I know I am only making it worse for myself.I cant get another job right now,because this is the only job that I have right now.I know that I am the only one who can make things right.I feel right now,I am at my last drop,falling into the dark pit and just want to give up.Still knowing there are alot of people who care.Thats only reason why I dont give up.If I had a pain killer,let me tell you,I would be alseep right now.I know,yeah,I am making things worse only for myself.I just wish sometimes people can just give me a break and leave me alone or I dont know.I look at myself,right now and I am madt,hating life and I dont know what to do.I used to love my job,I was happy and I am,kinda,sorta,ok,maybe not.lol.But,I feel they dont see the kind of person I am.Right now,I feel like an outsider.If anyone says anything to me tommrow and they better not.So,what is it going to take?The reason I cant give up this job is because I have health insurance,I cant give it up.I have my shots to think about.I have alot to think about.I know,theres more people worse off than I am.So,I guess thats about it.I think I am just going to get off of here and try and relax.If anyone wants to try and reach me.I guess I have my cell on mobil.