Lettinng it all out,part 2.LOL.

Good moring all,

I hope you all are sleepng well.I wanted to thank you all for leaving your kind,caring words to me.I really needed that.I am relizing I battel with depression,not in a serious big way,but,in a way,it does get me down,like I wrote yesterday in my entry.I thought I was alone.You all help me to see I am not alone,even thoe I feel alone alot of times.Even thoe I have a family who care,a Boyfriend who loves me.I strugle,I know we all do.I been feeling alot lately,setting myself up to high for so many goals I want to get done.I think its all just getting to me.Plus worrying about the Holidays.Even thoe I am takinf meds,somewhat helping,I still find myself here,in this path of depression that I strugle with everyday.

How do we all get past this?Sometimes I feel like telling my Boyfriend how I honestly feel with my life,I know He knows somewhat of how I feel,but not like this.Its very hard to tell people how I feel.But I need to get it all out.I also feel like,I need a good girlfriend to talk to,hang out with,go a movie or something.But is there someone actullay out there that I can trust,like that?I dont tink I need a shrink.I just need to work this out.My parents are so protective of me,they want to keeo me safe and I feel so locked up.Sometimes I feel like just taking a long wak,but,cant do that around here.Not by myself anyways.So,maybe thats why I stay in this room alot and thats probllay why I get depressed alot.I want to change,not in a big way.I want to do things small.I just dont know how.Yes,this world scares me,it scares me alot.To know what is beyond this point in my life.

Do I feel lost,yes,but,maybe right now in this life of mine,I am were I am susposed to be at.But than,it just all gets to me.Maybe thats why I feel the way I do,when,I am in my room alot and I dont get out.I think to much,I worry to much and set myself to high for big goals.So maybe I am not nuts.LOL.I know,I am just normal.I do try to find ways of helping me cope through the bad days.But its hard and I know its hard for all of us.I alos feel and know I been so out of touch witht he Lord,getting to know Him and wanting im back in my life.That is hard to.Does it have to do with trusting?When I am like this,dont mind me,I just get to thinking so many things.I will stop here.But I will keep contiue to keep on getting all this out.So it will help me.Help me to move on.Get through my day.Thank you all for listning to me,problay sounds like i am complaining.Thank you all so  much.I do love you all.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.