Monday evening happenings.

Hi all,

I just wanted to pop in for a little bit,before I have to go to bed.I have to be at work at 5 in the moring.Not looking forward to it.But I am needed.LOL.Thank you all for your kind,caring encouring words you left me in my entry yesterday.even thoe it happend again today,but,I was ok.I am still thinking if I should make an app to see my therepyst again,dont know yet.I am thinking yes,what do you think?My Mom just told me that we are having inspection in our house,so,that means we have to have everything cleaned and everything running right,like fire alrms,ect.

So,we have alot do around the house,we have to get rid of alot of sutff,so,maybe this house will finally get cleane dout.LOL.Anyways,I hope you all have a good night.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Sunday happenings.

Hi all,

I hope you all are having a good day.I am doing better.I could use a few days off.But as usllay work needs me.I guess thats a good thing.Yesterday at work,I had a little scare and I was so glad my co worker was there with me.I was chocking on my food and stoped breathing.So,She came over and pushed on my stomach.I was ok.That has happend once before.Other than that,I am doing ok.This moring I thought I was going to be late to work,but I wasnt.Something woke me up at 5:15,jumped up,cleaned myself up and got ready for boyfriend to pick me up for work.Do you all think I need a break?LOL.

We had a family gathering yesterday at the house,it was nice,but I was so tired from work hung around a while than I came up stairs and just relax,which I am doing right now and i am going to take a little nap as I get off of here.I am sorry lately that my entrys have been so depressing.Thank you all for ebing there for me.I know who my friends are.I love you guys.Have a nice week ahead.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

I found this and started to read it and read it over again and this is how I feel.

Mondays Happenings.

Good evening all.

I hope you all are having a good one.I am doing good here,I been feeling some better,not a whole lot,just starting to feeling better.Still have some things on my mind.I am thinking maybe I should start seeing my therepyst again,dont know,havent seen Him for a few months now and thought I could handle things on my own,but,dont think I can.I am taking somehting that my reg Doc gave me,which is helping,but,I dont have anything to help me sleep.That is not good.With my Arthitis.So,I think I am going to leave a message tonight to make an app.

I havent been mysef for some time now,the last few days,I have been sick,I was really out of it yesterday,thank goodness I was off of work and didnt do anything,I was going to go out with Boyfriend,but,I didnt go.All I did,was stay in bed and didnt get up till I went to work this moring.I feel I have so much stress from worrying about everything and I dont know why.LOL.But I can feel it.

I havent even done anything really fin this summer,have to be honest with you on that.I been feeling really out of it,like in a rut.So,I think I am going to give them a call,but,I feel thoe as I need a new Thereapyst to talk to,the one I had before,wasnt doing any good for me at all.So we will see.I have been cracking my jaw alot more.I have been working so many hours,whish is good.But,maybe we will see about taking a few days off in the next few months.Today is actullay the first real day I started to feel good and not so tired.Maybe it was all that sleep I had yesterday.But I still need to think about giving them a call.Dont know what I should do?Well,I need to get off of here and get a few things done.I hope you all have a good evening.Be safe and kool out there.Today is really nice to,not hot at all.

Gods cake

 

Gods Cake 

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake." "Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter. "How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!" To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen.   He can live anywhere in the universe,   and He chose your heart. If you like this, send this on to the people you really care about. I did!!!

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doing some better todau

Hi everyone,

I hope you all had a good night sleep.I am feeling some better today,still in pain,yes,but,not in so much stress as I was.I am so thankful to have so many caring friends who care and have been praying for me and thinking of me.I just want you all to know,how much you all mean to me.

I am over the sitution at work,I am just going to let my boss handel it.She is handleing it.My Medicine is helping,but for some reason,I wake up with a head ache every moring.Good thing I see my Doc tommrow.How ever,I did call Her again this moring,tell let Her know,I was still in so much pain.I feel like I can hardly walk,get out of bed.I know it probllay has to do alot with my Arthitis.

I am off today,but still doesnt feel like mch of a day off.I know,I need to have some fun in my life.LOL.As soon as I get some things done around here,maybe I will take 2 days off.We will see.Right now,I am going to get off of here and get a few things done.I need to clean my room.LOL.It needs to be tending to.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and kool out there.I shall be back later.Peaceout.

All I want to do is just cry,because I hurt.

Good night all,

I am going to try and get some sleep.Today did go better at work,one thing,I would like to say,I did mean to call Him a stupid dumb asst manager,but,not a stupid dumb,you know.LOL.I did still take my med in the evening,but at 6:30 instead of 8,I think maybe that could be one of the reasons why I took it so late at night.If I seem a little off,its because I am in so much pain all over my body.I hurt from my head to my toe and I am tired.I am going to call my Doc first thing at 9 in the moring.I am just hoping maybe they can give me something till I see them on Wed.My toes,feet,ankels,my back and hands hurtsI feel like I am a whole big mess and I dont know what to do.I am kinda afarid to call the Doc,but,I need to,dont know why I am afarid,but,I dont care I have to call.Goood night all.

You dont even wan t to know.

I diecided to use this graffic and put it up front instad of at the end,it fits me tonight,because I am not a happy camper!!!!!!!!!

Ok,let me just tell you all,I had the worst night at work ever!!!!!!It wasnt even my falt and I got the blame for it,I cryed and cryed right in front of the stupid Ass Manager of the stoor,He should have never talked to me like that and let me tell you,I have half  my mind to say something to the Union rep tommrow,if I see one of them.He was so rude to me,He knew it,because He came back to me,a couple hours later,asking if I was ok and I didnt say anything,just nodded and went and did my work,It was a bread platter,someone took an order and someone else was susposed to do it.There was no bread platter.I called the Manager back to the bakery and He had a very nasty attiude like I was susposed to know were everything is,even thoe I have been working there for almost 8 years,He kept going on and on and on and I just kept getting more upset.I couldnt belive it,well,yes I can.Hes been having complants by other people who work there.Just because He thins I should know how to do everything in the bakery,well,some things,I cant do and its not my falt.I dont know if I want to say something to the head Manager or not,but,I really want to.I could not stop crying.He knew He was worng,because,He kept comming by the bakery,one time to ask if I was ok and like I said,I didnt say anything.He talks to everyone like He is the head Boss and He isnt.Oh,let me tell you,I called my Boss,the Bakery Manager,crying to Her and She knew the bread plater was susposed to be made.Now,if it was made and no one didnt tell me were it was.UUUUUUUUUUUUG,I am soooooooooo mad.I came to be so upsetting,crying and not I am mad.I am also in pain,hurting.Some reason,my whole body is hurting.I hope He has a bad night,I am sorry that sounds bad,but I cant help it this time.I was crying so hard,my nose was red and it was embarising because I still had to deal with the dagon Coustmers.He will get whats comming to Him,dont you worry.I am going to get to bed,try and sleep.I have a head ache.I hope you all sleep well.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Sat.

Good moring all,

I hope you all had a good night sleep.I could of slept better,but,I am hoping I will sleep better tonight.I wanted to thank you all for encourging me and giving me the good advice on my entry from last night.I do have a question.

I am taking the Lexapro,the Doc told me to take it at night,how ever the bottle says take it in the moring.So what do you all think I should do?Last night was my first night taking it,it did help some with the pain,but,my hands have been bothering me.I go to the Docs on Wed.

I do want to do some changing in my life,I am going to start by writting stuff down.I think you all are right,maybe,things will come into place sooner or later,if you know what I mean.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and Kool out there.Peaceout.

ok,whats next?

Oh my goush,I just had a whole entry written and went to put in another pic and I deleted m entry and I am ticked off.LOL.More like mad,because,I was just spilling  out all my feelings and than zip.I cant belive that,I hate when that happends.Anyways.

I had a long tiring day,Mom and I did get our hair cuts done,I didnt get it died,but,will later,did get it cut short.will take a pic later.I have so many things running through my mind,as always,the same things,but this time,for some reason,it seems diffrent.

Ok,this is the hardest part,unless maybe you all have heard it before.Oh well,I dont know what is worng with me.I am taking a med called Lexapro,just started taking it tonight,susposed to take it at night.I feel like my life is in a rut,and cant seem to get out of it.Is that so worng of me to think that when there are so many other people out there having it more worse than me?

So why cant I just stop being so dagon afarid of life,just get out there and to the things I want to do,you know,I dont even know what I want to do.I think maybe it is has to do with all thats in my past and maybe I havent let it all go and just be me,the people I have hurt,mistakes I have done.

Hey,I am human,but people want tp blmae me and think its all on me when they cant even look at there own lifes.I have falts,I am not perfect,never have been.I will tell you,I am happy in a way,in another way,I am not.I dont want my old way back,I am happy with my life now,but,I want more.If you know what I am trying to say,or am I just confusing you all?I dont care what anyone thinks of me anymore.I want to know and do know sometimes the good person I am.I am glad that the people who do know me,know who I am and the love me for me.But right now,I will tel you this,I dont even love myself and thats the truth.Can you love someone and not love yourself?Maybe I am just tired,no,I am not,I want so more out of my life.I want it now,just dont know how to go about doing that.

So were do I go about doing that?How do I change my life?How do I make it better?How do I get out there,having fun?I know I have my boyfriend,but theres more,you know?Ok,well,I am going to try and go to sleep.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Thursdays Happenings

Good moring all,

I hope you had a good nights sleep.I did,but,man I am still tired,wiped out.I havent had a day off since last Tuesday and my day off this week is tommrow.I had a busy day yesterday.I made a mistake on my app,its next wed,wasnt yesterday.But they gave me a new medicine to help me better than the last one.I hope it works.

I never heard of the medicine,i will get it tonight,hoping the Pharmcy has it.Its called,I hope I got the spelling right.jekapo or could be iekapo.anyone heard of it?Anyways,I am just so tired,I fell alseep last night one time,than just stayed alseep and left the puter on.LOL.I haad 89 alerts and got them all down.LOL.

ii am posting some pics of my neices and nephews,the ones from London,well there not from London.They are here on fourlough,if you all know what that means.I am thinking about getting my hair dyed tommrow,not sure,but,getting a hair cut,I need one badly.LOL.

I hope you enjoy the pics.I am going to get off of here,get a few things done,maybe take a nap.LOL.Have a nice day all,be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

                    

 

Speaking of Tuesday.LOL.

Good moring all,

I hope you all had a good night sleep.I know I did,I guess I needed it.I was susposed to help Mom watch the kids,I helped a little bit,but I was so dagon tired,coildnt keep my eyes open and I fell alseep.LOL.

I go back to see my Doc tommrow,I hope it will be a good visit.I need to tell themm about my medicine,that I stoped taking,because it was making me to sick.I also need to tell them that I am still in so much pain with my hands,they are hurting so much,even hard for me to type.But I did get a good sleep last night.I took my old medicine I was taking and it helped me sleep.Well,its not old,but,you know.LOL.I was looking at my Digtal last night and I need to buy a battery for it and more philm.I know you can go to Cvs and get the pics taken off,but,I already done that once and dont want to do it twice.

I want to start taking more pics,only one thing,dont know how to add them onto my laptop.LOL.My Digtal didnt come with a Chargable plug,so,I have to buy a battery for it.Anyone know of a good one?Tommrow is going to be a long day.I work in the moring at 6,get off at 12,my app is at 1 and I will be spending the day with my boyfriend.I wont get to see Him much this week.

I do want to go to Target and get a bigger pool.I want to thank you all for leaving me so many good encourging words yesterdayI guess we all get down,I sometimes get down alot,but,I just worry to much.LOL.Anyways,I better get off of here and get a few things done.I sure wish I was off today,but,I am not.LOL.I dont like being off on Fridays,due to it being payday,I like working on Fridays,so,I can get my pay check and dont have to go into the stoor on my day off.LOL.Anyways,I hope you all have a nice day.Stay kool out there.Drink lots of fluids,Gatorate and water.I know,I dont like water,I rather drink Gatorate.Be safe out there.Peaceout.

Nity nite.

Good night all,

I just did a whole entry and was about to close,than somehow I lost it.Uuuuuuuuuuug.That never happend before.Makes me so mad!!!!!!!!!I am so stressed out,tired and need to have some fun in my life.Yes,I know,Roxy,I remember you telling me the other day,to do something fun.I just want to cry,because,I worry so much about everything,but,I also know,it gets you no were.

I want to feel greatful and blessed,because I know I have so much in my life right now,but,to be tottlay honest with you all,there somehting missing in my life or maybe not.I dont know.I do know one,I am lacking so much of alo of stuff in my life.I want to cry and scream.I am blessed to have so much.But theres so much going on in my life,that I want to change and I am scared to death of change.

Is there something worng with me that I cant change?I want to say,my life sucks,yes,there I have said it.Is it worng for me to say that?Because,I know there are so many people right now going through so much.My Broters wife,Her Dad is having heart surgy to see whats clogging His heart and He has cancer,but dont know what kind.If you all could say a prayer,I thak you.How do I get my life going?Were do I start?i feel like its useless.anyways,I will write more tommrow.I have a long week ahead of me.My day off iisnt till Friday,I hate that.But I am still greatful for my job.well,I hope you all have a good night.Sweet dreams.Be kool and safe out there.Peaceout.

Photo Scavenger hunt#114 will be due on Sunday,July,8.at 11:00PM EST.

       

Photo Scavenger Hunt #114 will be due on Sunday, July, 8, at 11:00 PM EST.
                                              
Our subject this week will be:  "Independence Day, freedom"
               
                                    

Please not that this is an extended Hunt and is due in nine days.  This should be a fun one and I do hope you all enjoy the subject!  Since not everyone celebrates 4th of July festivities, I thought that the word "freedom" would allow everyone to participate.  You could take photos of anything that represents this subject to you personally and interpret it any way you wish.   Place your full entry URL in the comments section below.  If anyone needs help with this don't hesitate to email me.   Have a safe and fun Independence Day!!  Happy Birthday America!!!

Enjoy!!!Sorry,the pics are a little small.

Sorry about the writting being dark,should of used the red color.Hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

 

We all had a good time on the 4th of July,even thoe it was small and quiet,it was nice.It was just my parents,my Sister,Her family and 3 girls from church who never seen the fire works before.So they were excited to see them.They came over to the house and before dinner we all just sat around watched tv,went outside,had some fun.Before all of that,it was my Mom,my Sis,my neice,2 nephews and the 3 girls,all sitting around in theliving room painting eachothers nails.LOL.

Well,execpt for my nephew,He did want to get His nails painted.LOL.One of the girls said,go ask your Dady.LOL.He did and Dady said no.LOL.

This is the nephew who wanted to get His nails painted.LOL.How ever,He was wearing a silver neckleace,at the bottom of the necklace had hearts,but that part wasnt showing.LOL.I think He was just trying to be kool.LOL.Kids.

This is my Big boy,oldest nephew out of all of my neices and nephews,Not a very good pic of Him that,dont think He was feeling that good.He was just sitting watching the History chanel,while the girls and my neice and other nephew was painting nails,well,you know,not my nephew.LOL.This guy,Kyle,He was saying,He couldnt hear the tv because of thoes girls laughing to loud.LOL.All in all,it was a nice day.For my,I still wasnt feeling to good and I just stayed in,being lazy,in my sweats and stayed in my room,watching tv,just elaxing.So there you have it,this is my Photo Scvanger Hunt,hope you liked it.