Today is a good day.

Good moring all,

I hope you all is having a good one.I am doing good here.I am feeling pretty good.Even thoe its hard feeling depressed,which I am trying hard not to do.I dont want to feel depressed.I want to feel good.I woke up feeling good,so,I am going to have a good day.There are a few things I need to do today.I go see my Shrink tommrow for the first time.So,tonight I want to sit down and write what I would like to say.Ok,maybe you all can answer my question,I need to go get a copy of my Xrays,my Pain Doctor wants to see them and my Reg Doc wants to see them also.But,do I need something from my Reg Doc to get a copy?Because I dont have anything,so,I am just going to go right in there and get them?Maybe I will call my Reg Doc and see if I need anything to get my Xrays.So much to do today.I have 2 apps this week.Actullay one tommrow and one on Wed.And maybe one Thursday.LOL.

I am actullay thinking of having my friend over this Friday,was thinking of having Her tonight,but,to much is going on,plus my Mom is babysitting today and through this evening.So,I will wait till Friday.So,I can actullay say this medicine I am on is working.Its helping me alot.Its helping me to sleep to.Man,I take it at 6 and by 7:30,I am out.LOL.So if I  need to do anything,I need to do it before 8 at night.LOL.I think I am going to call my Doc at 11.He has werid hours.Ok,guys forget about answering that question,I dont need anything,if the DOc needs it,they will just call my Reg Doc.So,thats out of the way.

I do,I do appreciate you all,I thak you all for being in my life.I have had a ahrd road to travel and still have a hard road to travel,but,I dont want to think negative anymore,I hate it and it makes me feel bad.I am glad I will be seeing someone to talk to tommrow.I have so  much to say.Anyways,I need to get off of here and get some stuff done.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

Its me again.

 

Its me again,first of all I want to thank Lisa from http://journals.aol.com/lisa41076/LisasPlaceofthoughtsandramblings/ for sending me a thinking of you card,that was sweet,it made me smile and I really needed that.I love getting mail.Right now,I could use alot of encourgment.I just talked to my Dad and told Him,I needed to do something about work,if I am not going back,I need to let work know,dont want them to keep thinking I am comming back.Dad asked me,do you think you could go back?I thought I could,but,this moring,I walked down the stairs on my butt.So,I dont think I am ready to go back and being tottlay honest,I dont want to go back.I do like getting out and about and being with people,than again,I dont like dealing with the hassel.I told Dad that if I am not going back,I need to get on Disability,I need my health insurance,I need my shots for my Arthitis.What do you all think I should do?Do you all think I am ready to go back to work part time?Thats all I been doing is part time,even thoe they keep me past  hours.Dad did say last night,He doesnt want me going back,He doesnt think I can hadel the work that I do,with being on my feet all day on thoes hard floors.So,I am ready to put in my 2 weeks notice.But,I am going to wait.I didnt think this day would come.I thought I would be working for a long time.I think my body is telling me,its time to rest.And I also thought of alot of things I can do with me not working.I think maybe I would feel alot better,not having to worry about work.Anyways,I guess thats about it.I am going to get off of here and get a few things done.Have a nice day all.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

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Worried.

Good moring all,

I hope you all had a good night.I slept good,but,I woke up with worrying about work.But before I start talking about work,I want to ask you all,can you all get into my Private Joural when you go into the People section and you see Journals being updated?I was just wondering about that.Thanks a bunch.Now onto work.I am really worred about wanting to knw whats goig to happed about work.I asked my Dad last night about talkig to the orthopedic again,making an app to see about Surgey.He said He didnt know.He said it would be the last resot.Than I said,well,what I am I going to do about work?He asked me if I wanted to go back,I said,I do,than again I dont,Than He said nothing.Than I told Mom,She asked Dad,so,I dont know whats going to happend.I think that I could go back to work,I feel I am somewhat strong,but than again I dont know.If I did go back to work,I would go back to work for,4 hours.Thats it.Thats all I could probllay handel.So,now I am confused and dont know what to doI know one thing,I am about to fall alseep.Which after I do this Entry,I am going back to sleep.

Getting off the subject,one good thing happend,I got a sick leave check yesterday.I am so happy about that.Almost 9 hundred dollors.I am already putting a hole in my pocket.LOL.But,I need to put some mone in the bank and pay off some Dr bills.My sick leave check was also back pay that I didnt get.So,I am wondering I will get a check,every week,or once a month.But,I am glad I got it.I want to thank you all for beig s caring.My checks that are comming in,will help alot with the Sisney Cruise that I am going to in Sept.I never been on a Cruise before.I will be going with my Mom,Sister,Her Husband and the kids.The kids like having us come along,they say its more fun that way.LOL.I am looking forward to it.I need a vaction now.Mom is paying for my Plane ticket for my Bday and Gary is going to  help me with the rest.My neice says She is going to be sleeping with Mom and I.LOL.Because we can order room service all night long.LOL.So,that is a good thing.I wish it was now.Gary and I will also be going away in Sept to the Beach.We always do that.So,i have a few things to look forward to.

With all that said,I am now going to go back to sleep.But tell me all,do I have something to worry about?Or should I just pray about it,which I am doing,but,I havent been very faithful to God at all.Will He still listen,even if I am not that faihful?I just wish I knew what to do about all of this,about work.Because I will need to do something soon.Just dont know what.Anyways,I need to go back to sleep.I will be back later.I hope you all have a good day today.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

Todays Happenings.

Moonlighting use to be one of my all time favorite tv shows.Do any of you remember it?

Good moring all,

I hope everyone is having a good weekend.I am feeling better than I was yesterday.I have so much on my mind.In a way,I miss going to work,because of the money and I like getting out and not being home all the time.But than again,I like staying home,so I wouldnt have to deal with the hassel of people at woek.It just seems like everything is still going so slow for me.Still trying to get rid of my Porises so I can go back to my Orthopedic and talk about surgey.I just wish things would move a little faster.I am also worrying about paying my Dr bills.I havent gotton payed yet from my work,only one check from being on sick leave.What else is new?That is worrying me alot.Which I am trying to work out.I hope I get a check comming soon.

Yes,I still want a pain killer,bu,as I said before,I am glad I dont have them.I cant take the ones I have now,the one you stick under your toung and it melts.It makes me sick.I may try and take it today.But I can honestly say,the pills for my depression is working,its helping me to sleep better at night.I am so glad for that.I m ean,I know I still worry about things,but,it is a little better.I guess if you keep on worrying,its not going to get any better.And I know I have to push myself a little harder,if I want things in life.But,actullay,I am ok with my life,I really dont want much.I used to think there is more out there and maybe there is.But,I try and not worry about that.I just want to live everyday,as,one day at a time.Anyways,I better get off of here and get cleaned up.Gary will be here in a little while.I am going out for a little while today.I hope you all have a good weekend.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

 

My Happenings.

Good day all,

I hope everyone is having a good one.I am doing good here.How ever,I have been thinking about alot of things that need to be done.Seems like I have so many dr apps comming up.I need to get some kind of calander and write them down.I also need to pay some off,but,I havent gotton any pay from being on sick leave,well,just one check.I am hoping and praying I will get a check tommrow.If not,I will probllay have to start all over with this sick leave thing.Also,as you all know,I havent been writing in here very much,I been writting in my Private Journal.So if anyone wants the link,let me know.I feel like,things are still not moving the way I want them to.Like for the fact that I need to get this Surgey taken care of.Whats the deal?So I can get back to work.Let me tell you all,everyone thinks I already had the Surgey.LOL.Nope,not yet.When I went into seeing everyone at work,but,I was in my Wheel chair.

Well,I hope everyone at work,doesnt think I wont be comming back.Well,who knows.I still call the head Boss every Friday.So,I guess nothing else is going on.I mean,I still worry about alot of things.But what else is new?How do you stop from worying so much?I would give anything to get back to working.But,knowing my Dad will not let me go back,jst yet.Well,its going to be a lazy day here,I may change my room around.Someone feel my forhead.LOL.I will say this,the new med that I take to make me sleep at night,let me tell you all,it kicks butt.LOL.I have to make sure that if I need to take a bath before going to bed,to do it before I take my med and if I need to set my room down at night.If not,the med kicks in and I wont get it done.LOL.I sleep the whole night through.Which is a good thing.I dont even get up to go to the bathroom,maybe once.Anyways,I hope you all enjoyr your day.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

ME.

Hi all,

I hope you all is having a good day.I am doing great here.Well,I am going to finally mentione to you all,that I have a Private Journal.If you would like to be added,let me know and I will send you a linkI dont like writting anything personal in here,because,there are eyes,that I dont want them to read.Has nothing to do with -land or my onlinefriends.But,I am also going to be careful on who wants to be added.Because,I feel if anyone wants to know how I am doing or what is up with me,than,they should cotact me,instead of reading my JournalAnyways,I am good here.It is reallynice outside.Have a nice day.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.

My Happienings.

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good day.I am doing alot better than I did yesterday.I was sick,Imean,I felt deadly sick.I helped get read for Easter Lunch,than,I just went to my Bed and slept.I am going to go see a diffrent Doctor today and show Her the Medicine and See what She thinks about it.I just couldnt take it.But I am feeling better.I am sitting here writting a 4 page letter.LOL.Its a long one.LOL.I cant wait to get in there and see Her.This si a good thing.

Getting off the subject,my Sister came up to my room yesterday,while,I was sleeping and gave me a cute Easter Stuff Anamial.I have sitting right besides me.We usllay get eachither something and I told Her I was sorry I didnt get Her anything.She said,its ok,I dont want you getting my anything.I said thank you and I loved Her.One thing about me and my Sister,we are close and we will alwys be there for eachother.She is the one that I will go to,if anything happend to my parents.But I know my parents will be living for a long time.LOL.Anyways,I am going to get ooff of here and get cleaned up.Oh yeah,before I go.I wanted to let you all know,I dont wrte much in this Journal.I will write from time to time.If anyone wants to know anything,please emal me.I do love you all.But I feel if some people want to know certian things about my life,how I m feeling,with my health,they should email me.This has nothing to do with my J-land friends or my oline friends.I lvoe you all.e safe and warm out there.Peaceout.