Yes,I know I am nuts!!!!!!!LOL.

Hi everyone,

I hope you all are having a wonderful day.LOL.Do I sound scarcastic?LOL.I dont mean to.But after a few days I have had,well,I feel like hiding under my blankets and not comming out.I was so scard to call my Boss,thinking I was fired,when I am not.I tottlay messed up.I have no clue what I have been doing,were my mind has been.I am stressed,more stresed than depressed.I am going back to work,but after my vaction,I dont think I will be taking my 2 action with Gary.He can wait.I know you all must think I am crazy,not knowing what to do about going back to work.The most important thing for me right now is my Health Insurance.No one wants to see me get sick,because of being off my shots.I know some of you are saying dont go back,but I feel its the only thing I need to do.Than,if I feel I cant handel it,than I will take the next step.Honestly,I still dont know what to do.Maybe later down he road I cam try and get on SSI.But I think the only thing I can do,right now,which is best for me is,to go back to work.I know sweetheart Sharonna 1955,I know how you feel for me and want whats best for me.This is what I need to.I cant handel it anymore,cant handel the pressure,the stress,of allwhat I been under.I know,people are alot more worse off than I am,I get that.I never knew life could be this hard.I am strugling.I am broke,have no money comming in,no insurance.But I will be going back to work.I have to.Its the only way that I know.I was worrying myself sick last night,thinking about my Shots that I need.That is important to me.But what I need right now,is a good 8 hour of sleep.My room is a mess,dont want to deal with that right now.I could just take everything in my room and throw it out.LOL.My life is a mess,but like I said,could be alot worse.You all are problay thinking I am nuts.Go for it.LOL.But I am going to get off of here,take a much needed rest,after from worrying so much about everything,than my Mom.Dont get me started.LOL.Be ssafe and kool out there.Peaceout.

 

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What do you think?

Hi all,

How is everyone?Good I hope.I am still the same,not good.I think I ryollay messed up.I quit,I didnt call work,I did cal my Doctor and told them to leave the note as is.You think my Boss would have called me to see what is up,but,no and She ows me money.I am not happy with Her.I can see how people really care.But than again,I could not be fired,becuase Gary says,I should call the big Boss of the stoor.I dont want to.I know my Mom is upset with me.She just doesnt want to see me home all the time.Thats not going to happend.I just talked to one of my Girlfriends and She is going to give me the address were to go to get on State Insurance and try to get SSI or SSDI,She also has a case worker that She knows,She is going to give me everything I need.Things could be alot more worse than they could,right?I almost did a stupid thing,but I didnt,came that close,but,what keeps me going is my family,my Boyfriend and you guys.But let me tell you,at times like this I want to.I almost emailed a lady at church,but,I didnt,I feel l want to talk to Her,but,I dont know what to say.You think it would be a good idea to talk to Her?I would also like to talk to my Brother in London,see what He says,but,Hes got enough on HIs hands right now.But taking everyhting aside,I feel like I did the right thing.I think things will work out.I hope,what do you think?Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

You all are probllay gettng tred of me.

 

You all are probllay getting tired of me.I been wrtting alot in here lately and I probllay will.a of now.I quit.I am not going back to work.I am to call my Doctor and tel them to leave the note as is,the note to return to work.I kina nervous of what my Boss will try to call me. I was told not to call Shoppers or even my Boss.I dont even want to call my doctor.Rght now, have no Health Insurance, have been out for a while.I am in a bad place right now,wth having no Health Insurance.My Boss didnt want me to quit,I tryed telling Her I didnt want to come back and I dont.I dont know if She will try to cal me or not,because She is kinda execpting me to show up.But  have to have a fully relesed note,with no limations.So as of now,I have no job.Peaceout.I am out alot onmy medicines.f I wasnt so scared of,you know, would,but I am scared.

Would like some questions answerd?Thanks.

 

Hi guys,

Its me again,I just want to ask a few questions.As of right now,I am not going back to work,I am not quiting,I am just going to give them the run around for right now.I am going to tell them,I am comming back after my Vactions.But Id ont want to go back at all.What I would like to ask is,should I apply for State till I can get SSI?What should I do?Do you all think I am cabel of getting SSI?Right now I have no Health Insurance,whcih means no shots,no medicine.So,I am hurting.I dont know what to do.A friend of Garys,well was a good friend of mine till He hurt my feelings by saying that I am lazy by not going back to work,taking the easy way out.I dont think so.Why would He say that.He has no idea what I been through.I need to know if I would be doing the right thing by applying for SSI?But should get on State till I get on SSI?THanks.Should I get depressed about this?Which I know I am and I am upset.I just dont know what to do.

Not a good day.

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good day.Me on the other hand,let me tell you,it hasnt been a good day.I am stressed,depressed,crying,dont know what to do anymore.I know me being out of it,itsnt going to help anything.As of right now,I qutit Shopppers,I dont want to deal with it anymore.I just got off the phone with my Boss and told Her,I am not ready to come back.I am in good shape.I just dont think I can do it,with even standing up for so long.I dont have any Health Insurance.I need to get my life in orde,I am a mess.I am going to try and get on SSI,maybe try to get on State till I get on SSI,I dont know which one would be faster to get on.I liked having a job,but,I just dont want to do it anymore.Right now I feel like giving up.I gues it could be alot worse.I have to call my Boss back in about 15 munites.I jut wanted to give you all an updae.I love you guys.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.One more thing,please pray for my family,theres a personal problem that needs prayer.Thanks.

VERY FRUSTATED!!!

Ok,now I am very FRUSTATED!!!!!!!By the way,I do hope everyone is having a good Sat.Looks like I wont be going to work untill I get this dagon note right.They faxed a note to my work,saying,I can work,but,I am very limted to what I will be doing and I have to sit down all the time.No,I cant do that,that means,I am still under Doctors care,I dont need to be on Doctors care.Now,well,first of all I called the after hour Doctor and they left a message for me for Monday moring.They are really going to love me.LOL.Because,I kept calling them Friday to fax the note over.What else is going to happend.I have no depression pills to help me sleep execpt for Amatryply50mg,which I take Aerqul600,really take 800mgs.I hope I dont have WithDraws.I am just soooooooo frustated.All I want to do right now is hide and not come out.I am going to have to get them to fax the note to my Dads fax machine.I could be under Doctors care,but,I dont want to.The asst.Manager at my stoor tryed to fax them back saying it was the worng note.I hope I can get this all sstrighten out.I was also told I need to start doing things for myself,yes,I know,but,now just makes me feel more depressed.What else is going to happend?

I think I could go for a big bowl if choclate ice villina ice cream with choclate icng,than go hide in my bed for a while.Right now,I am watching a show on deserts.Just what I need.I did get kinda sick last night,came out of no were,was watching tv,than all of a sudden I threw up,dont know why,maybe due to all the stress.My Boss tells me I need to calm down,I dont know how.I am worrying about everything,my job,my Health Insurance,which ended July 23rd,thought was ending July 31.I am worried about my 2 vactions,which I sooooooooooooo need right now.LOL.I just need to get away.I know I need to start doing things on my own,be a big girl,but,sometimes,I needed a little help.I need to stop crying over things that,yeah,I cry,but,its not going to get handeled that way.My friend called me earlyer,I didnt feel like talking to Her.Sorry,just not in the mood.I am 36 years old,feel like I am 2.LOL.Uuuuuuuuuuuuug.Than I know,my Mom is going to ask me to go to church tommrow,right now,I can tell you,I dont want to go.I like going to church,but,I dont want feel like I am being pused,is that so worng?I know I need it.My Mom tells me all the time.I can remember a time,were I was going to church and She wasnt.Anyways,I am going to head off.I think I will go down staris and get me a bowl of ice cream.I hope you all have a nice weekend.I just hope my Doctor doesnt get mad at me,because I mut of called 20 times Friday.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.I think maybe I will go see what my RugRats are doing outside.

I need help.Yes,I know,not that kind of help.LOL.

 

Ok,this is a stupid question,but,um,does anyonw know how I can find out how many years I been Journaling?I am sure I missed my Annivsarys.LOL.But I really dont know how to check that out.I am dumb founded.Thanks.Becase I would like to start putting my annivsarys in here,if I  knew how.I feel stupid.Thanks.One more thing,I have a question abot graffics,how do yo get rid of alot of them off yor puter?Not my special graffics with my name and people have made for me,just ones I have used and dont need.How do yo save all of yor graffics,it wold probllay take me a year to get them all to photo bcket.LOL.Thanks.I been trying to delete the ones I dont need,seems like they are comming back.LOL.One more thing,how do you get rid of stff to make your puter cleaner and faster?