You all are tired of me,arent you?

You guys must really think I am crazy?lol.I just wanted to take a munite and say that I am sorry for complaining.I am thankful for all the advice you all have given to me.Maybe sometimes I just say to much and people get tired of it.For that,I am sorry.Its been hard,I wont lie.But I am not going to do anything till after Christmas,that would be a bad,very bad thing to do.You all are right that I am the only one in the house besides my Dad,but,He is usllay at work during the day and its just me and Mom.If you all could say a prayer for Her,to maybe find a friend that She can talk to.I have you all,and my boyfriend.I have a bestfriend but I dont feel comfortable talking to Her.I feel like I am always saying sorry to my Mom and She never sees what She does.But,again,I have relized how that is and why that is.I know,I am a pain.I feel like all I been doing lately is venting out all my problems to you guys and I am thinking,you all are probllay getting sick and tired of hearing it.All I will say,it was a biggie this moring.We depend to much on eachother.I finally told my boyfriend,if thigns dont change,after Christmas,I may just have to look for a place,I dont know.We shall see.She is just stressing out so much.And today work called this moring,wanted me to come in and no one was here and I really didnt want to go in,because,today was mainly my last shoping day and I got it all done,just about.One more hting is all I need.They called the first time asking me if I can come in and I was upset,crying, and trying to hide it best way I can and they probllay thought I didnt want to come in because I was crying.lol.I wasnt crying,crying,but they could tell I was not happy.lol.So tommrow I will go in and explain to my boss and than I will probllay stat crying again.lol.thats all I been doing.Anyways,I need to get things done.As always.lol.Have a good evening,good weekend.Be safe and peaceout.