open.I pray that each and everyone of you are safe and that GOd is watching over you all tonight.I hope you all know,you all mean the world to me.I still think its an amazing thing to have people like you guys in my life.Thank you for jsut being you.God bless.Have a wodnerful night and I pray you all wake up to a good moring.Love you all.Peaceout.

 

 

You have been taged.Now go and tag someone else.lol.

I've been tagged by http://journals.aol.com/xxroxymamaxx/roxys-tags-and-links/  Martha  to list six wierd things about me. 

1. I have a fear of not being able to be indapendent on my own.

2. I hate hair.  being alone in he dark when noone is home

3. I read magazines backwards.  no,but when I have a new dvd,I will kinda go through and see what happends at the end.lol.I know,that spoils the  movie.I get that from my Mom,She wants to know everything.lol.

4. Don't want anything laying on the floor. Trying to keep my room clean theeses days.lol.

5. I Don't do socks. Yes,I do wear SOCKS.lol.Dont want anyone smelling my feet.lol.Every moring,I put lotion on my feet and my Dad and boyfirend wonder why I do it.lol.

6.Okay, what does OCD mean?

 

I am tagging anyone who wants to play along,cone on yal,I did it,now its your turn.lol.

 

I'm tagging TerryAnn , Pat , Vicky , Chelle , Penny , and Chris !!

And everyone else who wants to play along. : )

Just Chillin

Hi all,

       How is everyone?Hope you all is having a good day today.I am actullau having a pretty good one myself.Belive it or not,even on a Monday.Mondays are uslay gloom and doom,but,not here.I am off tommrow,seems like I didnt evne work today after being off a whole week.lol.But it was nice to go back to work.I have some crazy people I work with,but,they are pretty nice and we baiscllay get along with eachother now that we have a good boos.Its not like in the past were you went home crying because you did something bad.lol.I dont think your work should be like that.What do you think?I have a question for you all,maybe a stupid one,but here goes.lol.Do any of you ll drink gingerale?I love gingerale because it settles my tummy and makes me feel beter and the only kind I get is Segreams,I know I spelled that worng.lol.But what do you all think of gingerale?Does it setle your tummy if you dont feel good?Anyways,my shows are comming on,first night of everything back with no reruns.Woooooooooohoooooooooooo.I am so golad they are putting back 7th heaven on,it is a cute show and I am looking forward to watching the new one right after it,how ever,I do miss Everwood.My favorite show was Charmed,dont know if they are bringing that one back on.ANyways,I am getting off of here for a while,going to finish eating my dinner and do a few things before settling in for the night.Well,I am not going to bed this early.lol.Have a good evneing all.Peaceout.

I am off to work.

Good moring all,

             Hope you all slept well.I am headed off to work,so,I will make this quick.I want to thank you all for your nice comments.I love hearing from each and everyone of you.I know how special it is to get a coment,it makes us J-landers smile.Have a blesssed day all,I will be back later.

Fall Memorie question?What is your favorite memorie growing up as a child.

Hi all,

      Hope everyne is having a good evening.I want to ask a question,that I know will be a fun one and would like to hear everyones answer.What is your favorite childhood memorie during the fall season?I wanted to add my memory growing up as a chil during the fall seasons,it was nice,all of us kids,loved playing outside,going to visit our Granny on the weekends,Her house smelled so good,She always gave us candy,She always had a candy jar in Her china cabnet.Playing cards at the small round table,She always made big raisin soft cookies,now I feel like crying,but,its a good crying.Bext to Granny was my Aunt and Uncle who still live there now,we would all go play in the barn,thought that barn was the neatest thing ever.lol.All of us kids and our couisns had a blast.You have to chrish the good times and have good times now to chrish and to remember.Anyone have a tissue?lol.

Heres a game,that really brings out the kid in you,thanks Barbpinion

Thanks barbpinion for the link,you really bought out the kid in me,I need a break.lol.Here is a link you all might like to try.

http://www.107.peugeot.co.uk/peugeot.swf

 

cya later

Ok,I am done with all my catching up to do with alerts,went and had brekfest this moring with boyfriend,went to walmart,bought my Mom a really pretty pink long skirt,which I will also wear.lol.I also bought a pair of earings,they are pretty gold ones,kinda long,but,not to long.So,I am having a good day.Just wanted to see my Mom perk up some,she was happy when She saw the skirt.She was looking for a black one,but can never find one anywere that She would like.Now I would love to get some christian books for Her.Some good christian romance books,She loves to read,She hasnt had a good book in a long time.If anyone would like to give some up,let me know.Thank you.Have a nice day all.I am going to go and take a nap.I really dont buy the books in the stoor,sometimes,but to costly.You have any ideas let me know.Cya later.

Thought you all would like to know a little info about me.

 

I thought I would have some

 

 

free time and answer theses questions,so,maybe you can get a little more info on me.lol.

I got this from Connies Country Charm,thanks for sharing!!!

50 Questions

1. FIRST NAME  Amanda

 

2. MIDDLE NAME  Leigh

 

3. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Not that I no of,no.lol.

 

4. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? Friday evening

 

5. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I like it better at typing,than on paper.lol.

 

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?

Turkey is da bomb.lol.

7. KIDS? ummmmmm,would have to say no,unless you count as me being an unt and dont ask me how many neices and nephews I have,I still have a litle neice or nephew on the way!!!

 

8. WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I am still working on that one,to be honest,I didnt think you could actullay be friends with yourself.lol.

 

9. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Yes,this one that I am writting in,maybe one day I will have  another one,I think to hard to have 2 for now.lol.

 

10. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? No

 

11. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Barely hanging on.lol.

 

12. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Are you nuts and does that answer your question?lol.

 

13. FAVORITE CEREAL? If I eat any at all,would have to be Honey bunches of almonds,I love that tuff.lol.

 

14. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Nope

 

15. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? I would like to be in the future,but,no,I am not a strong person.

 

16. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

Rainbow Shbert,not much of an ice cream eater.

17. SHOE SIZE? 6 or 7,yes,I have small feet.lol.

 

18. RED OR PINK? Take a guess?lol.Yes,Pink,used to be green a long time ago.

 

19. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Do you really need to know?Ok,a numder of things,how I look at myself in the miro,I really want to like myself and want to become peace with myself and maybe loose a pound or 2.lol.

 

20. WHOM DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My brother and family in London and my bestfriend back in highschool,Her name was Laverne,we lost contact,would like to see Her again.they used to call us Laverne and Shirly.lol.

 

21. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? gSure why not?If you all have the time.I think anyone would like to know a little info about ourselfs,it is intresting.

22. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES YOU ARE WEARING? Right now?I am wearing a pair of black sweats,a red white and blue shirt and I have socks on,not all in that order.lol.

 

23. LAST THING YOU ATE? You had to ask?lol.Boyfriend and I went to breakfest at Bob evans,which my parents went last night for dinner.This moring,I had 2 bisquts with sauge on top with 2 ess on top of it and blue berry pancakes,yes,I am full and I need a nap.lol.Boyfriend had alitle steak and eggs with toast.

 

24. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Dad fixing things around the house,its about time,but,dont tell Him I said that.lol.What I would really love,is selling this big huge house and getting into a smaller one.Which my Dad is always talking about,jus talking.lol.

 

25. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Lavander,right now,I am calm and relaxed,because,I am tired and about to fall alseep.lol. 

 

26. FAVORITE SMELL?Dad cooking a pot roast,which makes the whole house smell good. 

 

27. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My Sister asking for my Mom.lol.

 

28. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? The expression on there face,what kind of smile they have.And there eyes.

 

29. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Ofcourse :)

 

30. FAVORITE DRINK? Yes,would have to say I am adicted to coke and I also like drinking lipton sweet tea and gingerale

 

31. FAVORITE SPORT? Yuk,no way,get enough of it from watching it with my boyfriend.lol.

 

32. HAIR COLOR? Thats easy,natural curly brown hair,changes colors during the seasons.lol.Drives me crazy sometimes.And I know alot of people wish they had natural curly hair.Oh and,y sister says She found some little gray hairs,probllay due to stress.lol.I am only 34.

 

33. EYE COLOR? Brown

 

34. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope

 

35. FAVORITE FOOD? I would have to say,anything with breakfest,because,I dont get it enough,and dinner would be mexican and Spagtti.

 

36. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? Happy Endings of course,you want a laugh,my boyfriend made me watch Blair witch,when we first starting going out,scared me to death,had to slep with my bible under my pillow,open to splams.Ok,I know,sounds corney.lol.Blair Witch 2 was stupid.lol.

 

37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Didnt we go through this already?Red,White and Blue with stars.lol.

 

38. FAVORITE DESSERT? To many to name.lol.But I love a good Punkin pie.

 

39. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Me.lol.I dont know,why you ask?lol.

 

40. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Again,I dont know.

 

41. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Who has the time to read?I have about a ton of books on my book shel I never read,well,some.But I do read my emails,does that count?lol.

 

42. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Dont have one.lol.

 

43. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV? Brittish comedy hour

 

44. FAVORITE SOUNDS? hearing kids laughing and playing,everyone having a good time.

 

45. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Dont really care for neither,but,I do like some of the songs from the Beatles.

 

46. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME? London England

 

47.What are you good at? Everyone tells me,I am good at writting,letters,happy birthday notes.I also love doing beaded jewrley.

 

48. WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Maryland,takma hosiptal,I know,I spelled that worng.lol.

Thought you said this was a 50 questionare?Weres number 50?lol.Guess we didnt get that far.lol.

God bless you all!!!

Just thought I would share this pic with you all,it is just to cute not share it.What the pic says,I mean it.A friend is always there to give a boost,meaning you all are always here for me to give me a boost,I truly know you all are always here if I need you and I am there for you all if you need me.God bless each and everyone of you.I pray to God and ask that He ease all of your pain and make it go away.I know you all go through so much,through so much pain and it saddens me.You all go through so much more than I have.I just want you all to know,I lvoe you all and I care for you all.Have a blessed night and may God watch over you all.

chillin

 

Above pic is a recent pic of me at the beach,probllay not a good one,cant see me to well.Boyfriend doesnt know how to use the camra that well.lol.Nor do I.lol.

Howdy Partners, 

                      How yal doing?Its quiet here,my parents went dinner,know the wanted me to come along,well,my Mom,but,sometimes you just have to take advantage of the quiet time alone,when you get a chance.I am going to get off of here,go upstairs and get ready to watch my brittish shows,I love them,they are soooooooo funny,it always makes me laugh.Maybe will take a pic and put it in here.You London people may know what I am talking about.There is one that is called As time goes by,thats my fave and one after,cant remember,but,the lady on that show cracks me up.lol.I might sit up and do some post cards,I got all kinds of post cards while I was away.I was in the worng last night with my Mom and I did say I was sorry.I guess sometimes,I dont relize I go to far,but,I at least admit it and I always tell Her I love Her and I know She wants the best for me,maybe I should let Her pick out the guy She would like me to marry.lol.Kidding.Haha.I love my guy,but will have a hreat to heart one day.Who thinks I need to have a heart to heart with Him?An online friend once told me I was to good for Him.I need some help yal,yal,need to help me.lol.I am not afarid to tell Him.But how should I tell Him,how do I put it to words?Anyhoo,I just got done vacumimg and moping the floors,I can do that when no one is here and no one is bothering me.lol.the vacume is broke,but,it works good enough to vacume.lol.At least I did wash my hair with dog soap.lol.Who said that,by the way,cant remember,but that to was funny.Yal crack me up.Anyone out there still wants a post or wants to be a pen pla,let me know,I have tons of post cards and for thoes who already asked for one,I am getting to them.I cant belive I had about 200 alerts to catch up on and I did.Woooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo.Yal have a good evening.Maybe back on later before I head to bed.Mom and Dad went Bon Evans,they will bring me soemthing home and now boyfriend wants to go there for breakfest.lol.cya later alagator.One more thing,cant wait till Tuesday,my movie is comming out and havent seen in theaters.The Lake House,I am so looking forward to it and dont tell me what happends.

There shall be peace

Hope everyone is having a good time,

Sat.I am doing better than yesterday.I know my Mom only wants whats best for me and She wants to see me happy.But I do have to say,that I feel I am always saying sorry,because,I am always in the worng and Shes not,I hope I am sounding as the bad person,because,I dont want to sound bad.I know,we both said some things yesterday that we know we both didnt mean them.I lvoe my Mom.She is always there for us kids.She feels that my boyfriend should marry me,I mean,after all,we been together for so long,about 6 or 7 years.I know  She means well and I dont know how to deal with Her sometimes.I know we both get under eachothers nerves.lol.I do have a good boyfriend and I know He wasnt going to hurt himself.I do wory about Him.I was thinking maybe I will sit down,write Him a long letter and tell Him how I feel,but,I will mail the letter to His house or should I just give it to Him?I want things out of my life,if He doesnt want to get married,well,than,I dont know,or you all know what I am thinking,just dont want to say it outloud.I know He is scared,ofcourse,marriage is a big step.But I want Him to know,I want more things out in life,that He doesnt understand and I thought that I have tryed to make Him understand,but,guess,that didnt get through to Him.So,thats why I was thinking maybe I should write the letter and mail it to His house.I am better at writing things down,than,talking face to face.He doesnt know what my Mom wants for me,or maybe He does.I think He needs to know,than,maybe He can understand better.He doesnt know how to act around my Mom and I can understand that.lol.I do know that if She got help by the doctors,She could use something to help calm Her nerves down.But I also know,She always says,She has the Lord to help Her through.That is the truth.God is always there even thoe,most of the time,I feel as thoe He isnt.So there you have it.Any advice,I would be happy to hear them.I thank you all soooooooooo much for just being there for me,helping me through it all.You all mean so much to me.I never even relized there was good people in this world of internetof J-land.I love you all,each and everyone of you,you all know who you are.Have a good Sat.Peaceout.

The VIVI Awards

Subject: Welcome to the 2006 Vivi Award Journal
Time: 6:54:23 PM EDT
Author:  siennastarr

Welcome to the 2006 VIVI AWARD JOURNAL!

 

This journal is here to give you information and insight into this years awards.  It's also here for you to leave suggestions, comments or questions.

 

For those of you who are new to the VIVI'S, let me try and explain what they are and how you, as part of the JLand Community, are going to play the biggest part in making this year's award ceremony the best one ever.

 

There will be several categories for this years peer recognition, and it's up to you, as part of the community to get out there and start reading journals, and deciding on who you would like to see win an award this year. So, this particular journal will be a place to leave the URLs of journals you like and want to recommend to other members of our community.

 

You can even go so far as to toot your own horn and declare yourself a candidate for the appropriate category/categories by leaving your URL and then putting up an entry in your own journal. There is no shame in promoting yourself. The VIVIs are about discovering new journals and having fun doing it. After all, if you aren't proud of your own journal, who should be!?

 

In addition to using   Donna and  Chris' awesome graphics in your journals, please also leave a comment in this journal including the Link to any journal(s) that you want to recommend under the appropriate categories. That way, others can come here, see who you've selected and take a look at that particular journal.  You have to promote other journals as well as yourself.

 

We do have a couple new categories, but we have also deleted a few from last year. Below you will find the categories listed in alphabetical order (sorta..lol) from Z to A.  (Don't ask..lol)  When you find a journal, even if it's your own, and you think it fits under a certain category, then leave a comment with the URL/link so others can read it too.  That's how you will get votes when the time comes to start submitting nominations under each category. The more people that read you, the better your chances of getting nominated for an award.

 

We have added Private Journals this year as one of the categories.  Only rule is, if you are private, you cannot compete in any other category.  My suggestion to those who are private is that you leave your link, and let people know that you will give them access to your journal so that you can get more people to read you.  Be sure and leave it under the Best Private Journal category.

 

The most important thing about the VIVI'S is to remember what they are about. Peer Recognition. Someone you truly feel who stands out above all others. If you know someone who has a journal that is strictly political and they exceed in that category, then put them under the Best Political Journal for others to read. The same goes for all other categories.

 

This year's 2006 Vivi Awards are being held in honor of  Pam Hilger.  Pamela was a big part of Jland for the 2 1/2 years she kept a journal here.  She was diagnosed with Cancer in June of 2006 and unfortunately succumbed to this disease on Easter Sunday just one week after her 50th birthday.  She was a prime example of what Journaling is all about and even now, five months after her death, she is still missed by many.  Pam was a constant source of inspiration for all who read her.  So... here's to you dear Pam!  We miss you!

 

So, get out there.. start reading those journals.. leave URLS for the one's you have selected under the category you want them to compete in.  Have fun and enjoy yourself. If you have any questions, please leave them in the comment section under this entry only. 

 

You will have until October 15th to read and decide who you would like to nominate.  Instructions will be given prior to that date, how and where to go when the nominations begin.  Once the nominations are tallied up, you will be advised as to which journals made the final cut.  You will then get out there and read those journals so that on November 6th you will be asked to head to the voting polls and vote for your favorites in each category.

 

Right now.. you just need to read, read, read! :)

 

Be sure and keep Saturday, November 11th open, as that will be the day the award ceremony will take place and the winners will be announced.  We hope to do it up big.. just like last year, and roll out the Jland red carpet!   Winners will be given a beautiful graphic to display on their journals!

 

If you click on the alert me button you will receive updates as they are made. 

 

So stay tuned!

 

If you would like to use one of the graphics from below in your journal, or to send to someone else to use in theirs, as a candidate, please feel free to do so. 

 

*** Leaving your link under each category does NOT mean that you are now an official nominee.  It just means that you are asking people to go and read the journal who's link you have left.  The official voting for the nominees will be on October 15th.  The official voting for the WINNERS will be on November 6th.

 

*** Please be aware that ONLY JLAND JOURNALS are eligible for a VIVI award!  Please do not  put URLS for journals outside of AOL under the categories below.  They will be deleted.   Thanks for your cooperation! :)

 

*** I regret to inform you that we have lost two of our committee members due to unforseen circumstances in their personal lives. Stevie of ~The life of Stevie~, and Gayla of So Much More.  Thank you both, so much, for all your help during the initial stages of the Vivi's!

 

*** I regret to inform you that we lost another committee member today.  Donna from This and that, and hockey! felt the need to resign due to circumstances in her personal life.

 

Oh who am I kidding?

 

If this keeps up...and people don't start being a little nicer to my commitee members I'm afraid we may not have any Vivi awards this year. We are all trying our best to do all we can to make this a special event.  If I lose any more of my committee, I wil be forced to resign myself, because I can't do it alone. I'm now down to 4 people out of 7.  I really want to continue the awards, and I volunteered to do this, because I truly believe in what they stand for.  Those of you who know me, and read my journal, know that I have no problem standing up for myself or what I believe in.

I hate to sound like a cliche' but can't we all just get along and enjoy this endeavor? 

 

The fate of the Vivi's is in your hands at this point.

leaving this blank,dont know what to say.

I wish I can say I had a good time on vaction,and maybe I did.But comming home was not such a good thing.I am siting here,crying,tears down my fase and I am so mad and angry at my Mom.I am angry at the world.I dont know what to do anymore.I just get home and all kaos breaks through.I dont understand my Mom and why SHe puts my through this.She says,I dont resecpt Her,but,She doesnt Me.I do so much for Her,my boyfriend does so much and all She can think of is,let me back this up a bit,She gets to talking to Him,because we go play the slots before we come home and He was saying,He wont a bunch of money,just as much as He payed for the vaction and I am talking about how am I going to get my check in the moring and Mom was wondeing the same thing,I hate to say this and makes me mad,but,sometimes I feel as thoe,thats all She thinks about is Herself and how She is going to get things,because,I give Her rent.I feel like I am on the back burner of things and She never gets me.She was saying I disresecpt Her because we was both yelling back and forth at eachother,orcourse after He left.I get home and I have to hear all this.Sometimes,I just hate my life and no one gets me,not even my boyfriend.He is a good guy and does so much for me,does alot for my family and my Mom doesnt see that.All She sees is,Hes taken advantage of me,because were not married.Cant She just let me live my life the way I want to live it without Her getitng invloved.We bring dinner home for Her,we bought stuff back from the beach for HEr,what does She do,She doesnt want it,because SHe is mad,She is angry.She gives the food back to my boyfriend.But it is back in the house.I am tired,I dont know what to do and I am about to break loose.She doesnt know,that I am hurt when She does so much for my sister and Her family,well,maybe that makes me a little mad,I go out of my way,but,I feel,She wont go out of Her way for me.Shes got to stop with this old school stuff,I am sorry,and maybe Shes just bringing it up so much,thats probllay why I dont even want to go to church with Her.She wants me to be in church,to be a good christian,find a good christian man who will treat me right.Well,you know what,I am tired,and She doesnt get it.I get the fact that ok,that maybe the right thing to do.But She is brining it up to me all the time and that is not the way to do it.She doesnt like my boyfriend,because of that,but yet,She doesnt see what He does for me.I was about to just end it all.Yeah,I want Him to see that if He doesnt take action,I am gone.Maybe I am so mad right now,I dont even know what I am thinking.I have tryed to tell Him how I feel about things,I dont think He is ready for marriage or may not ever be ready fro marriage.Maybe I am scared to loose Him.But right now,maybe I have to do this,so,I cant start living my life and knowing what I need to do.There was alot of hurtful things said between my Mom and I and I am not about to talk to Her tonight,I am so glad She is going over my sisters tommrow.I dont know what to do,dont know what to do with my boyfriend.I do know,I feel maybe I should have some alone time.Maybe it will shake Him Him up.If He loves me enough,He will come back to me.But I have just had it up to here.I dont even know who I am anymore.Yes,Hes done alot for me,Hes bought me so much and even if I say I want some alone time,dont know what He will do.He said,one time,if I ever left Him and thats not what I want to do.I jsut want to be left alone for a while.But I will worry about Him because,He doesnt have anyone.I just dont know anymore.I need advice from you all.So,you know,I just got home from vaction,I havent catched up on all of the alerts yet,havent even settled in and relaxed yet,how can I?What do you all think I should do?Wake Him up a little and see what happends?I just dont want Him hurting himself.But I feel I need,I dont know what I need.Anyways,I am going to try and catch up on some alerts here,than,maybe get a shower and get to bed.I havem issed you all sooooooooo much.One more thing,I think I am bold enough to tell Him,my boyfriend that I need some time to think about things in my life,I maybe a little scared that maybe He wont want me,but that is the vhance I will have to take.Have a good night all.

Having fun in Ocean City

Hi all,just want to say,I miss everyone,hope you all is having a good time,hope all is well.I was trying to catch up on some of my alerts.But I cant do it all in one day.lol.Yes,I am still away,I am at one of them internet cafes and I have to get off of here soon.They close at 6.I am having a good time and the weather is nice,kinda missing home,but,I am having fun.The best part will be tommrow,they have what is called Sunfest,with all kinds of diffrent foods and tons of diffrent crafts,thats my fave part,will try and take some pics.Well,I am going to get off of here.Hope you all are well and I am praying for you all.Someome let Krissy and John know that I am still praying.I miss you all and cant wait to get home and check all my mail.lol.Which today I had about 99.lol.I lvoe you all.Have a great week.Peaceout.

tired

Hi all,

        Hope everyone is having a good night.I am sooooooooo worn out and tired,I dnt know what I am thinkg right now or why am I evene typing,I should be in bed.lol.Tommrow will be here before you know it.I am looking forward to jsut getting away,I know,I said that before.I had to catch up on all of my alerts.Which I will probllay have to do that when I get home.I may have a chance when I am away to get online.I cant wait,it is nice up there,but,I wont go in the ocean,just enough to get wet.so,just so all of you,I will be leaving Monday,comming back Friday.If you would like my cell number to text message me while I am gone,just email me or if oyu want a post card.I will miss all of you and I iwll be thinking of you all and praying for you.Wel,this little lady is going to bed.lol.I had sooooo much stuff to do today,it wasnt funny.Have a good night.Will check my mail in the moring.Peaceout.

Are you all awake now?

Good moring all,

                  How is everyone?I hope all is good.I am good here.I am going to church this moring with my Mom.Than after I get home,I have to do alot of stuff before going on vaction tommrow.Woooooooooooohoooooooooo.I am now looking forward to going and getting away,just being with my boyfriend.I am going to try and have some fun.We have alot in plan for next week for Ocean City Maryland.Were going to take a boat ride,than,were going to take another boat ride,but,this will be a tour.I will try and take some pics.I am going to take my digtal camra with me,but,I have get some more of them,what you call it,chips?lol.I am feeling pretty good this moring.Just know,I am greathful for you all,I am thankful for all of your nice comments and good advice you leave me.Anyhoo,someone got me saying that.lol.I also got that off of a tv show,my kids soemhting.You all have a nice day and I will talk with you when I get back.One more thing,if anyone wants a post card,just email me with your addy.Of if you liked to just be a pen pal,I am up for that to.Have a good one.Peaceout.

Just being lazy.

Hi all,

                                

       How is everyone doing?Hope you all are doing better than I am.lol.I have read alot of journals from this week and I see just about everyone not feeling good,they say,they comming down with a cold.Maybe somethings going around.Because I can tell you,I do not feel to good,yeah,right before I leave for vaction.lol.I just took a benadryl,which is making me sleepy.I had been alseep,but,I am going back to bed,I think it may just be my alagries.But I wanted to thank you all for you comments,the good advice you all have givin me.Thank you.I am going on my vaction,I need it.An online friend gave me some good advice that I should go and maybe that will get us talking about the future.So,I am going.I am a big girl and need to start doing things for Me and no one else.Jamyi,you didnt offend me,thank you for your advice.You know,just relizing that life is scary,but you cant be scared all of the time.I am 34 and I need to start living for myself,in that matter,its easy said than done.lol.But just wanted you all to know I care about you all.That I am finally looking forward to going.Its going to be fun,just getting out there,getting some rest,walking the boredwalk,we are right on the boredwalk,ocean front veiw.I will try and take pics.I am still thinking,should I leave my alerts on,because my dad gets on His account,would it mess Him up if He gets on and I have alot of mail?Anyways,I am going to get off of here and go lay down again.lol.So,just so you,I will be leaving Monday moring,comming back Friday.If anyone wants a post card,let me know,you can via email me.Have a wonderful weekend and I do hope you all out there in J-land feel better.I love you guys.Peaceout.Thank you Ds Designs for this lovly pic.

 

I am going insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!lol.No,really,I am.lol.Kidding.

Hi all,

       Hope you all are having a good weekend.I am doing ok here,just a little tired,kinda feeling under the weather.But maybe thats why I am tired.Have you gotton that way,when your so tired,you dont feel to good?Anyways,I wanted to talk a munite or 2,or 3 or whatever.lol.I gues you can tell I am tired.Its been a busy day today.I worked this moring,came home,went to the doctors,than went out with my Mom to the groicer stoor.lol.I work in one and have to go to another one.Sometimes it gets on my nerves.lol.What I wanted to talk about it is my vaction.My Mom isnt to keen on my going with my boyfriend and I will admit,were staying in the same hotel room together.we been doing this for a while now.Everytime my vaction comes near,my Mom is always saying somehting.What She means is,She wants me married before staying with Him.Ok,Shes from the old school.She makes me feel bad,I know She means well.But,look now,it is 2006,we dont live back in the 60s now.So,should I keep on feeling guilty,or should just have fun and forget about it?Because,I am going anyways,which I always do.But She kinda upseted Me today when She said,when I leave on Monday,She will say buy to Me,but wont say anything to my boyfriend.I know She wants me married,thats what it is.I jsut dont know what to do.I feel sometimes as thoe I dont have my own life.But I am greatful that I have wonderful parents who is there for me.My Dad,He dont care.lol.However,back when I was younger,He would of.Now Hes getting old,He just dont care,I am sure He worrys.But it is my Mom who I have to worry about.I just want to go and have some fun,leave all my worrys behind for one week,if I can do that.I was telling my doctor not about this,but I was telling Him about the accident that happend last Friday and about me going on vaction,that,I feel I wont have any fun,I feel I am jsut going to worry and I am even worrying now.lol.Who do I get it from?My Mom.lol.They all want to see me,happy,married,before I,you know,stay in the same hotel.Sorry,guys,I am getting really tired.How do you just let it all go?What should I do?Ok,enough about that,I kinda snaped at a coworker of mine,the one I was teeling you about,who spends the night with me at times.I feel bad about that,I will call Her later and say sorry.But She just gets on my nerves sometimes.She is very slow.That is a long story,I will mention some other time.Please help me,I am going insane.lol.Anyways,I will be back later.I think I am going to go crash on my bed.By the way,I think they should band all junk food.That is all I been eating like crazy and no I am not pregnat.Never mind on that one.lol.I am a good girl,well,never mind.Anyways,have a good weekend,be safe,have some fun for me and relax,get a spa,get a tatto.Go nuts.lol.Peaceout.

I got smiles on my face,couldnt belive I was picked.Thanks Lisa.

Hi all,

       Hope everyone is having a good night.I wanted to post a entry real quick before I head to bed.I just want to say,I am ecxited,beyond excite,to learn I was one of the journals that was picked by the guest editor.Lisa,thank you so  much for thinking of and picking me.I know its hard to pick and you dont want to leave anyone out.I think it would be hard from everyone to pick and choose,I know it wuld be hard for me.Because I love to read all the journals and new ones,I click and save in my fave places and I go there to take a look.Thank you so much,you have really made my night.I cant even belive,I am smiling.I keep on thinking my journal is boring.lol.I just want to say again,thank you so much.Its not enough thank yous.I am going to copy and paste your entry on here,if you dont mind.Here is the entry and the journals thats was picked.Thanks again.Have a good night everyone.Peaceout.

 

Tonight is the night that I pick and write about my 6 picks as Guest Editor! :o) I have been very excited for the past few days about this. :o) Thank you so much Jeff.

I was so surprised to recieve an email asking if I would like to be Guest Editor! The hardest part for me to do was to pick 6 journals.....I didn't want to leave anyone out!
I've been journaling for 3 years now. Thats a long time! :o) I started this journal because I was having such a hard time writing in my journal book. I wanted to also get across to others that might have/suffer or know someone with the same illnesses that I have. That would be great if I could help! :o)
For those of you that are new to my journal, I have fibromyalgia, progressive multiple sclerosis, osteoporosis/osteoarthritis, spurs and tumors on my spine, 3 sleeping disorders and spurs and bursitis on both hips. I deal with more...lol...but I don't want to bore everyone, and there isn't enough room! lol :o)
I am 43 and I have 2 children and a 15 month old grandson! I've been married for 20 years now! Either I or my husband deserves a medal for that! lol
Enough about me. :o) Here are my picks and they aren't in any kind of order. :o) :::drum roll please:::http://journals.aol.com/my78novata/LorisLaurels/ I love to read her journal! I can laugh, cry and her words make me feel as if I was there with her! :o) I am an animal lover and I absolutly adore her dogs! She has also made a few video entries! How cool is that! :o) http://journals.aol.com/hunybea4him/HunybeasOpenJournal/  I have to say that this journal is very uplifting spiritually! :o) I know when I go to her journal, I will feel great about what I just read! :o) She is informal yet is right to the point! :o) http://journals.aol.com/hugsdoodlewacky/Mandy/ I love to read Mandy's journal! She is a very great lady! She's a very strong person, and it really comes through in her journal! I truly love to read her journal! :o)http://journals.aol.co.uk/astra1547/astrasjournal/  When I read her journal...I can relate! :o) She has so much fun with her grandchildren! You can feel the love just from her words alone! :o) A wonderful person! :o)http://journals.aol.com/nelishianatl/WISHINGANDHOPING/  This is truly another one of my favorites as well to read! Again, she makes you feel that you are right there with her! I always go away from reading very uplifted as well! Truly a very dear person to me! :o)http://journals.aol.com/heathermarie3073/Mylife/ Heather's journal is very beautiful! She lives in New York and shares photo's and her words are beautiful! I feel as if I'm there with her! I've always wanted to visit New York, and I have through her writings! :o) I have two people that I want to give a call out to; http://journals.aol.com/canyonsun04/TheLifeChaosofMotherhood/ I want to say how much I relate to reading this journal! :o) http://journals.aol.co.uk/pharmolo/NorthernTrip/  I love his journal....I new about the hurricane through him, way before I heard it on the news!
Those have been my choices....something that was very hard to do! Whew! :o) Believe me, it took me hours to choose! No kidding! :o) I hope you give each journal a visit. :o) I know you will enjoy them as much as I do! :o) God Bless all of you!

I love this grafic by alilcountrycharm

                                                  Thank you Alilcountrycharm for my tag,it is so beatiful.I love it,I just had to post it in my entry.Things are quiet here.Such a rainy day,I think I will go back to sleep.I got  all my work done,now,I just have to pack.My Dad got a free rentel car today from the accident last friday.It is all payed for.Because it was a hit and run accident.I think I might go see if we have any chicken noodle soup,I am in the mood for somehting warm.I am not feeling to good,or maybe because I am tired.But glad I got things done.Not more creatures in my room.I moped while dad was gone.lol.Put a little bit of bleach in it.I should take a pic of my room and show it to yal,it never looked this clean before.lol.Well,I am not that messy,just want to point out.lol.Have a good day all,relax,get under your covers,read a book,watch a movie and go to sleep.That is what I am going to do.Love yal.Peaceout.

Almost done,than,I have to pack.lol.

Good moring everyone,

                      Hope you all slept like a log.lol.I slept good,got up not to early,well,it was early for me.lol.7:00.But belive me,I am going to go back to bed.Its a good day to sleep in,raining here today.I know,I spelled that worng.lol.I still have some things to do,but,I am just about done,I am done with laundry,thank goodness.lol.I didnt relize I had so many clothes.lol.But they are old.lol.I need a new woredrobe.How about you all?lol.I just wanted to mention again,that all of you guys here in my world of J-land are so thoughtful,kind and caring.I did want to talk for a munite about cell phones.lol.I do have a cell phone,but,I only,try,to use it just for emergencies.What I dont like about cell phones is that while driving,I see alot of people using cell phones,and I dont like that.Or when someone,is at a restaunt with a friend and the answer there cell,that is rude,or when they are working.That coworker,She is always on the phone.Off of that subject.I am kinda now looking forward to my vaction.lol.I jsut dont feel like it is going to happend,you ever get that way,when you go on vaction?I also want to add,if anyone wants a post card,via emal me and leave your addy.I am going to search through my stuff,see whos addy I have and make sure I got them all.lol.I actullay just remembered something a little story,my bestfriend,who we kinda drifted apart now,long story on that one,and in some ways today,never thought we was that close back in highschool.But,everytime my family and I would go on vaction,I would send all my friends a post card,but my bestfriend who is now married to me brother,I always sended Her a post card,when we was in highschool togehter.One year,She thought She didnt get one and I did send Her one,but Her sister didnt get till later.So,I think I am going to send Her one this year.Its long story on that one,maybe,I will explain it you guys sometime later.Anyways,on todays agenda,stold that word from you all who use it often.lol.I had been cleaning my room,sweeping it and now all I want to do is take my mop,put a little bit of bleach in it,while,my Dad is gone.lol.I am going to mop like crazy in my room.THE ANTS ARE GONE!!!!lol.My shoulder isnt hurting.lol.I think for one reason,I come here and I vent and it makes feel better.lol.Today is a good rest day from my boyfriend and I,because we got so m uch to do.He calls it a rest day,dont ask me why.lol.Hes a loon,but I love em.I have butterflys in my tumme.You some people think I dont act my age,well,not my J-landers,but when I used to go in my chat room,but,they all said it was a good thing.But I felt like,yal dont belive me that I am 34.lol.I am just a kid at heart.ANyways,I am going to get off of here and get busy.I hope you all have a beatiful day.Thanks for everything.One more thing,you all think I should turn off my alerts while I am away?What should I do about that?Peaceout.

Beyond Tired.

Told you I was probllay going to be on here again,I am so tired,I keep closing my eyes at the puter,trying to stay awake and I am just falling alseep.I been working so hard for the last few days.My sister,tonight,when She droped my Mom home from church,She comes upstairs in my room,and says,what are you doing?I say,ummmmmmmmm cleaning.She says,it sure does smell good in here.I showed Her what I was using to clean.Windex with I cant spell the big word,not alone type it,I am so tired.lol.I washed all of my clothes,dont ask me how many I had.I asked my Mom if we was going anywere in the moring and She said She was sleeping in and I said good,that is what I am going to do.I am heading off of here now.I feel like I was at a gym tonight.Dont want see anymore clothes.lol.Anyways,I hope you all have a good night and I will be back sometime tommrow.I havent slept in for ages,so,used to getting up early.lol.Peaceout.

Thanks guys,for being just you. :)

Hi all,its me again,I just wanted to say thank you all for all the wonderful advice and encourgment you give me.It has helped me so much.I feel some better.It is really good,just getting all of your feelings out in the open and its great that we have special people here in J-land who care enough to help us through the day.You all mean the world to me.I have a few questions to ask before I head off of here for the night.If I dont get back on.lol.Number 1,I am seeing my doc who talks aboout my medicine and ask me how I am feeling,is there anything you all think I should ask Him?Or maybe a stronger med,somehting to help me relax?I am taking Lepazorem,I know,its spelled worng.lol.Just thought you all would know what I should ask Him.Number 2,I am going away and wanted to know if anyone out there in J-land wants a post card,because,I will be around were I can get tons of post cards and knowing me,I will.lol.I love post cards,key chains,knict nats,how ever you spell it.I know,I am a bad speller.Thank you all again.Yal are truly a blessing to me.Have a wodnerful night.I will be leaving sometime early Monday about 11.I may be able to get online,they have a little place were you can check your mail.Peaceout.

Kinda long,sorry,my bad.lol.

Are you all out there?Hope yal had a grand ole day.Mine was ok.A little stressful at work,but,I guess it was alright.One of my coworkers tells me,She knows when I can get everything done and She knows when I cant get things done.That jsut burns my buble.When Shes back there talking all the time,I mean all the time on her dagon cell phone all moring long.Who does She talk to?Who does She think She is,whcn can tell me how I work from day to day.She dont know me,She dont know what I can do.i probllay have mention in one of my entrys way back about a girl we have in our dapartment.Shes slow,I know I should be this way,but sometimes it bothers me,because,people kinda stick up for Her,trying to be all nice to Her,jsut because She is slow,She doesnt have a good living sitution.I try my best for Her and be a friend to Her.I would have Her over and soend the night withShe would,She would spend the night with me and we would hang out.But sometimes,it is just to much.I feel like,no one gives me credit for anything,for anything I do.Do I sound jealous?I guess I am,I am sorry for being that way,But I feel,right now,chop liver.lol.JUst beacuse I have a good life,I have a good family who is there for me,a good boyfriend who is always there for and maybe thats why they treat Her more better than I do.Maybe its just me.But I feel like I am on the back burner.No one ever says thank you,well,I take that back,my boss has said thank you to me for doing good.Shes a good boss,not like the boss we have had before,She was a good boss to and done alot for me.One thing I like about this boss is,you have no worrys when your day is over,you know how sometimes,you mess up,but this time,She would say its ok,dont worry about it.I really want to try and make a better life for me.I just dont know how to do that.What is it that I want out of my life?I know my Mom would love to see me in church all the time,regulary,I love the Lord,I am a christian,ok,but maybe I have my doubts about that.I was in church a long time,I guess I stoped going maybe about the time when I was dating my boyfriend.My boyfriend never told me I didnt have to stop going,He even told me to go.But I dont know about that.My family is a christian family,but for my Dad,He isnt saved and doesnt know the Lord,my boyfriend is catholic.My,I dont know what I want.I try and be the good person,but I just cant do it anymore.To stressful.So,hod do you have a good time?I am thankful for all the advice you all give to me.Am I saying the same thing over in my journal?Do I sound happy?Am I being a pitty party?How do I turn things around?Kinda getting of the subject here,I been doing laundry all day,just waiting for it to stop,let it dry and put them up.I am so tired from doing so much for the last few days.Like I said,getting ready for next week.Knowing what I need to pack,what to wear.I will say,my Mom had always told me She wasnt to crazy about me going,because She is fromt he old school,wanting me married before you know.lol.I think my Dad used to be like that,but He is like,He dont care.lol.I have to find ways into stop worrying about so much,about work,about what people say about me.About how I look on life.Uggggggggg,I am so tired,I could sleep the whole night through.One the other hand,my shoulder feels better.Knock on wood.After the accident,it felt better.lol.This moring it was sore.Man,if I was writting this all down on paper,my hands would hurt.A funny thing thoe,when I do write things out on paper,my hands start to shake,dont know why.But I belive I have to get off of here now.Dadyo wants on here to check His stocks.Good thing He doesnt chechk my journal.But I guess I better get off of here,tend to my laundry,among many other things.Sorry it is long.My bad.Hope you all have a nice night.Thanks for caring and just being YOU!!!God bless you all.Peace.

Feelings

Hi everyone,

                 Hope you all is having a good evening.I am doing ok here.I had a good talk with my thereapyst,it is nice to talk to someone,to get things off your chest and I also love having my journal.We were talking about my Mom and I.She was telling me,you have to stop worrying about Her and start worrying about me,it wasnt said like that,but,thats what She meant.I was telling Her I was going on vaction with my boyfriend and I feel like I am not going to have a good time,because,I will be worrying about whats going on at home,my Mom and everyone.How do you just stop worrying about everyone?I know you got to live for yourself,sometimes its a bit much.Thank you all for the nice comments.They mean so much to me and you all give me good advice.I am a worry wort,just like my Mom,I think I get everything from Her.I just dont know how to have fun anymore.thats a load off my mind,dont know were that came from,but its true.I am even worrying about whats going to happend next week.I want to have fun and I want to forget about everything,just live for me,but how?Were do you start?I am 34,I dont even know how to do that.I feel like just comming out and saying it all here,but,like I said before,its just a bit to much.Ok,so,you want to know,I dont like myself very much,I try to please everyone,maybe thats were I get it from my Mom to.When everyone says I am a good person,I have a good heart,I dont see it,I mean,yeah,I know I do,but,I just dont feel it.If you know what I mean.I am just going to come right out and say it.I dont like myself,I hae myself and I try really hard to work on liking myself and I have no idea to do that.What is worng with me?How do you start liking yourself?For once in my life,I just want,you know what,I dont know what I want.I think of the future all the time,I think whats going to happend.I think what is going to happend to me if somehting bad would happend to my parents.Am I selfish?I am scared of life,I am scared to live.Yikes,I said that.I guess I am saying a little to much.But I need to do something,because,I am driving myself crazy.I used to be happy a long time ago,why dont I have that back?I used to have fun,I was full of life and knowing what I wanted out of life.Now,I dont know anything.Here I am at the age of 34,not knowing what my life is all about.I am so scared to be out there all alone in the world by myself.I cant do that.Thats what I worry about.But I dont want to worry,I want to live,I want to actullay know what it means to being happy.I want to smile for me,actullay knowing what a smile is all about,who I am.Who is that?I dont know.I could go on and on.But,I am getting tired and I need some sleep.I know you all dont want to here me complain all the time.Sorry about that.But I feel I just need to get this off my mind.By the way,the ants arent to bad,because I been cleaning my room like crazy.So,I am getting something done.I went out with my boyfriend tonight,I bought a movie,of course,He says,its rated g.lol.i dont always get rated g dizney movies,but,I do have alot of them and when Oct 3 comes out,you better belive me,I am going to get the Little Mermaid,that is my all time fave movie,next to Beaty and the Beast,my 2 fave movies.Anyways,thanks for bearing with me,this entry is probllay a little long.Have a good night all.Peaceout.

Stressed out

Oky,I just had written a whole entry,somehow I deleted it.Dagon it.Now i have to do this again.This is not a good day for me.Well,was starting out like one than,I am just all stressed out.Not knowing what to do.Not knowing what to do for my Mom.I love HEr so much,but,She is just stressng me out so much.It hurts me to see Her not happy.I wish She could go to the doctor and get help,but She dosnt have insurance.I think She really needs to be on some kind of depression pill or something to help Her get through the day.What am I susposed to do,I will be gone all next week,She will be alone most of the time and my Dad in the evening.I know I will worry about it and get all stressed about it,which I am now.Shes not happy,I know that.I want Her to be happy,but,I cant do everything.Shes a good Mom,She does alot for us all.I know maybe I feel she dosent do alot for me,but,that is probllay because,I have my boyfriend who does so much for me.My Mom cant do everyhting.But I know She loves me,She would do anything.Right now,I am just so stressed out.Not knowing what to do.Shes not happy,not happy with my Dad.Here,I am,being home most of the time.It just gets to me.Hearing door slams.The only thing that really does help,to be honest is,when I take my medicine to help me sleep at night.Its good,because,I sleep the whole night through.I want Her to be happy,but,how am I susposed to do that?She is sad,I know,She stays in Her,most of the day.It hurts me,just makes me so upset and I really,really dont know what to do.She is so angry,dont even know why.I know Her and my Dad dont get along,She is really not happy with Him.This is not a happy living house.Maybe I should just end it here.Thats why I just cant stand who I am,I dont know anymore what to do.How am I susposed to go on vaction and worry about Her.Dont get me worng,I lvoe Her so much and only want Her to be happy.thank you for just listing to me ramble.lol.Love you guys.I actullay got my printer to work,I printed this out and I am going to let my doc see it.Be back later.Have a great day.Peace.

Happy Tuesday Moring!!!

Hi everyone,

             Good moring,hope you all slept well.I know I did.lol.From all that cleaning yesterday,last night.Man,was I tired.lol.But I am still not done,have more work to be done.I had to take my Fridge out,put it in the other room.I swept,I moped,but,I am going to give it a good moping today.Dad doesnt like me moping my room,with hard wood floors,dont know why.But I will try and do it when He isnt home.lol.I know,I am a bad girl.But I have to do it.I think the ants are gone.Thank goodness.I mean it wasnt that bad,but,they needed to go.lol.Well,I guess I had to get some stuff dne anyways,since,I am leaving Monday,wont probllay be back late Friday next week.I am looking forward to it.Just my boyfriend and I.So thats why I have lots to do from now till Monday.I have a doctors app today,with my thereapyst and Friday with my Doctor who gives me my meds,want to make sure I have enough before I go.The hard part is packing my suiet case,wondering what I will wear.lol.I dont have that many clothes anways,seems like I do,but I need a new wrodrobe.lol.I have tons of sweatshirts,It will be nice,but,in the evening,probllay will be chilly.ANyways,I hope you all will have a good day.I am going to get off of here and get some more things done.Thanks for being so caring and wodnerful.Yes,I know Nelishantl,hope I spelled it right.lol.No more sodas in my room.

Cleaning my room,yikes.lol.

Okay,Hi everyone,

                   Dont know if this is going to be long or short.I am so tired,just from cleaning my room.WHAT A MESS.lol.I admit,it is a mess.I didnt even relize how much a mess it was.I mean,basicllay,it just needs a good scrubing on the floor and in the bathroom.I have a little embarising problem,ants.One thing I cant stand,hate,ants in my room.I havent had that problem for a long time.So,I was taking everything out,sweeping it all up,the ants wasnt to bad,just didnt want to get to to bad.Dont even know how they wanted to come into my room.lol.Its not funny,but,ewwwwwwwwwwwwww.Anyone have any advice?I guess I beed not tending to my room,and finally,I am tending to it.Not going to be done over night,I can tell you that.Okay,I am not a slob,its not a big,huge mess.I just,ewwwwwwwwwwww,cant stand them.Even if it is only a few.Do ants like soda?I have so much ttuff to do,dont even know were to begin.But I am working on it.So,I am going to head off of here and get back there.lol.Its not even funny,dont even know why I am laughing.Well,I had to clean my room anyways,before leaving town.lol.So its getting done.I am so mad at myself,its not even funny,Anyways,I will get to all the alerts later or tommrow.I love you guys.Have a good evening.Peaceout.

We will never forget

 

Almost 5 years and still going  -  Please don't break.....                                                                                                 <?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /> This has not been broken since 9/11/01 , please keep it going... This has been kept alive and moving since 9/11. In memory of all those who perished this morning; the passengers and the pilots on the United Air and AA flights, the workers in the World Trade Center and the Pentagon, and all the innocent bystanders. Our prayers go out to the friends and families of the deceased. IF I KNEW If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day. If I knew ! it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do. If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything just right. There will always be another day to say "I love you," And certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do?" But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get, I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike, And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight. So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes, ! you'll surely regret the day, That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish. So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear, Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay." And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.. Send this to at least 10 people to show your support. PLEASE DON'T BREAK IT!!!!!!