I just dont know anymore

Hi all,its me,hehe,havent been here for a few days,so,thought I would drop a line and say hi and talk about a little bit of whats going on in my life.I am doing some what better,no all there yet.I just cant seem to grasp the menaing of life,you know?I am sure you all have been there.I just want to have fun,be happy,share good things with other people.But just dont know how to do that.I want to stop feeling so depressed all the time,actullay,I been feeling good about that lately.Just thoes dag on fears keep getting the best of me and I ahve so many worries.Bills,how to keep them up,which they are just doctor bills.I am trying and wanting to learn how to be more responsability.But how?And how do you just stop feeling so stressed out.I just dont get it.Would love some feed back,some info,would love to hear what you al have to say about your life,about getting rid of stress,about how to live happy,and be you,be the person you need to be.Because,I want that,more than anything.Just dont really know how to get it all out there.I see people out there in the world,I look at them,some are sad,but alot of em,I see with smily faces.How do they do that?How do they keep it up?I want so much for me in my life,feel like I am running out of time.Anywyas,I better end this,because,I need to get off of here and get a few things done.I have to go to owrk early tommrow moring at 6,good thing about itis,only have 4 hours,not that I dont like hours being cut.lol.I wish there was another way I can do a side job at home,butprobllay not.Only thing I can come up with is making beaded jewrley,I love to do that on my spare time.I hope you all have a blessed weekend and a safe one.Peaceout.Blessings to all.Love you all.