I am thinking I am going to go back to bed.LOL.

Good moring all,

Hope you all had a good nighht sleep.I didnt sleep to good and didnt wake up to good either.LOL.the dang phone kept on ringing and ringing and I wouldnt answer it.I looked at it to see if it was work and it wasnt,so,I didnt answer it.It was my Brother from London,who is visiting,well,on Ferlough.He wll be going back sometime next year.

I am so tired,feel like going back to bed and I am thinking maybe I will.LOL.I am in a little pain right now with my hands.They are sore.Maybe to much typing,along with working.I been closing all this week,I am a little tired of it.I know,I shouldnt be complaing,because I have the hours and I am glad.I have 34 hours this week,whch is good.I am glad.

Garys Bday is Monday and I know what I am going to get Him,He needs a cell phone sooooo bad.I guess I am a little cranky this moring,boyfriend called me,I usllay calll before 10 and I woke up about 10 and He called and I was cranky and so was He.LOL.He drives me nuts sometiems.LOL.I said somethiing to Him last night and He got senative and I said I was sorry and I dont think He liked that very much.He will get over it.He knows I love Him and I told Him that.anyways,I am soooooooooo ready for a vaction,away from this place and work.I need o have some fun.LOL.what is that????Anyways,I am going to get off of here and get a few things done.Fri and sat,I work from 8 to 4.Long day.I am going to take mt meds to help my hands.I hope you all have a nice day.be safe and kool out there.Its going to be a hot one.Peaceout.

Be back later.

I will have to come back and add an image later.

Hi all,

       Hope all is having a good after noon.I have to get off of here soon,get ready for work.I am on my Dads puter,seems I am having trouble getting on my Laptop,hope I will be able to get on it tonight.Dads puter is sooooooooooo slow.LOL.I wrote an entry this moring and I had it already set,even posted it,but,thought about it,so,I deleted it.I didnt want anything comming out from it.I dont need the headaches.LOL.Anyways,I need some help guys.My Sis will be painting my room for my bday which was May 13,She wanted to wait till Homeschooling os over with.She told me to think of a color for my room and I cant make my mind up.I would love to go with Hot Pink,but,cant.LOL.As you can tell my fave color is pink.Sis says I have a very dark and hot room and I do,so,it needs to be a light color,that will look good.Than I will dress it up with pics and stuff and get new curtians and for my bathroom to.So,if you all have any ideass,let me know.She said,something more like a light cream color.But I dont want no white.I cant stand white colors.LOL.I am kinda looking forward to Summer,I want to,as I want to do new and exciting thigns.I am going to get the kids a pool,as I always do,but,will,maybe wait,not sure.Because my Boyfriends Bday is this Monday,He will turn the Big 50,Hes not looking forward to it.LOL.Poor thing,He doesnt even look like,yes,on a bda day He does.Anyways,I will catch up you guys later this evening and hoping my puter works.it does that now and than.Bummer.Stay safe and Kool out there.Peaceout.

Photo Scavenger Hunt #110

Ok,here is my Photo Scavenger Hunt #110,

Something you want your Spouce or Children to get rid of.

Well,let me just say,I am not married,I do have a boyfriend,but,I still live at home and let me tell you there are so many,many things I would love for my Dad to get rid of.I would love to take pics of each and every empty room that has something in it and show you,but,I wont,you can just imagin it yourself.To embarssing to show you all.LOL.There are 4 bedrooms,one I am in and 3 empty ones.3 empty ones that have so much junk that my Sister and Brothers,who they are married to also,love to leave unwanted stuff at the house.I can sit here and tell you,at one time,I was trying to clean out every room in the house,but,it is just to much.Now,I dont know if this is the right Hunt you wanted to talk about.But,I am not done yet.LOL.My Mom,She would just love to throw this house away and put it all back togehter.This is a nice house,but we are not a pack rack.LOL.So many things downstairs,would love to just throw away.Dad has old news papers,I mean old,that just pile up.There is a door in the toy room that has never been put up,wouldnt even know were it would go now.LOL.It would be easy just to move and get a smaller house,that is what my Mom wants and I,well,if I dont get married.LOL.But this house is so big,to big for my Mom to handel,to much for Her to handel to even walk upstairs.But this is the house I was raised in.Anyway,I am getting ahead of myself.Now,for my room,oh boy,there so many stuff I would lvoe to get rid of,I am a pack rack to,I love to keep everything.Funny,even letters from highschool.I keep it all.I love to get rid of this old curtian that has been in this room since the age of dawn.LOL.Well,since my Sister has lived in this room when She was younger.I know,can you say,that is bad?LOL.I would love to paint this room,well actullay,that is going to happend,that is my bday presant from my Sister,when She is done home schooling Her kids,She is going to paint my room and I am getting new curtains.I dont know if this was the best subject,but,there you have it.So many things I would love to get rid of,that my MOm would love to get rid of.So manys things that also need to be done.But enough said.LOL.Hope you enjoyed my Entry.Have a nice Holiday weekend all.

Happy Memorial Weekend To All!!!!!!!!

I want to wish you all a very Happy Memorial weekend and I also want to say thank you to all of our troops out there fighting our country,not just in Irqu,but all around our world.GOd bless you all.We all want you to know we are all praying for your saftey and to return home to your familys.

I also want to say a big thank you to all of our past wars,War would 1 and 2 and to so many of our wars tha I havent mentioned,we need to say a big thank you to thoes who also have fought for our lives.

They all had to give up so much to fight for us,they had to leave there familys,friends.Some didnt come back,some did.We cant let this go un notice.Its not just a Holiday to us,its a Holiday to remember our Soliders.to the Soliders in the past wars till now.I want to thank you,thank you for saving us,thank you for fighting for us.

Let us not also forget out fallen Heros today for September 9/11,we all know we will never forget what happend that terrible day.Let us say thank you to them for giving up there lives.The familys out there who lost so  many loved ones.Let this be a time to say a prayer for them,to thank them for what they have done.To all of our Heros,from the past to the presant.we all love you for what you have done for this country and for us.God Bless You All!!!

                         

It feels good to vent.LOL.

Hi peeps,whats up?

Nothing much here,so much I want to say,just dont know were to start.But first let me tell you,uggggggg,I was sick as a dog today when I got home from my bday dinner from Outback.I dont think Outback made me sick,it was that time of month,but,let me just tell,you,I felt sick,I threw up and been in the bathroom.I dont want to eat anything.Good thing I am off tommrow.If they call me and ask me to work,I will say ummmmmm no!!!!!!!!!!LOL.

 

Before I start talking about some fuming stuff,let me just tell you,my Boss is a really nice Boss,I like Her alot and I hope She doesnt leave,She is fair and She knows whats going on,if you know what I mean.She actullay sees that I am a good worker.I think my old Boss Eva might have talked to Her,not sure thoe.Anyways.I want to start talking about some things and I just dont know how.But,I will just start.

I just dont get it,people in our own family,Brothers and SIsters,well,this time,I am talking about my Brother and if they read this or someone reads this and tells someone else,so be it.This is my journal and its about time I get some feelings that I need to let out.He is my Brother,I love Him,I wont get into all the details.Ok,I think my Mom called Him or He called Her,not sure,but,they was talking and my Brother asked if He got the message that my nephew was graduating,not even kindergarting.I know its special and everything,but,let me tell you something,when have they EVER I MEAN EVER BEEN THERE FOR THIS FAMILY?Ask me that?The Graduating is on Wed nights,church night,and they would like Mom to go,they never call,they never come to visit,only if they want something.He gets mad because it is church night.He tells my Mom that the church is a cult.What a joke.He is just mad,He is just mad at this family,I honestly dont know why.Yeah,I am fuming mad,mad about alot of things.I love Him,dont get me worng.

Things have changed when He got married,but thats another story.He doesnt resecpt my Mother,He thinks we are never there for Him,but what about Him?He is never there for us.I cant belive I am actullay going to say this,but,you know,in a way,I dont think I could ever count on Him being there for me if I ever needed Him.sad to say,yes.I know someone reads my journal and tells someone else,gets me into trouble.Well,you know what,I dont care anymore.I been in so much trouble with the family,it doesnt even matter anymore.It doesnt matter what they think of me.I am this bad,bad,witch of a person,who only thinks of themselfs.But let me tell you something,He is my Brother,familys come first before anyone else!!!!!!Family stands by family,no matter.Thats how it should be.I am crying inside because know one knows how I am feeling.Missing the Brother I once knew.I know I am not perfect,I never tended to be.I made mistakes.

I wish things were diffrent,I wish this family,this whole family of ours,would be a family,togetherness,isnt that what famils is all about?I am getting ahead of myself.You know what I would like?I would like for this family to be a family,yeah,we all have our problems,but cant we just set aside all that stuff and be a family?A family who cares,once in a while,give a call,reach out to one another.I know I may have not tryed my best and done my part.But I love my family,my Brother,I love you,I love my Sister N law,I love my neices and nephews.It just makes me angry.It hurts.I just dont get it.I may have hurt you and I am sorry for all the hurt and pain I have cause,but,I have been hurt to and you dont know.Sometimes I would just love to pick the phone up and say hey,not by an email.

I know there has been alot of hurt,but,I think its time that we have to let some of this hurt go.I dont know what else to say,is that I am sorry for everything and anything that I have done.But I want you to know,I love you all so much,I am not just saying this to say this,I am saying it because I want to say it.Its been along time comming.I want my Sister N law to know that I love you and have always loved you.I guess thats all I have to say for now.But before I go,let me just tell you,that I have been doing laundry up to my ears.LOL.I cant belive I had so much laundry.UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG.LOL.I hope you all have a nice weekend.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.One more thing.I think the 7th Heaven graffics is perfect for this entry.LOL.

Today is thursday?Yes it is.LOL.

Good day all,

I hope you all are having a good one.I am having a better one than I did yesterday.I am so glad I am off tommrow and Sat.Unless,they call me in,but,they have to at least give me one day off,because I havent had a day off yet.I was so frustated yesterday from work,among other things.You know how when one thing sets  you off,other things set you off to.There is this one co worker at work,She gets one my last nerve so bad,I cant stand it.Than She is so lazy!!!!!!!!Just because She has 8 hours everyday,she think She is Boss,but She aint.

I have known Her for years.She is so fake and everyoone knows it.She comes in at 8 in the moring,She has to stop and talk to everyone up front before She comes back to the bakery,its like 15,20 munites before She starts working.But thats not the thing that sets me off.Yesterday I was saying I was off the weekend,they was all complaining how I always get off the weekend,I dont ask for it,Boss gives it to me.Than,the fake one says,I can put you on for the weekend,I didnt say anything,because,She was just trying to egg me on like She always does.She is so fake I cant stand it.She doesnt want to do anything.We part timmers,we come in,we only get 4 hours to do it all,my Boss called the other day when the fake one had left.

Well,my Boss was asking me what She had left me to do,I told Her,and She said She said that the fake one was susposed to do the cookies,prep and the muffins,I said She had me do it all.I did what I could,because,I had to close.She is so nerve wrecking.She acts like the Boss,if She wants to be the Boss,well,than be the Boss,but when that happends,let me tell you,I will transfer.LOL.I will not work for that lady.I wont.But She will never become Boss.

I was frustated,than when I get like that kinda messes up my day,She can get to me,I didnt let Her think that,but,when I left work,I wasnt happy.She would a long time ago get me upset alot and I would actullay cry about it,but,now,I am some better about it.LOL.She is so loud and just so fake,you dont want to be around Her!!!!!She just drives you nuts and everyone knows it,even the Boss,but,I think the Boss doesnt know how to handel it.When Christmas rolls around the corner,everyone has something for everyone,but,She doesnt give anyone anything.My other co worker gave Her something really nice and it was new,it was for Her baby and She didnt give Her anything.Just sad.I didnt think people were like that.

But enough about that,I came home last night,kinda stressed out,so,I started cleaning my room,which it needed to be done and sill more to do.But its getting there.I need to finish some laundry.I still find ants,not alot,but one just crawled on me and I hate ants!!!!!!!!!I cant stand them,but,I rather have them than roaches.Ack.I was going to do an anetry last night,but,I got tired and fell alseep.LOL.I go into work today,go in at 4,and I see the fake one.LOL.I am so glad She leaves at 4,right when I come in.LOL.But let me tell you,I am not answering the phone tommrow or Sat.LOL.Maybe I will work tommrow,if its early,but not Sat.I cant even remember when I last had my day off.LOL.Gary and I are going to try and go to Outback tommrow night for my bday,which was May 13.We been trying to go,but,we just been working diffrent hours.So,I hope we get to go tommrow.Anyways,I am better today,feeling pretty good.I do have to say one thing thoe,this fake lady,She always wants the muffins done early,they have to be done,because they bake about 2 hours.She doesnt want to do them.UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG,Sorry I had to do that.LOL.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and kool out there.Its nice,but it gets warm at night.Peaceout.

Whats new?You find out.LOL.

Hi all,

I hope you all are having a nice day,thought I would do something diffrent,add all the shows and movies I love to watch,specillay this one.If you havent seen it,its a good one.I know,here I am at the age of 35 and I watch Dizney movies,who doesnt?LOL.Thats why my neice,She calls me a teen,I am not old,I am a teen.LOL.But alot of times,I feel I am old.LOL.I am doing good here,even thoe I have issues,but,who doesnt?LOL.

I have been stressing out alot,but,I am trying to do my best and not worry about things.I am trying to get my life in order,get my bills down.I mean I dont have alot,just 2 I really need to get down.One bill,I am not crazy about,which already sent into thoes agent collection.I just sent out 20 dollars to them.What can they do to me?Put me in jail?LOL.Or take me to court?Its a large bill,they wanted 78 dollars up front and I just cant do that,told them I would sent out 20 every Friday when I get paid.She wasnt happy about it,but,like I said,what can they do?I am driving myself nuts.LOL.

I never let my guard down,what is fun?How do you do that?without worrying about thi and that.Oh well.Work is going good,even thoe some people get on my nerves and you all know how that goes.They think its all in my head,all my aches and pains I have,how dare them say that,they dont know my,just like some of my family members,they think they know me,but they dont.Can you tell I am stressed?Thats probllay why I havent written in a few days.I just been stressed and need to vent.No,I need to get away!!!!!!!

I havent been feeling to good lately with my stomach acting up,I think its acid reflux,really bad acid reflux.So much I want to say,but,I will do another entry probllay tommrow.I know there are so many people out there that are hurting,worse off than I am.But,sometimes I feel so alone that no one understands what I am going through.Even thoe I have a good boyfriend,I still feel alone.I have aches and pains that no one thinks I have,its all in my head.I DONT THINK SO!!!!!!!!Anyways,I am getting ahead of myself,so,I am going to stop here.I hope you all are having a nice day.It is really nice out.I am hoping my Brother from London comes to visit this weekend with my Sister N law and the kids,I would love to get pics and show you all.My Big Brother says He is going to set up the swing set that my Mom got at K-Mart.Anyways,I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

 

Fridays Happenings.

Hi all,

I hope you all are having a gppd weekend.I am doing ok here.I been working alot of hours lately,which is good,but,I am tired and I miss my boyfriend soooooooooo much,we havent seen eachother in a very long time.Well,since last week,like Monday.LOL.

I been having some problems eating,everytime I eat,it would get stuck right in the middle of my throat,than I would get sick,I have had this problem before.I had it checked out before and I probllay need to get my,I dont know how to spell the word,esphgous,I think I need to get it stretched out.Because I dont like the feeling of everytime I am eating I get sick,even when I go out.

It worrys me,but,if it gets worse,I will go to the doctor.I think thats why I dont eat at work,sometimes I do,but,only a little bit.My co worker says I need to eat,I wpuld take my moring pills and wont eat anything,She tells me that is not good and I know that.I have so much going on right now its not even funny.I worry to much.I never find the time to just have fun and I dont know what that is anymore.I used to have fun,I used to laugh,I didnt worry as much.Do you do that when you get older?LOL.Anyway,I dp need to get off of here and get ready for bed soon.I have to be at work at 7 in the moring,I am still not used to theeses hours,but,I like being early and not late.LOL.I wanted to add theeses pics of the Girlmore girls,I am really going to miss the show,I am sad to see it go.Farewell,Girlmore Girls.I hope you all have a nice weekend.Be safe and Kool out there.Peaceout.

         

Wed Happenings.

Hi all,

Beore I start,I just want to add,I checked out the new side of aol journals and dont like it,when I go to add an image,it doesnt come out right,so,I am sticking to my old route.LOL.

I hope you all are having a nice day.Its ok here,just been doing a bunch of nothing today.I just havent felt like doing anything.I been in my pjs,if you call sweat pants and a shirt,pjs.LOL.I been so tired,not used to having so many hours.Dont get my worng,I love the hours,I do.I like the new Boss,She is nice.I dont know why our last Boss didnt give me any hours like this one.Buts its good thing,I can finally get some things done.LOL.

I so wish I was there in that pic right now.Watching the ocean and putting my feet in the sand.I feel like right now,I have been in a rut and cant seem to get out of it.I feel kinda down because,knowing my Sister N law didnt even send me a bday card or even email me and wished me Happy Bday,She usllay does and this year She didnt.It does upset me,She was my bestfriend in Highschool.

I guess some people change,but there a long story behind that,including some members in my family.She is married to my brother,they sould stand by me and not other people in my family,which hurts me.They think I am a bad person and I am not.I had a nice bday which was on Mothers Day.It was nice,but some people did forget to wish me a happy bday,I am not talking about my J-landers.Even my oldest brother didnt wish me a happy bday,along with my other brother with my Sister N law.I feel like when Her bday comes around,feel like doing the same thing.I always send Her a card,even a little presant.I am hurt but I guess you have to let it go.Well,I need to get off of here and get some things done.I hope you all have a nice day and will talk with you all later.Be safe and Kool out there.By the way,were heaed in for some bad storms.Peaceout.

 

What day is this?LOL.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I havent gotton my program started yet,havent even installed it.So give me some time.Have a good night all.

I got my program.

I choose the above graffic because I just got my proogram and will take me some time to get use to it and down loading the dicks.What have I gotton myselef into?LOL.

Hi all,

I hope you all is having a good day.I am having a good one so far.How ever,I am tired,I feel like just going to bed early tonight.Its such a nice day out.I want to let everyone know that Gary and I went to Bestbuy,I bought a program called Cosmi,Print Shop,which has everything,disck that I have to down laod.

I hope I know what I am doing.Not sure when I will do all of this,right now,I am so tired,I just want to sleep.Maybe I will find some time tonight or tommrow.This will be my first time down loading things like this on my Laptop.So,if anyone has any ideas,let me know.Have a nice evneing all.Be safe/kool.Peaceout.

Sunday night.

Hi all,

I hope all you Moms out there and Grandmas had an Awsome Mothers Day today.You all deserve it!!!!Now onto some questions before I fall alseep and forget to write this entry out.LOL.I must be so tired,my eyes are about to go.LOL.Anywas,I cant belive I am actulay going to get Psp,paint pro shop for my Bday.Gary said I could get it and a few other things to.So,I want to get Psp.But I want to know is,whats the best program to get?I know Nightmere Mom told me to ask if they have Aniamtion in it,is that the graffics?I dont know anything about it and would like to get some info.I am getting it tommrow and I cant wait.I will be using my Laptop,do I have to install it?Is it hard to install?So thats all I wanted to ask.Thanks s much guys.I want to get Psp and learn how to use graffics.I am going to Bestbuy.But if you think I should get it some were eles,let me know.I do now have to get off of here before I fall alseep at the puter.I hope you have a god week ahead.Be safe/kool.Peaceout.

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Happy Mothers Day to all the Moms.

I just want to wish all you Mothers out there and my Mom to a very Happy Mothers Day.I hope its a special day to remember forever.Spoil your Moms,let them know you love them.

Sat Happenings.

Good moring all,

I hope all is doing well.I hope everyone is having a good weekend.Nothing much going on here.I have to work today,8 hours.Its nice I am getting more hours.I belive next week,I only have one day off till Sat.LOL.I am just not used to it.I been trying to do some knee excerise to better help my knee.I also been using Icy/hot knee slip ons and ben gay at night.Seems like some of the swelling has gone down.But I havent been doing much of going out after work,just resting.What fun.LOL.

I was searching through the web and found some good pics of Dawson Creek,I loved that show so much,even thoe it went off the air and so is the Girlmore Girls.All the good shows going off.But enough about that.Even thoe its Mothers Day tommrow,it is also my Bday.Ack,I will  be 35,I am getting old.LOL.But I relize,I want to start changing some life styles.I want to start eating better and try to drink less Sodas.LOL.Knowing it wont be easy.LOL.

Anyways,I better get off of here and get cleaned up.I hope you all have a nice weekend.Be safe and Kool out there.Peaceout.

I love that smile.