Its time to wake up and smell the Rosses.lol.

Good moring all,

                  Hope everyone had a good night sleep,that you all got some good rest.I had a good sleep,but,for some reason,I feel like I want to go back to bed.lol.I feel I could sleep in all day long.lol.Maybe,its because of the weather,when its raining,I feel that way.I wanted to thank you all for the nice comments you left me,they encourge me alot and I really do appriete you all,I know,I am a bad speller.lol.Not sure what I am going to do today on my day off.i know,I am going out with my MOm this moring,this time I am going out!!!lol.She wants to go to breakfest,than to the storr.Than later,I will probllay go out with my boyfriend.Cant belive the weekend is almost,already here.Tommrow,is pay day,which I like that and I am sure everyone else likes pay day to.lol.I love to shop.lol.But I am trying to onyl get what I need.Which I can tell you,I need clothes,big time,my clothes are so old.lol.I have work pants,work shirts,but,I just need some clothes for like,just going out.I need sweat pants.lolFor some reason,I am feeling pretty good today with my shoulder,it is not hurting,I am glad for that.lol.I think my Mom and I are close,we always been close.I know She gets depressed,I wish She had health insurance,so,She could get the right meds to help Her not be depressed.But She works it out,She handels sometimes,I dont think I could handle it without my meds.I wish I wasnt on any meds at all.Is that such a bad thing to be dependent on them?There are so many things I want to do,I know I talk alot about my fears.One day soon,I will face one of them.lol.I dont know why I call it a fear,about me going out there and doing some things on my own,so,I wont have to be dapendent on my parents or anyone.I want so much to face the world on my own,thats what I want more than anything.I am going to try and work on that.I say it,easy said than done,right?Anyways,I need to get off of here and get cleaned up.I hope you all have a nice day and I will be back later.So much more I want to say.lol.Peaceout.One more thing I wanted add and ask if anyone out there knows of any kind of transportion that I could use early in the moring,when I have to be at work at 6.I know there are busses,but,I cant depend on them,being late.I dont know,if you all have any ideason what I can do.I just dont like getting my Dad up all the time and this is something I can do for indapendence.Thank you all.For everyone who is going to get the storm of Ernsto,please be safe.I am praying for you all.

this evening was a better evening

Good evening to all,

                        Hope you all are having a god one.I feel really bad about feeling like such a complainer.I am sorry about that.Mom and I are fine.I dont want you all to think,that we dont love eachother.We do,and I am close with my Mom.I guess,you how it goes,if your a Mother and you have a daughter,you probllay know.I love my Mom so much and would do anything for Her.even today,when I left the house after we havent spoken,I left Her a note,saying I was sorry and hope She forgave me,that I love Her and want to spend time with Her,that I hated aurging with Her.I am really not a bad person.lol.I dont think.Just sometimes,you know,I guess its hard.But will tell you this,we do love eachother,I know She is always there for me.I do resecpt my Mom,She has done so much for me.On that note,I just wanted you all to know that.Shes a loving,caring Mom.She thinks She is always right.lol.I think that to,because,She knows best and I do know that.Am I boring or what?lol.Anyways,I need to get off of here to get some princess sleep.lol.When I came home,I even got my Mom dinner,She loves rice bowls from Chiplote,bad speller.Hope you all have a good night.I am praying that storm out there will not hit and turn away.I am not cought up on all of my alerts,but will get to them.I love you all so much.Thank you for being just you.I will probllay have some free time tommrow night or Thursday.Peaceout.

Dont know anymore,started out as a good day

Hi there,

     Good  moring to all.Hope you all are having a good week.I havent done an entry for a couple of days.lol.So wanted to do one now before I get really busy today.I do have alot of stuff to do today.Even thoe it is my day off.lol.But I have another one on Thursday.So,that is good.But I have alot of running around to do today.Probllay wont be on here much.But you never know.lol.I ust wanted to let you all know,I am thinking of you,keeping you all in my prayers.I know I have to catch up in the alerts,I will get to them soon.I love you all so much.Seems like there is so much to do,not enough time in the day.lol.I go see my thereapyst today,it helps to talk about things and get them out.There is so much I want to do in my life,but,I still have alot of fears to let go and dont know how to do that.Why do I have all thoes fears?I just dont understand.Anyways,I am going to cut this short.I hope you all have a wodnerful day.I pray you all are well and for all of you who are not well,I am praying you all get better.I miss you loads.I will try and be back later.Have a great day.

God bless,

Amanda

     

P.S.Ok,guys,I need some advice on what I should do with my Mom.I dont know what to do anymore.I cant deal with it anymore.It hurts to much.I always feel I am in the worng.I love my Mom so much and She has done so much for me.But everytime,something happends,I feel it is my falt.Maybe I am being selfish,Id ont know.I was getting up early,to get dress,clean up and do things for my Mom this moring,before going to my doctors,to see my thereapyst,which I am  glad I am seeng Her today.My MOm asked me if I had plans to go out with my boyfriend and I said yes,She didnt ask me what time.I said He was picking me up after my app.Than,thats when She got mad.She thinks I am never there for Her.I am not offending my Mom,not say anything bad about Her.Shes a great Mom.But She gets so stressed out all the time,it gets to me and I dont know what to do.I think I heard Her right,She was probllay just taking out of anger,bein upset.She told me or maybe I missunderstood Her,to find a place to stay.I know She doesnt want that.Maybe it doesnt seem like I dont do alot of things with Her.But I am always helping Her out.When She needs things for church,I get it for Her.But I know,She is blaming this on me.I just dont know what to do.I do have a life,I also want to do things with Her.I guess,I am just going to have to make some plans out for just Her and I.I will tell my boyfriend,I am spending time with my Mom.Right now,She is mad,so,She probllay wants nothing to do with me or my Dad.Is it really my falt? know She hurts alot,and gets upset alot.ut I feel,when ever my sister calls and needs some help,She is there for Her.I am not jealous,it just hurts.If She is upset with my sister,She doesnt show it to HEr.Should I be worng for saying all this?I feel I shouldnt have a life.So many things I want to do.I feel so traped at times.I know and think my Mom needs a friend,needs someone to talk to.Maybe I am spending to much time with my boyfriend.I feel my Mom is depressed.But She doesnt have insurance to get help.Or maybe this is all my doing,I am all in the worng.Not it feels alot of tension in here.It seems like this happends every Tuesday,when She knows it is date night.I need help,I need to know what I should.I feel She wants so much out of me.I want to be there for Her,do things fo HEr.This is helping now,just getting it all off my mind.I know today,She wont speak to me,so,I am on my own with getting dinner.lol.I just hate it when we dont speak.And when we do,like tommrow,I know She will probllay be picking me up from work at 10.I know She feels I am never there for Her.It always starts out with me having thigns to do with my boyfriend.He is the only friend I have,besides you guys,and a bestfriend,who I really dont talk to and cant tell my feelings like this to Her.I dont know how.Do I sound like a bad person for saying all this?Thats how I feel.Please,give me some advice on what I should do.I know  have said this before,but,it is really getting to me.She stays kooped up in Her room.I dont like to see Her do that.I know She probllay feels I dont care.I am just so hurt and I know She is to.We been slaming doors.lol.Shes a wonderful perosn,a great Mom.I know She goes through so much.Maybe She would like a card in the mail to.Might even cheer Her up.I dont know.I am stressed.I dont like being in this mood.Because my boyfriend is picking me up right after my app.Like tommrow,if She does pick me up,we wont talk about it,because,I know,it is my falt.I dont anymore.thank you all for listning to me rambling on.I just dont want you to think I dont love my Mom,I do,I love Her alot.She thinks I am not there for Her.But I feel,She execpts to much from me.Am I worng?Hope you all have a great day and I love you all so much.it is really quiet here.lol.

I love you,

Okay,one more thing,than I am getting off and heading to bed.lol.I am tired.3 Entrys in one day and catching up on all of my alerts.Wow.lol.I crack me up.lol.Not literlay.lol.But I wanted to say thanks to Stevie,for adding my pic into the video,someone told me,but cant remember who it was,sorry,lack of memory lost.lol.And I cant see the viedo for some reason,was trying really hard to look at it.lol.But I couldnt.lol.But wanted to say thank you for all your hard work you put into it.If I remember right,that your not feeling good right now,just know,I am praying for you,I am praying for Krissy and John and for all in J-land who isnt feeling well.I love you all so much and you dont know how much you mean to me.I guess we are a close family.Thank you all so much for your kind,caring added comments,thanks for being there for me.I feel sometimes you just have to say thanks and I love you once in a while.Is that so dumb or not?But,wanted to add this.I am thankful for you all.I also want to add,I am thankful for the Healing Garden,thanks guys,you are the best.I hope and pray for each and everyone of you.Goodnight.

Can you guess what movie this is from?And were are they now?

You give up already?Answer is down at the bottom of this entry.Mary popins,that is a laugh.lol.

                                 Hi all,its me again,I know you all are looking at this pic right now,wondering, if you can guess which movie it came from.Shouldnt be that hard.Someone did a entry earlyer last week asking what your fave things was and fave move was,I should of put this one down,because it is my all time most fave movie in the world.Ok,I know,probllay sound stupid.But I love it.And the question I want to ask so bad and probllay no one knows.So,I am asking anyways.They were all so young in this movie,wonder were they are now?What are they doing,how old they are?I have been thinking about that so much lately.Probllay due to the fact,I am always watching it.lol.You guys give up?I wont put the answer in till tommrow,to see if anyone knows.lol.I am sure you all will.I could sit for hours and wacth it over and over and over again.Hope you all have a good night.Love you all.Peaceout.The answer is...........The Sound Of Music.lol.I laughed when I read someones comment,cant remember who,when they said,Mary Popins.Well,you was close with the actress,Julia Andwreas.Have a blessed day

Man,been on here way to long today.lol.

Yikes,Thank you Sazzy for my pic,I love it.Sometimes its me,most of the time,when I wake up,but,not so much anymore,since I am used to waking up early.Thankie.

    I think I been on here long enough today.Actullay it was a good day to catch up on alot of my alerts.lol.When I was getting them done,more kept comming.I was like ohno.lol.But its all for the fun.But I really shouldnt be on here long,due to the fact that it really hurts my shoulder still and my neck.I dont know why.So,I am almost done here.After I get off of here,I am going to do some things for tommrow.Maybe put some bengay on my shoulder,but let me tell you,if you ever use bengay on your shoulder,after you get out of the shower,let me tell you,it stings like crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!And it burns!!!!!!!!!!!!!But it helped a little.Almost felt like a sunburntlol.My brothern law just came in and called my Grumpy.lol.He always calls me that.lol.Hes Grumpy to.lol.I am blessed to have a good family,even thoe some can be a pain.lol.I guess we all can be like that.After I get off of here,dont think I will get back on here,I been on here way to long.I am susprised my Dad isnt saying,you wearing the puter out?lol.Hey,I wonder why,when the alerts come and say you 5,but only 1 shows up.Do you know why that happends?I wonder if anyone out there in J-land got any of my post cards yet?Or still wats one.Do we do this for the Holidays to?Anyways,I think thats about all I have to say for now.I hope you all are having a good weekend.I will catch you guys later,on the flip side of things.lol.Peaceout.Be good.One more thing,does anyone know of any good relaxing thigns to do?

I love you all!!!!!!!!!!

Hi all,

      Hope you all having a good start of the weekend.Just want to make a quick entry,before I get off of here,eat my lunch and lay down.Dont know why I am tired.Probllay my meds kicking in.I think everyone is doing an AWSOME job with helping Krissy and John.Its amazing,you find so many good people out there like this.And I know whats out there in the world.But I am just greatful for the people I have in J-land.I love you guys sooooooooooooooooooooooo much.I havent gotton around to all the netrys yet,but,I will.I just want to say to all my J-landers who are hurting,and in pain,I hope you all get better soon.I am pryaing for you all,as,I am for Krissy and John.Jamiy,I hope you get to feeling better with your knee.Joyce,I hope you get better to.I really do care for each and everyone of you.Also to let you know,that if you got a post card from me let me know,I just sent a bunch out the other day and if you still want one.Let me know.Hope you all have a wodnerful day.Relax,put your feet up,enjoy the day,lay in,be lazy.Thats what I am going to do.Feel better my J-landers.So many people are hurting and in pain.I can only do so much.But wanted to let you know,I care and I am praying for you all to get well.It is such a wodnerful feeling to have good people who are praying and being there for Krissy and John.We love you Krissy and John.I love you all.Peaceout till now.

For Krissy and John

My heart goes out to Krissy and John,I am praying for them both.I also added them to a prayer list.

 

                                                                                                *Prayer*

                                                                                                For : John

                                                                         Submitted By: HugsDoodleWacky

                                                                                This Is My Prayer For You

Father, I Ask You Touch John's Heart, This Man Is Enduring Great Grief And Emotionally Distress, Place Your Loving Hands On John, Let Him See, By Trusting In You, What Will Be, Will Be Done.......Amen  TBT Foundation

~Prayers needed~

FOR KRISSY & JOHN

As most of you know, John is in a bad way right now...prayers are being requested. Also, blood is needed, as John is using 7 bags a day at this time! To donate in John's name: Contact The Red Cross, his full name is John E. Knox - He's in Hershey Medical Center - Transplant Center - Hershey, PA. His blood type is O+ , but it doesn't matter what blood type is donated, it will be credited to him. Please donate if you can, or make a monetary donation in his name! To find out more about his condition check here KRISSY & JOHN.

Prayers are much needed tonight.Love you all.

Hi all,

       Good evening to everyone,hope you all are having a good one.I had a busy and long day today.I have to share something with all of you that just stird me up a bit and I said a prayer for them as I am saying a prayer for John and Krissy.I know they are going through so much right now.We all need to be there for them.But I wante to share my day and to let you know what stird me up.Well,my boyfriend and I was leaving the movie theater,we got on the beltway and we was stuck due to a really bad accident,bad enough that a helacopter came down and to them to the hosiptal.I hope and pray them make it,but,if you saw the 2 cars,I dont know.It really just scared me,how life can just take you by a flash,if you know what I mean.It was like,everyone got out of there cars to see what was going on.I have seen some prety bad stuff like that,but,that just really scared me.I dont know how it all happend,but,they think that they both was just going so fast on the road,and I just dont understand how can you go so fast on a road that is so small?With both cars turned upside down,one car was tottlay burnt.I hope and pray they are ok and if they are saved.It just kinda makes you think about life.You never know whats going to happend.When everyone started moving and we went pass them,and I saw the cars like that,I was like oh my goush.I just said a prayer for them right there,even before than.But to think some people just dont care,they want to get out of there and go do what they have to do,you know how they go on the shoulder,or what ever you call that extra road were you can get by it all.I just wanted to share this with you all.I do pray they are ok.We saw the helacopter took off and than it we could leave.My sister when ever She sees an accident like that,She prays for them on the spot.She is a good prayer person.I iwll tell Her to pray for Krissy and John.There is another prayer lsit I can also put them on.I get a devotion sent to me everyday from Jbandy369,She has a wodnerful devotional everyday and I will let Her also know about them.My prayers go out to them and to the people who got hurt.It is like my heart just drops and you dont know what to do.Anyways,its been a real long day.From working this moring,even thoe it was only 4 hours,than went out with my Mom for a little bit,sometimes I have to bite my tounge.lol.But were ok.Than went to the movies,saw the Hillary Duff movie,was cute,not one of Her best ones,but it was ok,couldnt belive my boyfriend went with me to see that.lol.Hes a good support.lol.Now I am home,feel like just taking a shower and calling it a night.I am wiped out.lol.My shoulder is still really bothering my,I think it is swolen.I just dont know what to do.It feels like a twing or somehting inside my shoulder and hurts so bad,from my shoulder to my hand.I dont want to sound like I am complaing,because,I could be alot worse off.thank you all for being there for me,praying for me and giving me good advice.I still never can imagin how I ever found J-land and how it has helped me so much.You guys are great.One more thing.I did alot of post cards last night,they will be in the mail tommrow,so be looking for them.I heard one J-land said She had had like 47  somehting,I want as many as She has.lol.Do I sound selfish?Hehe.Dont want to sound like that.But would be nice.Wonder if you all think like that.Mail is great.Getting cards and stuff instead of bills and junk.Well,hope you all have a wonderful night.I think about you all often and my prayers are with you all,specilay for John and Krissy.Peaceout.

Why do they have this subject line here anywayslol.You always got to think of soemhting.lol.

Its me again,just got home from going out with my boyfriend.Still a little touchy here in the house,I can still feel tension in the house.But what can I do.Still upset,but,I am holding my own.I feel depressed,probllay because you wouldnt know what I did yesterday,I bought,junk food,yes and I eat it and I feel yuky about myself right now,with all thats going on.I know I have a sweet tooth,and BOY do I have a sweet tooth.lol.I think I am just ging to not eat very much,I think I am going try drinking some water,they only water I like is the Vitiman water,they have at my stoor.I am going to get some tommrow.Well,you all have a good evening.I am going to get off of here and get a few things done.I did how ever bought a dvdv,well my boyfirend did.lol.Wink Wink.lol.Just my luck with the gril Lohen,cant spell the first name.But you all know who I am talking about.Its dumb,but cute.lol.

Just chilling,not anymore,now I am MAD!!!

Good moring all,

          Hope you all are having a good day today.Hope you all had fun at the party.Wish I could of been there to say Hi and meet everyone.But glad you all had a blast.Maybe you all could set up a chat room fo J-land,I dont know,just an idea.I a getting ready to head out with my Mom.So,it will probllay be a busy day.Sorry,guys,if I didnt get around to put a comment in everyones journal for the past year of J-land.I do love you all.Thank you all so  much for your comfort.I will be getting around to sending post cards out tommrow.I know theres somehting I want to say,but,I forgot.lol.I hate that.lol.Do you ever get so stressed out,and cant finish everything all in one day?I do have to say,I am greatful,I fnally have the right meds that work for me and help me cope though the day.Sometimes,I still wish I had a pain killer,but,I dont want them,I was very addicted to them,they got me through the day,well,not really,just made me slept and forget it all.But I am feeling so much better.I am trying to learn how to be me,and be happy.I do love my Mom alot,I think we get on eachothers nerves and I try really hard not get there.lol.I want to be there for Her.But sometimes is jsut to much,do you know what I mean?sometimes I just dont want to get up in the moring,just sleep in all day.But I think we all get like that.But I do need to get going.I think She is ready to leave.I just feel like things are getting to me all at once.But,I am feeling better.I hope I am not confusing you all.I think I am confusing myself.You all have a great day.I do need to catch up on some things here in J-land.Peaceout till now.Be safe out there.God bless you all.Ok,I am back,I didnt go anywere.Now I am tottlay mad,would like to use another word for mad,but,I want to keep mu journal clean.lol.I cant belive it,I get up early this moring,get cleaned up and ready to go out with Mom,but than when we are all ready to go,what does She do and I always know it will be my falt.She calls my sister and wants to take the kids out,Mom told me today,jsut when were ready to leave,She said She told my sister She planed on spending time with my neice,I can understand that,but,I had to be back at the house by 2 or 3,and it was already getting late.I thought it was going to be just Mom and I,but I know my Mom,She always does this and I start to get a litle mad and upset,than She gets mad and upset,than nothing happends,the day is runin,this day is runin.I cant belive it.I am mad,I am angry and I am upset.I love my MOm,I really do and were close.I want to do stuff with Her and I know lately I havent been doing stuff with Her.I dont know what went on when She was talk to my Sister on te phone about spending time with my neice and probllay my nephew.I dont know,She knew I had plans myself.Sometimes I wonder,and now it is my falt,than Shes going to be angry for the rest of the day and I will be to.Now I dont even feel like going out nowere,not even with my boyfriend.Today is date night and I have to work tommrow and usllay I am off,but,I have to work.Sometimes I feel like She doesnt have any,I shouldnt even say the word.Because I am just sitting here,tears comming down my face and knowing we probllay wont even talk to eachother.I tryed really hard,I thought,and would of just went and hang out with my Mom and my neice and nephew or who ever,but,She kept telling my Sister,I was getting upset because I had to be back here at a certain time.So now,ofcourse everything is my falt,I just made me a sandwhich,and She said,I am not cleaning up after you all.Fine and dandy to me.She didnt have to go and say all what She said to my Sister,that I was getting upset.So I take it,my Sister is probllay a little upset to.Oh well,what can I do.Why dosnt She tell me theeses things ahead of time?I just dont get it.Well,I think I am going to get off of here and maybe lay down.Dont get me worng guys,I love my Mom,I am greatful for Her and my Dad.But today was just tottlay screwd.And I feel like calling my boyfriend and telling Him,I dont feel like going out.Oh well,I will see how I feel later.But right now,I am MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I am finally getting ready to leave soon with my boyfriend,I didnt really wanted to go,but,I guess I should get out of the house for a while.I was going to write my Mom a note saying I was sorry,but,I still dont know what to do.So,maybe I will just leave it alone for now.Its beel like walking around egg shells here at the house.She looks at me,not a pretty site.I am always in the worng and cant do anything right.But I love my Mom.Than when I went to do a load of wash,She got mad because She was going to wash to and I already had put my load in there.I think I am just going to leave a note,than I am going to go outside and wait for my boyfriend.I need to listen to some music.Have a good day all,better than I did.Peace.

Wanted to know who all got a posard from me or who didnt and who wants one?lol.

Hi all,

        Hope all is well.Hope you all are having a good start of the week,with getting your kids off to school.Remember the days.Wanted to do a short entry and head to bed.I wanted to ask you all out there,wanting to know if you got a post card from me or not?I sometimes get confused.lol.So please let me know if you all got one or didnt and I will send one out.And if you want one,let me know.lol.Anyways,I need to get off of here and get some sleep,I am off tommrow,but,I am in a bit of pain.I am really not wanting to go back to the doctors,jus because,I dont want Him to say,you need some time off of work.lol.I cant afford it.Love you all,goodnight,sweet dreams.Peaceout.

Long day and I am tired.

Hi all,my entry for the bday J-land is not done yet,if it looks a little dull,please tell me.lol.I am really not good at this kind of stuff at all.I am really tired right now,need to get some sleep.I am feeling some pain right now.I hope you all have a fun and safe party.lol.This is a pretend party,right?lol.I lvoe you all and goodnight for now.

Happy 3rd Birthday J-land

                                                                      

                                                   I didnt like my entry,sorry guys,so,I decied to change it and the color.lol.I just couldnt make up my mind.I am sorry I didnt get a chance to come into the chat room and say Hi to all my peeps.I had to get my beatiuy sleep.lol.I know I cant spell.lol.But I wanted to talk a little about my time here in J-land,since I am still a newbie here.But it feels like I been here longer than,I dont know,sevral months,cant keep up with that stuff.You all made me feel so welcome.I never thought there was such a place like J-land.when I came upon J-land,I was thinking and thinking,should I do this?Than I did,but,I started out as going private,but,than relized,hey,it doesnt make no since going private,when you want people to encourge you,to help you out in times of troubles.I know a journal is susposed to be private,but,hey,this is the best thing that ever happend to me herein J-land.My first entry,was like,oh my goush,no one likes me and I didnt get a singel added comment.lol.But than look out world,here came all kinds of added comments,wonderful comments,from wonderful people.I am glad to be apart of J-land,I never even imagine there was something like this out here.I just hope,they never get rid of Aol Journals.the first person I talked to was Rozymoma aka Shelly,who tld me about photobucket,Photobucket is wodnerful,except for te blue print around the pics.lol.Shelly is a wonderful person.as all of you are.I wish I could just put down all of your names here,to show you all how much I care for you all.It means alot to me,to have so many good,caring people,to help in times of good times,the bad times,the worse times,the what ever times in between.lol.This maybe dumb,but I feel like I have grown up because of J-land,the people in it.I can express my feelings,and not feel bad about it and it helps getting your feeling all out in the open.I cant express enough of how much you all mean to me,each and everyone of you.The wonderful art work you all have done,you all do have an artest in you.I wish I could be like that,but,I guess we all have our own talents.Like my family said I had a talented in writting.I have always loved to write,used to write all the time when I was younger.I always and still think about writting a book,but wouldnt know how to do that.lol.Hey,wait a munite,getting ahead of myself here,this J-lands bday,not my problems.lol.I just wanted to thank you all,everyone of you,you know who you are,you are a special part of my life,if J-land wasnt here,I would be a basket case.lol.Its been fun,a blast,I truly do love each and everyone of you,you make think that sounds funky,but,its true,that is what amazes me,you find people out here in J-land that can be truly a blessing.Thats what I am trying to say here,you all are truly a blessing to me.Thank you all soooooooooooo much for being there for me,through it all and hoping we will all keep on keeping on being there for eachother.You all did a wodnerful job at puting this celabrating together for J-land.Give yourselfs a clap.Clap Clap Clap.I dont know what else I can say here,so,I think I am done.I do want to say one thing.I am praying for John and Krissy,hope and pray John gets well.I dont know them very well,but,I dont have to know them.You both are in my thoughts and my prayers.I also pray for each and everyone of you.Thank you from the bottom of my heart making J-land the best.I hope I did not bore you all with this.I care for you all.I actullay think this entry is alot better than the one I did last night.lol.Next time I know,not do something when I am so tired.lol.I hope you all have a wodnerful day.Thank you J-land for making this the best place on Aol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!You are Da Bomb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

                                                                                                                    

Getting out of that funky mood

Hi all,

         I hope you all dont get bored with all my entrys.I guess I just love to write alot.lol.I wanted to talk about a few things,kinda embarsing to me,but,thought I would go ahead and put it out there.I think and know I been feeling like I been in a funk mood,not wanting to do anything about my looks or my apparince,till someone mentioned to me at work.They was nice about it,but,kinda woke me up a little bit.I havent realy been feeling good about myself,and I need to start doing that,dont know how to start doing that,but I need to.First of all,I had been wearing pants that I dont need to wear,just felt like not myself,not feeling pretty.You know thoes elastic pants,I was wearin them.I had a couple of cute jeans,I just never wore them yet.But today Mom and I went and I think mentioned in my other entry,went to dressbarn,there clothes are a little high,but,I needed somehting to make me start feeling better,so,I bought a pair of tight jeans,I never have bought them before,so,I am wearing them to work tommrow,also got a new pair of pretty earings.So,I am going all out tommrow and see what they all say.And my boyfriend will be picking me up in the moring.Hehe.to late to do my nails,maybe will do them tommrow night,actullay,I hate doing my nails.lol.See,that is how boring I am and how boring I feel.lol.Think its about time to just wake up,get up,out of that funk and move on.I want to be the person I need to be and find the real Me.So,just wanted to share that.I have old jeans,I mean old jeans,I have been wearing.I need yo start feeling good for me,not anyone else,but me.Well,I need to get going,you all have a good night.I will take a pic tommrow if I remember.Love you all.Be safe out there.Peace.

Getting out of that funky mood

Hi all,

         I hope you all dont get bored with all my entrys.I guess I just love to write alot.lol.I wanted to talk about a few things,kinda embarsing to me,but,thought I would go ahead and put it out there.I think and know I been feeling like I been in a funk mood,not wanting to do anything about my looks or my apparince,till someone mentioned to me at work.They was nice about it,but,kinda woke me up a little bit.I havent realy been feeling good about myself,and I need to start doing that,dont know how to start doing that,but I need to.First of all,I had been wearing pants that I dont need to wear,just felt like not myself,not feeling pretty.You know thoes elastic pants,I was wearin them.I had a couple of cute jeans,I just never wore them yet.But today Mom and I went and I think mentioned in my other entry,went to dressbarn,there clothes are a little high,but,I needed somehting to make me start feeling better,so,I bought a pair of tight jeans,I never have bought them before,so,I am wearing them to work tommrow,also got a new pair of pretty earings.So,I am going all out tommrow and see what they all say.And my boyfriend will be picking me up in the moring.Hehe.to late to do my nails,maybe will do them tommrow night,actullay,I hate doing my nails.lol.See,that is how boring I am and how boring I feel.lol.Think its about time to just wake up,get up,out of that funk and move on.I want to be the person I need to be and find the real Me.So,just wanted to share that.I have old jeans,I mean old jeans,I have been wearing.I need yo start feeling good for me,not anyone else,but me.Well,I need to get going,you all have a good night.I will take a pic tommrow if I remember.Love you all.Be safe out there.Peace.

Lots to do

Hi everyone,good moring,

                          Hope you all are having a good weekend.I am feeling a little better.I wanted to say thank you all for all of your nice added comments.It made me feel cared for,and I think thats what J-land is all about,being there for eachother,to laugh with,to talk to,lend a shoulder to cry on.I thank you all,wouldnt know what I would do without you all.I do have other online buddies as well,and I love them to.They been there for me alot through out the years.I am greatful for you all.I just wanted point out by saying,I am a little busy today,will get back to everyones alerts and comments later.Wow,you all susprised me this moring,turned on my puter and found a whole bunch of added comments,sure did make me feel better.I do love you all.Jaymi,I want to reply to your added comment later today,when I get around to it.Been busy this moring,just got home,my muscles are killing me.Mom and I went to the stoor,after working in one and went to another one,I cant stand that sometimes.But I am there for my Mom,even thoe She gets on my nerves and I probllay get on Hers as well.lol.I havent even had anyhting to eat yet,but I did get something while we were out.So,I am going to get a bite to eat,do some things before I lay down and take a nap.lol.Oh yeah,I do feel alot better,because Mom and I went to dress barn,I bought me a pair of new jeans,which I never buy exencive ones,they were 2499 and they looked good on me so I had to buy them and I got a pair of nice earings.So,I am going to be dauld up for work tommrow.everyone was telling me I need to look more my age,and I just havent felt more my age laltely.I saw in soneone elses entry,the one with the blue hair,I was in a funk,maybe I should dye my hair to.lol.One more thing before I get off of here.Did everyone get there post cards from me?I just wanted to make sure I didnt forget anyone.So please let me know.Thank you all so much.And if anyone still wants a post card from,let me know.Or a pen pal.I lvoe you guys and thank you so much.I will try and get back later today and catch up.I am just busy.Have a great weekend and be safe out there. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))

2 Entrys in one day,wow.Not even in the mood to say wow.I am sorry guys,but,right now I am feeling down and depressed,dont know why.How do you do it?How do you snap out of it?Being home alot doesnt make it any easyer,because of hours being cut short alot.I know,I have so much to be thankful for,but right now,I am not.Should that be so worng of me to say that?Sometimes I just want to actullay go right out and say,I cant stand my life,and for that,dont even know why,well,I cant say that.So many things I just want to say and get off of my mind.Yeah,you all heard me say this once before.Man what I would give to just be on a beach by myself,laying on the sand with the water comming up on me,as long as no sharks in it.lol.Maybe a dolphin,lol.I love Dolphins,they are so beatiful.I am not even at a point in my life were I want to be,settled and happy,not just getting married,not anything like that,I just really want to find my happyness in my life,or as I remember someone telling me,maybe its not meant to be found,or I already have foound it and I am not doing anything about it,I came up with that part.lol.I just worry about so much in my life,dont even know how to have fun anymore,dont know how to relax,dont even know what that means.Times I feel like I am walking around egg shells here.But I guess thats life.Times I want to take this drastict moment and go with it.I feel my life ie empty.Sometimes I hate myself,right now,I feel that way.Why cant I shake what I am going through?Oh well,someday,maybe I will get there,maybe it will be to late.

I am not done yet with my outfit,I could use som help.lol.

 

Ok,yal,seeing as you all wanted to know what everyone is going to wear,man,I cat stand picking out clothes.lol.I am not done yet,just wanted to add my dress,so,hoping no one else got it and I already have a date,but,no ride.lol.I dont like the blue around it,wish I could get that off.I still have to find the rifhgt earings and purse to go with it and the shooses,I am not good with that,so,if anyone is willing to help out,thanks.Yal have a nice day.Be back soon.

                              

                                

Comming up with subject linners,thats hard.lol.

                                                        

Hi everyone,I know I been playing around with the colors alot.lol.So,I am sticking to this one for now.I wanted to add this poem,I read in my devtions I get everyday,thought,it would be inspring.Hope you all have a good evening.Be Blessed.Thank you all for you wodnerful added comments about how I should keep my journal.I am feeling some better,since I met with my new therepyst yesterday.She is very nice.It helps to talk and get thigns out.Cya later gator.lol.

 By: TxBirdie

 

 

<?xml:namespace prefix = v />This is beautiful - and it is surely worth making the 5 finger prayer a part of our lives.


1. Your thumb is nearest you. So begin your prayers by praying for those closest to you. They are the easiest to remember To pray for our loved ones is, as C. S. Lewis once said, a "sweet duty."

2. The next finger is the pointing finger. Pray for those who teach, instruct and heal. This includes teachers, doctors, and ministers. They need support and wisdom in pointing others in the right direction. Keep them in your prayers.

3. The next finger is the tallest finger. It reminds us of our leaders. Pray for the president, leaders in business and industry, and administrators. These people shape our nation and guide public opinion. They need God's guidance.

4. The fourth finger is our ring finger. Surprising to many is the fact that this is our weakest finger, as any piano teacher will testify. It should remind us to pray for those who are weak, in trouble or in pain. They need your prayers day and night. You cannot pray too much for them.

5. And lastly comes our little finger the smallest finger of all which is where we should place ourselves in relation to God and others. As the Bible says, "The least shall be the greatest among you." Your pinkie should remind you to pray for yourself. By the time you have prayed for the other four groups, your own needs will be put into proper perspective and you will be able to pray for yourself more effectively.

If you decide to send this to a friend, you might brighten someone's day! Pass this on to someone special... I did.

I dont know,dont know nada.lol.

Howdy everyone,

                 Hope yal having a good evening.No,I am not from the country,even thoe its pretty there,I am not country,I am a city girl,have to be near a mall.lol.Ask my family,ask my boyfriend,I love to shop.lol.Like I said,I am already doing my christmas shoping and I am half way done,well,I said half way done.lol.Today was a good day.I saw my new thereapyst,I like Her,She is nice,got some things off my chest,She asked me why I have so much fear of wanting to do things on my own,mainly learning to ride the buss.I said because of accdients,teroist,ect,ect,ect.She was going over with me,and asuring me,that most likly it wont happend.lol.So there you have it.I guess I have my answers.that and my parents are worry worts.lol.I am 34 and they still worry?Sheesh.lol.But I love em.Mom said She will still worry when Shes in heaven looking down at us.lol.Dont know if that is funny or not.lol.But oh well.Hey,I wanted to ask yal j-landers out there,yal getting ready for the red carpet,how did you all find the pretty dresses,shooses,earings,purses,ect,ect to match?I want in on the action to.Ok,well,I am outtie for now.I think my hands have had it,I been doing way to much lately,with doing beaded jewrly,typing,letters,I think my hands and shoulders need a vaction.Peaceout.

Its time to wake up!!!

Happy Tuesday all!!! 

Good moring all,hope everyone is having a good week so far.I am doing ok here.Just wanted to pop in and say hey.I feel like lately all I been doing is complainging.That is not me,well,I dont want to be that person.Been reading other peoples journals and them saying how they dont want to complain in there journals,and made me feel bad.lol.I am sorry if I been complaing to much.I will try and be better.I used to be an courgable person.I always love to make people happy and make them smile.I think I am changing right before my eyes and I dont know what to do about that.lol.I am seing my new thereapyst today,I wrote down alot of things I want to talk about.Probllay wont get everything done all in one day.But will let you all know how it goes.I wanted to thank you all for your good advice,and prayers.I do really love you guys.Aol Journaling is the best,I do have to say!!!Oh yeah,one more thing before I get off of here.I am still in the post card game,if anyone is intresed in swaping via emails,and would love to have snail maile pen pals.So thats it folks for now.Have to head off of here and get some things done.ou all have a wonderful day.Think posativve,be encourgable,be happy and be safe out there.Peaceout.

 

                                       

 

Happy Monday Moring!!!

Hi all,

 Happy Monday to all,hope you all had a good weekend.I had an ok weekend.I dont know what I am going to do with myself,since I havetiday,timmriw and Wed off of work,unlesss they call me in.I am ready for a vaction,even thoe school started already for some.Boyfriend and I usllay takes our vaction in the middle of Sept,thats the best time to take it.Than sometime in Oct or Nov I will be taking another vaction with my Mom,my sister and Her family,were going to go to Dezney world,I havent been there since I was little,so,it should be very intresting.I a a litle exicted about it.I never even seen epcod center,so,it will all be new to me.lol.My sister and Her family go all the time.I wanted too ask you all J-landers,I am looking for who ever wants to snail mail,I would lvoe to.I know you have to be very careful on here.But if anyone is intrested in doing that,please let me know.We could via email addys.But I do understand and I am kinda learly about to.but I have gotton to know you some.Anyways, need to get off of here and get a few things done.Hope you all have a nice Monday.Peaceout.

Did I just do that?I just spilled something all over my entry page.lol.

Good moring all,

                   Hope everyone had a good sleep last night,I did,because of my medicine helps,helps alot with restless leg syndrom.I wanted to thank everone who gave me good advice about my boyfriend and about driving.lol.I think you all are right,that I should just leave it alone,let it pass for now,even thoes its kinda hard to do.But I will try,I didnt really want to put any presure on my boyfriend,He knows what I want,He knows I want a life,marriage with Him.I think He thinks I am still a baby,still young and would be scared to get maried and leave home.Ofcourse,I am scared,marriage is a big step,huge step,and I know nothing about being in a marriage.I am ust going to go ahead and spill the beans here.lol.I dont think I am scared to be alone,but its been so long being with my boyfriend,I wouldnt know.lol.Even thoe I still live with my parents.But here is the thing I wanted to get at,wasnt sure I wanted to put what I want to say in here.But I feel I need and let it off my chest.I probllay have mentioned before,I come from a christian family,how ever my Dad isnt saved.My Mom goes to church,I have a family who are missonary over in London,I have a sister and Her husband and family who are very active in the church here along with my Mom.I got to stop here and think of what I need to say.I fee like my heart is harden,have you ever felt like that?It acullay hurts.I feel I have been presured,I know my Mom loves and cares for me and wants the best for me.Ok,here is the thing,She wants me to be married before I am with a guy,if you know what I mean,I go to Ocean City with my boyfriend every year,we stay in the same hotell together.My mom doesnt like that,thats what I was getting at last night,but,wasnt ready to spill the beans here.lol.I feel like I am a bad person.She doesnt like the fact that I go with Him ans stay in the hotell with Him,I hear it every year when I go.But what I am getting at is,this has to come from God telling me what I need to,not my Mom.I know She loves me,I do know that and Shes a good Mom,Shes done so much for me.To tell you the truth,I cant belive I am saying this,but,right now at this point in time,I dont feellike I am a christian,I have been saved,even baptized.At one time,was very decacated into going to church,finding a good church man.Dont know what went worng.I feel alot of times God is nudging at me,going to church,but not giving everything up,if you know what I mean.I am not ready to give it all up.I know my Mom would love for me to find a good church man.But,this is who I am,right now.I lvoe my boyfriend so much and I dont want to leave Him.Hes a good man.I do know He loves me.I feel in my life,I havent even begun to live yet,thoe my boyfriend makes me happy,I lvoe ebing with Him.But for me,my life,inside of myself,I am not happy,dont know what I want out of my life.Scares me to death,life scares me,if I ever need to be on my own,scares me.Boy,I am spilling the big guns here.lol.Maybe I need to print this out and let my boyfriend see it.I know I want to do the right thing,but knowing what that is,I dont know yet.I just feel like everything is getting to me.But,mor than anything in the world,I want to get out there and live,start doing thins on my own,ok,I know,I say that alot.But what is worng with me?HWy cant I let anything go and start living for me?My main picture is,I dont want to always feel depended on someone.I want to live,want to know what my happyness means to me.there you have it,I problla have a whole lot more to say,but,going to end it for now.because,I need to get some things done for work.Thank you all for giving me really good advice.I love you all.

Confused

Hi all,

    Hope everyone is having a pretty good and safe weekend.I am doing ok here.Not doing much of nothing.I usllay am in bed by now,but,dont have to be at work till 12 to 4 tommrow,so,thats good.I get to stay up a little late and sleep in.Today was a frustating day.I did get a good nap on,so,that was good.And I slept for about an hour.I tell you,when my moring medicine kicks in,it kicks butt.lol.Thats why I cant take it while I am working.I take Clonazepam,cant remember what mlgs they are,but its strong and it helps.I really need to change things in my life,shake myself up a bit and start doing things.I always say that,dont I?Its like you feel numb and cant get that feeling out.But onto another subject,I lvoe my Mom and we dont agree on some things,but,it really bugs me so much,sometimes,She throws it in my face and I really cant stand it.I know She loves me,and wants the best for me.But it really hurts me when She does that and than I dont know what to say.But anywyas,maybe I will talk about that another time.Sometimes I feel like shaking things up with my boyfriend,we been together for a while now,would say about almost,probllay 7 years.Deep down in the pit of my stomach,I know,I want to tell my boyfriend,if you love me,truly love me and I know He does,He does so much for me.But I want a live,I want a marriage,probllay not any kids,but you never know.But for me,I want to step up to that plate and tell Him,if you dont love me like you say you do,than,it even hurts me to say it here and I dont want to and you all know what I want to say next.So what do I do?I mean,yeah,Hes a little older than I am,age doesnt matter.It would scare me if I did do this,let Him go,but maybe I need to let Him go,to scare Him,because,I know He truly loves me,I do.But what if He dosnt come back to me?Okay,what should I do?I depend on Him for so much.But I also know I need to do things in my life.I need your advice guys.Thank you all for your advice.I really do love you guys.I know what God would want me to do which is the right thing to do.But I really havent talked to God in a long,long,long,long time.And I think tis is a wake up call for me.We just talked about going to OCean City for a week,we do that every year.Its already planed and everything.So,I am confused.Please help me out here and let me know what I need to do.Thank you all.I am going to try and get some sleep.You all have a nice night.Theres a hug for you all,because I care.Peaceout.

This is who I am but theres more toit.lol.

I am sitting here trying to figure out what I would like to say.I am a 34 year old female,I still live at home with my parents.I am blessed,I have good parents and a good family and a big one.lol.I have to write about myself?lol.Okay,going to do it anyway.I can say from what people have told me,I am a caring,loving person,love to make people smile and make them happy,cheer them up when they are down.I can be silly,when I called to the stoor to talk to my boyfriend today,dont know how they always knows it is me.lol.But She said I am silly and I just laughed.lol.I love my job,even thoe it stresses me out at times,but who doesnt have a job like that?I work in the bakery dapartment and my boyfriend works in the produce dapartment.Hes a good man,with a good heart,and I can actullay say I am treated like a queen. :) So,I am blessed to have so much goodness in my life,even thoe at times,I get down,depressed,lonly,times when I just dont want to be bothered.I guess we all get like that to.I love to write letters,snail mail,not jsut email.I love doing crafts,making jewrley,beaded jewrley.I colect stickers.You think I am a kid at heart?lol.I am told that to.People see me as a caring,silly,laughable,hugable person.How ever,I am a shy one,very shy at first when I get to meet someone in person or talk on the phone.lol.Online its diffrent.lol.Oh yeah,I love to watch dvds,I have tons of dvds.I have a dvd portable player,I lvoe it.You can laugh at this,but,all my movies are Dizney ones,nothing that is rated R.lol.Well,I take that back,I think Ihave at least 2 that are.lol.I crack myself up.lol.Talking about myself is hard.lol.There are still alot of things in my life I need to work on,and still scared to do them.Just dont know how to get rid of being so scared and just go out there and do it.Like the Niki shooe,just do it.lol.But I wear New Balance.lol.I feel alot of times,I am on this big roller coaster,going no were.How did I ever get to being so scared of my fears?Thats a big one for me.I dont know how to drive,dont think I want to now,I say its kinda late for me,but,I know its not.My sister and my Mom has told me I would be a good driver.But its scary being out there on the road.I would probllay freeze.lol.I love to expericence new things.For the most part of me,I am happy,even thoe life can be a strugle for me.Maybe I am to hard on myself.One thing that does scare me to is,the fact that I know my parents arent going to be around forever and thats why I want to get out there and do things on my own.Which I have enver done anything on my own,I can actullay say that.Do I have to be ashamed of that?I do feel ashamed,but that is why I want so much to free myself of my fears.I know my family will always be there for me,even my friends,which I dont have alot,I have more online friends than offline.lol.I hope that someday soon,I will be able to let go and start living.There is alot more I can say,but,I will leave this at that.lol.Thank you for reading my entry.God bless you all.I hope I didnt bore you.lol.

Questionarie

Hi all,

           Was just thinking about some things,everyone has questions to ask,so,I am going to ask them and see if anyone wants to answer them.lol.Good luck.IF to personal,you dont need to put them here.

 

1.What is your busy day like,from the time you get up,to the time you go to sleep?Mine is usllay on a work day,get up,go to work,come home,if not hanging out with boyfriend,I just keep myself busy,cleaning around the house,my room and spending time on the puter.

2.How do you enterain yourself,how do oyu have fun?Well,I watch tv,my 100 thousand dvds,no,dont have that many,but,I have alot.I like to make beaded jewerly stuf,I love to write.

3.What do you like to do on a rainy lazy day or any day?On a rainy day,curl up in my nice cozy bed,maybe watch a movie,or just sleep.lol.On any lazy day,same thing.lol.

4.whats your favorite color since childhood?What is your fave color now?My fave color when I was a kid,was green,still is a little bit,now its pink.Cant you tell?lol.

5.When you get stressed out,how do you calm yourself?I havent yet to learn how to grasp that yet,usllay,just get mad,go to my room.lol.Sometimes,slam the door.My Mom does that.lol.I got it form HEr.

6.What is your favorite meal of the day,or your favorite restaunt?My fave meal of the day is breakfest,probllay because I never get to eat brekfest,always skip breakfest,my fave,all time restaunt is Outback.Bloomion,coconut shrimp and 2 lobster tails.YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY.

7.Do you talk on the phone alot?I really dont like talking on the phone much,but I have to make my rounds to the people I need to talk to,like my bestfriend.Sometimes,when I see who is calling,I dont answer,if I dont feel like talking.Shhhhhhhhhhhhh.

8.Does everyone have a whole bunch of friends,or do you just have a few?I would say I have a few friends,butI have alot of online friends,who i love dearly.

9.Do you come from a bi family?Are you close with them?I would say I come from a big family,not just my brothers and sisters,but,I have alot of couisns,alot of them I dont know.lol.But I do have 1 sister,3 sister n laws,1 brother n law,3 brothers.Dont ask me how many neices and nephews I have.To may to count.lol.My neices are as follows,Emily,Shannon,Katie,Maddison,Ashley,Stephine,My nephews are as follows,Kyle,Stephen,Jeffrey,Zack,Alex,Steve Jr,Sure hope I didnt forget anyone.lol.Oh yeah,my Sister n law in London is having a bagy gril on the way soon.

10.Okay,this maybe a tough question for you all.What do you like about yourself?Are you happy?What does happy mean to you?I probllay asked that before,but,here it is again.What I like about myself,I am still learning and figuring that out,I am learning that I like my smile and it makes other people smile when I smile,I love to make people happy.I think I am an courgable person.What my happy means to me,not sure what that is yet,still have a life time figuring that out.Well,I am happy because,I love my family,I love being an aunt,I love all of my neices and nephews,I love my boyfriend,He would do anything for me if I ask Him to do it.I love my friends and my online friends.

Okay,there you have it,probllay some stupid questions.lol.But I was having fun doing them.Have a blessed weekend all.Be safe.Peace.

hAPPY bIRTHDAY jOYCE

              

I just want to wish some who is very special to me,a very special Happy Birthday!!!I hope you have an AWSOME ONE!!!I am sure your hubby will treat you like a queen.You deserve it and deserve to be pampered. :) YOU ROCK!!!Here is Her link to Her journal,go and wish Her a Happy Birthday!!! Treasure Chest Full of Life  I sure hope I got that right.Just not very good at theeses things yet,but,I am getting there. :)

 

Just chillin

 

(((((((((((((((((((((((((SAZZY))))))))))))))))))))))))))))Thank you so much for this,it is so beatiful,I love it.I love your art work.I think I am going to head to bed in a bit.Dont know why,but,I am feeling so stiff right now,my neck,back,my one shoulder and my left hand with my bad shoulder is killing me.I sure hope I dont have to go back to the doctors and tell them I am hurting.I hate pain.I am sure everyone else out there doesnt like to be in pain either.I know I have alot of changes I need to be done in my life,like my eating habits,among other things in my life,but,I guess we have things in our lives want to change.Oh yeah,there a sevral more journals I want to add to my side bar,so,I am not done yet.lol.I hope you all have a good night.I want to get off of here and get some sleep.If one of my neices and nephews was here,I would have them walk all over my back,thats what I used to do and from what I was told,isnt a good thing to do,but,it helps make it better at the time.lol.Be Safe out there!!!

I cheated also.lol.Happy Birthday J-land!!!

 

Hi all,I am lazy as well and wanted to help and spread the word around too J-lands Bday comming up.So lets get ready!!!!Sorry,I had to copy and paste it,like I said,I am lazy to.lol.I just wanted to let you all know,you all did an AWSOME job.I love you J-land!!!Sorry,Sazzy,I copyed it from you.lol.

 

JLand Birthday Party Update:

( I am going to cheat here and copy and paste Krissy's links since she did such a good job and I am lazy:) 

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On August 21st we will celebrate the 3rd Anniversary of AOL Journals.  This is our chance, you all, to make this happening what we want it to be.  Much has happened this year.  Some ups, some downs.  While some things will never be the same, let us take time to celebrate.  Let us not let this anniversary go by without marking it in a meaningful way. 

For the 3 Year Celebration of AOL Journals, there are already a lot of activities planned and underway.  If you want to keep abreast of these, please put Nwanyioma's Journal on alerts. 

Journalseditor Joe has made us an AOL Journals 3-Year Anniversary badge to put in our All About Me Section. 

D, from This and that, and hockey! has created many outstanding graphics for us to put in our journal, to help us celebrate.  She is also doing a CONTEST for what will be the official 3rd year tag.  It is beautiful and features a lighthouse.  Scoot over to her journal and submit a caption that you would like to see on the lighthouse graphic, and yours just might be selected!

Stevietwain is doing a J~Land 3rd Anniversary Tribute Video.  Hop over to his journal to find out what you need to do to be part of a video he is putting together of J-Landers.  It's simple, just submit a photo.  Well, go on over, he'll explain it to you.

Shelly of XXRoxyMamaXX is doing a Memorial Quilt.  You can submit names of your loved ones and friends.

Sugar is doing a Pet Memorial Page for those who have lost a pet in the past three years.

We will, of course, have a chat on August 21st.  More details to follow.

If you would like, please announce this information in your journal.  

Now let's go make this an Anniversary to remember!

Krissy :)  Sometimes I Think < < < - - Clicky

I knew I would finally get it right.WooooooooHoooooooooooooo

Hi everyone,

            Hope you all are having a good moring,I am so beside myself,I finally got it right,thanks to everyone who was helping my figure out my side bar.lol.I knew if I took some time,I would get there and I did,so,you all can take a look at my side bar,but,its not done yet.My hands are getting tired,and when I do alot of typing and stuff,my shoulder starts hurting.But I am really proud of myself,knowin I got it done.THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR HELPING ME.I am very pleased.lol.But theres another thing,not puter stuff thoe,I bought my neice Emily something for Her bday and She already has it.lol.Uggggggggg.Its a book,She loves to read,and She lives in London,so,we have to make it kind small.So,maybe,I can get another book or something,dont know yet.I can probllay get Her another book and give this one to someone for a bday or Christmas.Yes,belive it or not.I am already starting Christmas.I know you all dont want to hear that.lol.But I have alot of people to get for.I want to be done.So,anywanys,hope you all have a great day.I will be back on later.I was frustated last night,but,I am feeling better now.I think I finally got the right medicine that works for me.I slept really good last night.lol.Peaceout.

You can say,I am angry,mad,frustated,mad at the world right now.

Okay,can you say I am frustated?Yes,I am.I cannot belive,that a bill colecter would 7:30 in the evening,and I had to answer the phone,of course it was for me.I dont recall reciving anything in the mail for 80 something dollars from a doctor that I will not go back to.My brothers wife works for a billing company,and my Mom knew it was from them,from Haggerstown Maryland.Go figure.I am sorry,I wasnt ver nice to them.I am trying really hard getting my doctor bills payed off.They were actullay demanding me that I pay it.I told them,I will see what I can,than,I said,have a ncie day and hung up the phone even before they could say anything.That is so rude for one thing calling in the evening.they was like,well,can you send at least 20 dollars a week or so?Uggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!Another frustating thing I have to deal with.I am trying,trying really hard to pay my bills off.What are they going to do if you dont pay them?Send me to jail?Well,they can just go right ahead and send me to jail.lol.I cant take it anymore,I am angry and mad.Mad that baiscally they called like that,in the evening,right when your trying to settle down and relax.I know,tonight,I will be taking something to help me sleep.I actullay am hurtting all over,my shoulders and my back.My Mom told me not to worry about it,but,you know me,I am always worrying about something.Right now,I just dont even feel like being me,dont want to be here,wish I was somewere on a deserted island all by myself.Sorry,I am just venting some.Does this happend to any of you?What do you do about it?All I ever seem to get is bills,doctor bills in the mail.When I try and seem like I am getting something done,BOOM,somehting happends again.I NEED SOME CHOCLATE.Any advice on what I should do?I know my Mom got a bill from when She was in the hosiptal,and they called Her and She told them,go ahead and send it to the bill colecters.lol.I am Frustated,my head hurts,my whole body hurts,feel like I want to cry and no its not that time of month.lol.I just dont know what to do anymore.Anyways,I am going to get off of here,maybe go take a hot shower or something to kool me off.Sorry for venting.lol.Have a good night all.I do love you all so much.Peaceout.                                       

Post card game

Hi again,its me,lol.

                          One more thing I wanted to mention,I am in the post card game,just started it,so,anyone out there,I would love to send out post cards and get post cards as well.thanks guys.Have a great day.I am all tuckered out,think I am going to rest now.

Happy 3Rd Year J-landers!!!!Keep up the good work!!!

                                     Hi all of you J-landers,just wanted to post an antry of our anniversary of Aol Journals.This is such a great thing that is going around in J-land.So much fun stuff.I am proud to be part of J-land,I never thought it would get this far,and you all are probllay thinking the same thing.It is such a great place to be.Keeps you buys to.lol.I wanted to say thanks to this,that and hockey for all the wonderful grafics,I snaged a few.I lvoe this one,reminds me of my brother and His family who live in London,they are missonarys over there.But there is so much going on,since I am still new at this,dont know how to add links and stuff to my journal and still having a hard time with my side bar.lol.But if you go and visit some of the Journals who are doing a bunch of things for our 3rd year Annversary part.So much is going on.They all need your help on passing the word around.Visit, A little bit of Sugar,This,that and hokey,RoxyMoma,Shelly,Cabs Creations,so many other J-landers are doing a bunch things to get this party going.We all need your help.Spread the word.You Rock J-land!!!!

Tired

I did a boo boo on my entry,will fix it later.lol.I am tired.Love yal.

I said a mouthfull.lol.Guess I had alot to say.lol.

                                

 

Hi all,

     hope you all had a good weekend and will have a great week ahead.I dont know what to do with myself now that I have alot of time on my hands.lol.Wasnt there a song called that,time on my hands?lol.I think I found a color I likein my journal,hope it isnt to brite for anyone.I still think of this question alot,try to grasp the meaning of it.Whats the meaning of life?Can I actullay say,is there really a God out there?I mean,I know there is,but,sometimes,probllay alot,I doubt.But I am a beliver and want to belive He is there.Is that stupid of me to ask that?How do you have faith in beliving,when there so much crime and hate,not enough love and caring and sharing in this world.What is God trying to tell us?I know,Hes trying to tell us something,that Hes comming soon and wants us to be ready.I have to admit,I am not near ready.How do I get ready?How do I stand up for

 

                                                                   

 

      myself,stop being afarid,do what I   need to do for myself.I know that God has been in my heart,He always has and always will be.I know Hes trying to reach to me.He knows the kind of person I am,sometimes,I think,bla.lol.I dont want to be that person at times.My family is a christian family,except for my Dad,He doesnt know the Lord,but,the rest of my family,they love the Lord.I have a family in London who are missionarys,that was my brothers calling to take His family and preach over there,preach to the people in London,and I know that isnt easy.Sometimes,they give my brother a hard time,but,my brother isnt going to stop preaching for what He loves.he is my oldest brother,who has 4 kids and one on the way.Back here in Maryland,I have a sister and Her family who loves the Lord,goes to church,my sister does so much for the kids in Her class and the kids dont have much.I admire my sister,not just beacuse of thar,but becauseof the person She is.She has a heart of gold.Shes a good mom,I know Shes a good wife and a good sister.She has 3 kids,little rugrats,but there good kids.I have a another brother,Jeff and Tj His wife,Hes a hard working man,does so much for His family,Hes a good brother,they have 4 kids.Thats why I tell myself,I dont need any kids,I have enough neices and nephews to go around.lol.Belive me,I am already starting christmas shoping,yes,I said the word.lol.Christmas.lol.I already want snow.lol.I love snow.lol.I want a big snow storm,but,have to make sure,I have all my needs first.lol.Anyways,to get back to my family.I have a couisn who has lived with us ever since He was a baby,so,He is more like a brother to me than a couisn.I dont think of Him as a couisn,I think of Him as a brother,Allen and Stacie have 3 kids.And so it is,just me.lol.I am the only one left,no kids.I am the aunt.lol.But I love being the aunt.I love my neices and nephews.My neices and nephews have so much love and laughter in them,they never see the bad in this world,why is that?Just sitting here,trying what else I could say.lol.maybe thats why my shoulder is hurting alot,because,I am typing so much.I think I will put some bengay on my shoulder before I go to bed.lol.I know it smells,but,its good.I never thought my journal would end up like this,I am so glad I didnt delet this,because it does actullay help me to get my feelings out and clear my mind.I lvoe being in J-land,who ever came up with the idea of J-land,I congrat you.  I got a question for yal,does the journal ever stop,or does keep on going,if you all know what I mean?I have alot of questions.lol.When do you know the right time to get up out there and start living?Belive me,I am blessed to have so much goodness in my life,I am greatful for what I have,I love my God and want to know Him more,hope that doesnt sound stupid.I am greatful for my family,my friends,my boyfriend,my job,my health,this house I live in,a roof over my head,the food we eat,the water we drink,coffee,soda,all the good things in life we sometimes take for granted,I am greatful.Thank you Lord for opening my eyes to see you and what you have to offer me.I love you Lord and and everything in this world.Wow,I said a mouthfull.Sorry I guess I had alot to say.And my hands are getting tired,so,I am going to head off of here.lol.I love you all so much and thank you all for being the wonderful persons you are.God bless you all.Peaceout.

Dont know what to do.

Dang it,dont you wish you can dream all your problems away?lol.Well,maybe this isnt much of a problem.MAybe God has somehting better for me to do.But I havent been much faithful to Him to know what that is.

        I had my entry all done and aol had to shut me down for a munite.What else can go worng.lol.Which I am depressed about my job.They been cutting hours big time,but the thing I dont get is,that I have been there longer than alot of part timemrs in there and they have a few more hours than I do,just because,I cant do certian things.That just makes me mad.And my boss telling me I cant be alone by myself,I been alone by myself plenty of times.I dont know what to do.She is a nice lady,but I feel She dont give me credit for what I can do.Or She cant see what I can do.But if this keeps going on,I will just have to go above Her and talk to head manager.It is just upsetting and making me upset and they will see how upset I am when I go in tommrow and look at my hours.I just dont know what to do,I am at a loss.Theres a part timmer,She has been there long enough either and She gets way more hours than I do and She doesnt even get half of Her job done.I am just a little mad right now.Well,thats enough about that.If you all have any advice,would be greatful.Thanks and have a nice weekend.