Enjoy the beatiful day!!!!!!

Before I start,someone said they was going to help me to add pics to my Laptop from my digtal.I will be home tonight after 5,maybe you can give me some pointers.Thank you.

Good day all,

I hope all is having a good one.I am really tired right now,due to me staying up really late last night writting out my entry,it helped me got alot of my feelings out,made me cry,but,I am feeling some better.Tired,but,I am doing ok.I want to thank each and everyone of you who have been so suportiave of me,always being there for.I love you all so much.J-land has been my rock.I didnt even want get up this moring and get ready and go to work.Work is doing ok,only worked one day with my Boss,but,so far that has been ok.LOL.I may see Her today.I hope I dont stay pass 5,I want to see my boyfriend who I havent see but for one day this week.Mom said I already bought Her Mother day presant,which She has been wanting.A Sandwhich maker,you make hot sandwhichs,which will be good for the kids.i have so much I need to do this week,get some things done and want to get into my room.Its not so much of a big mess.I also want to take a pic of something out of a beaded book I bought and want to know if you all think I can make it.Would be alot of work.I love beads,,always been a hobbie of mine.I always wanted to get some cards out in the mail.I just hope none of my J-landers think I have forgotton them.You al been there for me,I love all the cards you send me.I just been so worried about alot of things and I want to move on and start having some fun in my life.What that is,I dont know.Anyways,I need to hurry up,get dress,put my face on and leave.Its Sat,Sta traffic is crazy when going to work.Just know that I care for you all so much.I was thinking of geting PSP for my Bday which is on Mothers Day,doesnt always follow on Mothers day.But,not to sure yet.I need more things than that right now.I will get back to you all later.Have fun,enjoy the nice weather.Be safe and kool.Peaceout.

To whom was once and will always be in my heart,my bestfriend

 

Good night all,

its late,its not to late yet,but,want to try to be alseep before 2.LOL.They called me into work today,but,didnt go,because,I went out with my Mom for a while.They may ask me to stay later tommrow,we shall see.so,many things have been on my mind,cant even seem to think stright about it all anymore.I keep thinking about the past,the people in my past.I wouldnt even know were to begin,everytime I think of it,it just hurts and if some certian people happend to read this,it is not who you think of.I also think of that person also,but,this is another person,yes,a family member,but,to me was more than just family.I dont care who reads this or if it gets back.Maybe this was meant to be.For me just to get some of my feelings out.

Yes,to much hurt between us is,dont even have the word for it.I can honestly say,and maybe for once in my life right now I need to say how I feel,I miss the way it was a long time ago,the way we were,the way we once was,but,I dont think it could ever get back to that.I wish you would know how I feel,that I do miss you,I care about you,sometimes,wanting to pick the phone up,calling you,just to say hi,how are you?How are you doing?I dont want you to think I am this bad person because,yeah,I have made many mistakes in my life,still making them now.I am not writting this entry,so,that you could see it and know how I am feeling.I am just writting to finally get it all out.I just dont want to hold it in anymore,as long as I have been for so many,many years.We both been through a huge storm.All the things I have said and done,wish I can take back,but theres no taking back,its been done.

 

Through out the years of gatherings and being awakared around eachother,I know it was hard,I could tell.I could tell by the look on your face.The friendship we once had was gone,dont know if we will ever get it back.Maybe this is meant to be.But I want you to know,I have always thought about you,always in my heart.Theres alot of hurt between you and I,theres probllay still alot of hurt between us now.So many things I want to say.I want to say,I love you,I am sorry,I know its probllay late to say,hoping that its not.I just hope you know that I have always cared about you.I have missed you for so many years.You were and my only bestfriend.I know its been hard hard for you.If you only knew,if you only knew how much I truly care and love you.Times have changed now,we have changed,we grew apart.Yes,I get scared about my future,what will my future hold for me?But,I know,thats not your say,I think of so many things,what would happend if something happend to Mom and Dad,I think about that.I feel aso thoe peple dont give me credit enough to think about what life will hold for me in my future.Just sitting here,thinking about all of this,tears comming down my face,just crying out.But,crying out to let it all go.You are not the cause of what happends to me.In the past,you and I,I messed up,I screwded up,what can I say?I miss the person that was once a long time ago.I miss the laughter.But,here we are,here I am.We both moved on.All I want to say is,and hoping you know,I love you,I have always and still love you.You will in my heart always be my bestfriend.I am sorry for everything I have done and hope that all is forgiven.Maybe you have forgiven,maybe I havent,I havent let it go.Maybe this was meant for me to write this to you.You have grown into a beatiful women with 4 beatiful kids.I love you and goodnight.

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!

Good moring all,

Happy Friday,hope you all is having a good one.I am up and getting ready to leave in a little while with my Mom.Not sure what we will do.I know one thing,will go get my check,go get it chased and probllay do a few things.I need to get a bday preasnt for my nephew for May 7,dont ask me how old,I always forget.I want to do aot of things on this puter,but,will do that later.I havent been doing any pics,because,can only do it with my cell phone and I dont have any munites with that one.Unless anyone out there knows how I can put pics on my Laptop with my Digtal?I want to write more,but,will have to wait till later.Hope you all have a nice day out.Its pretty out.Enjoy!!!!!!!!Be safe/kool.Peaceout.

Maybe its both,a blessing and a mericale!!!!!!!

Maybe mericales really do happend!!!!!!!before I get into that subject.I just want to say thank you all that prayed for Gary and our friend who is in the Hosiptal.He is doing better.Not sure when He wil be out of the Hosiptal.Thank you all so much for praying for Him and still praying for Him.Now for my maricel or maybe its a blessing that I recieved today.Maybe it was because of that chain letter I sent out and really dont belive in them,but,something happen that was so AWSOME that I needed in my life.I been having a hard time getting my shots and paying for them,one thing,I couldnt find the number,which my Dad found.It was crazy going back and forth getting a hold of my Doctor and to fax my prescription.

 

Well everything is sorted out,my shots will finally be here tommrow,but thats not the good news about it.I have this other card that helps pay for my shots,we didnt know what the copay would be and guess what?I dont have to pay a dime for my shots!!!!!!!!!!!!I was so happy and thriled to hear that,you just dont know how much problems I been having to deal with this.I also think its a blessing from God and a Merical.My heart jumps for joy.I didnt think anything like this would happend to me.Because,I so needed this so bad in my life.I needed my shots for my arthitis,if I didnt have my shots,which I didnt have for a long while now and my knee has been just swelled up so bad and really hard for me walking.I wouldnt know what I would have done.I am so greatful that I am juct crying tears of joy,because,something finally is going my way for once.For this to happend,is a Godsend.When I came home,my Dad joked a little bit about it because I didnt know if I was going to be paying anything,I thought I would,He was saying,you dont want to know and I was like,no,He said it went up to 600.LOL.Let me tell you,my shots are not cheap.LOL.But He was playing.LOL.You just dont know what this means to me.Sorryif it seems like I am taking to much on this,but,I am crying,because,I havent had my shots in like a year and I so needed them so bad,my knees have just been in so much pain.I get them tommrow.I will feel like a brand new person when I get my shots.Now I will tell you this,it hurts when I give them to myself.Not like when the Doc gives it to you.But,I dont care,because,I am just sooooooooo happy right now,I can burst,which I am.Tears of joy.This has been giving me so much problems and now its all being taken care of.And now I have to try and get some sleep.Its getting late and past my bedtime.LOL.Thank you all so much for always being there for me.I love you guys so much.Be safe and kool.Peaceout.

A Question?

One more thing,I have a question for you all.I have been deleting the graffics I dont use and have already used.But I want to keep alot of them,I know you have to have some kind of disc to save them on.What do I need?I will probllay go to Best Buy maybe this weekend and get something,maybe they will have it at my stoor.I just have so many graffics I dont want to loose.If I save them on a disck,I dont know how to save them or if I want to use them again.Thanks for helping me.Have a good one.

Weds Happenings.

Good moring all,

Hope you all is doing alright.I am doing good here.I just want to say first of all,thank you all so much who always leave so many nice and encourging and good advice in my comment section.You guys are the best.I am so glad today is my day off,I sure needed to sleep in.My Doc had given me some pain killers for my knee till I get my shots.I am so glad my Dad found the number.If I didnt have my shots,I wouldnt be walking.My knee right now is very swolen.

Gary and I are going to see one of His closets frend who is in the Hosiptal with heart failure,please say a prayer for Him.Thank you all so much.His name is Bob,Garys last friend,sad to say,but,only friend besides me and my family.He doesnt have anyone else.Both His parents are gone and His Brother gone also.Both His parents died of cancer.His Mom has been one a very,very long time,His Dad only been gone about 5 years and His Brother died 2 years ago.So,Hes had it pretty hard.I am glad I found Him and Hes not to lonly.I know He misses His family,His parents the most.He didnt really have a good realtionship with His Brother.Thats a long story.So,Gary and I are going to go see His friend in the Hosiptal.He is not in Icu,so,maybe that is a good thing.Well,I better get off of and get cleaned up.Dad is also probllay waiting for my Laptop.lol.I just want you all to know,I love you all so much.Thank you so much for being there for me.Have a wonderful day and enjoy the weahter.Peaceout.

Tuesday Happenings.

Good moring all,

Hope you all slept well.I could of slept better.But let me tell you,my knee is boothering me so much,it hurts so bad and is swelled up so much to te point were I had to sit down on the steps and walk down stairs.I have to go to work today.I dont want to call out on my 2 day of the new Boss being there.I have some good news about that.It all went well with the new Boss,She is very nice,but,it was my first day working with Her,so,we will see.

She was very impressed how well I work,that made my day,because,no one has ever said that to me before.Who knows,my hours could change and She could have me working in the moring.Let Her meet the rest of the people.One person we call is loud mouth Leslie.LOL.She is so loud and so fake,I am sorry,I had to say that.Because She wants to make everyone else in the stoor that She is there.LOL.

She is also lazy.Talks to much and doesnt want to do anything and She gets 8 hours everday and when I come in I have to finish Her work.So,we will see what happends next week.But to say,I was very glad and pleased with my new Boss.She is spanish.We have 2 people who are spanish,it was funny,I was in the middle of them to and I said something to Maria and She laughed.LOL.I bet when they are alone they can talk up a storm.LOL.So,I just wanted to let you all know how my day went and went pretty good.Lets just hope tonight when I close,I will be ok with my knee being swelled up.I have to work,I cant call out.I just called and see if I can get a refil on pain killers.How ever I just took 2 mobic.I hope that helps.I couldnt even sleep with the blankets with my knee hurting so bad.I wont get to see the Boss till probllay Sat,I close the rest of the week.I hope you all have a nice day.Its been really nice out.be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.