I feel the tension again all over my back,its been one long day and what a day it has been!!!!!!!!!!

Good evening yall,

Let me just say one thing!This has been one long day and going into 2007,I just hope this is a better year or dont we all hope for that?Ok,let me tell you how my day went.Well,work was fine,it went good,I made my boss a neckless,She liked it,it was pink and actullay looked like a real neckless.I like doing things for people.Does that make you think I want to get into Her good shooses?lol.No,thats not what I am trying to do.lol.She said I did real good today and I was fast,She was saying,you did that real fast,I tought you well.lol.Ok,that was a good part.onto the home front.lol.You cannot belive what was going on.Dagon COmcast.lol.I will be really glad when I am finally actullay hooked up to my Laptop.But let me finish telling you what  happend.Dad wasnt a happy camper.lol.No,doubt,Comcast is paying for what they did to our yard.lol.Thats right,for one thing it was raining all day,nasty,it must of been hard for them guys.I kept geting calls at work on my cell.lol.Mom said,they tore up the yard pretty good,guess they had to get under ground to the wires,phone wires,dont ask.lol.My boss,said,you have under ground wiring,than She said,yals lights dont go out alot,do they?Nope,they dont,not even when we had that bad strom a few years ago,when other peoples lights were out for like a week or 2,even my boyfriends.Getting ahead of myself.Poor Dad was out there in the rain,talking to the guys,they were nice,well of course,they better be.Dad wasnt mad,He was just like,I hope they going to fix my yeard and they did.But guess what?There is a Comcast truck stuck in the middle of our yard.lol.Still there tonight and I guess someone will come out tommrow to get it.On another note,I still couldnt get online,they said I could get online,but,I called Comcast again and someone else is comming out tommrow betwen 2 and 5,thank goodness I am off,so as I need to be here.lol.All this for a Laptop?My boyfriend felt bad,but it was His falt and my parents dont blame Him.Hes a good guy,my Hero.Hey,I have a question for you guys.If they come out and get me hooked up on Comcast,and I need a new name,I thought that maybe you guys could pick something out,or give me a few ideas.Mom was like,She neve relizedHugsdoodlewacky is my name.but it was given to me a long,long,long time ago.So,if you know of something that would fit me,Mom came up with something,foxy or something.I dont know.You gouys give it a try.Should I ask them to help me get aol on there?Ok,I am heading to bed,going to watch my dvd before bed,usllay when I turn it on,I am fast alseep.You guys need to see,Stepup.Its a good one.Have a great weekend all.Be safe and peaceout.

Were has the snow gone to?

Thank you,Ds Desgins for the above graffic and thank you Cherry2sweet2eat for my closing tag.I love them.

Good morng all,

                   Hope you all are having a good one.I just wanted to put an entry here before I forget to do one,before I head to work.Actullay,would be a good day to sleep in.lol.ts one of them rainy days,but not raining yet,it has been,off and on today.I cant belive we havent had any snow this year,it dont mater to me anymore.I used to want snow all the time,but,now,I just dont care.Maybe a big one for the kids to play.Not a big,huge one,I know we have had them before,was stuck in the house for 3 days.lol.I remember Dad making a path way from our door way all the way up to the mail box.He shouldnt of done that.When that was done,one of my co workers,came and picked me up,when I walked all the way out to the mail box.She said,She would be there in a little bit,I was dressed and ready to go.lol.Nothing like being stuck in the house for 3 days.lol.Not good.But we havent any snow yet.i remember one time on Easter day,we had a little bit.Anyhoo,enough about that.I feel alot better than I did yesterday.I slept good last night and woke up feeling good.I am just kinda upset about COmcast.I am going to try and call them today if I dont forget.But,Gary needs to cal,because,they probllay wont tell me anything,it is in His name.So,what does everyone have planned for this weekend?I am off tommrow.I plan on sleeping in,we will see about that,because,I never sleep in.lol.I am always up.I am up before everyone else gets up.lol.Anyways,I hope you all have a safe and nice weekend.Peaceout.

One more thing.

One more thing,I just have to say this,all I want to do,is go crawl in my bed and have a good cry.Yeah,I can be a pain,I know.lol.But,I am just so tired,not,tired,tired,I mean tired.I know,there is alot more people worse off than me.I just had to get that off my mind.Now I am leaving.

this person cant make Her mind up about anything.lol.I am trying and I need some choclate.lol.

Thank you Ds Designs for the above graffic and thank you Sazzymademe for the closing tag.

Hi everyone,

               Its almost bed time for me,I am so tired for some reason,dont even know why.I guess I have alot on my mind and with Comcast being a buthead about comming out and hooking my Laptop up,its giving me a headache and Gary isnt happy about it either.They came a the other day,said they was susposed to b e back in a few hours,they havent been back seince.There is a cabel box hooked up in the living room,there is something outside hooked up,that I guess somebody has to come and see whats worng.My Dad said that the guys said,we have a dead line,I am like huh?So,who knows when I will be hooked up.Its getting on my nerves.lol.I am not feeling good,I think I am fighiting a cold.I am just one big mess.I think I do need to make an app to see one of my Doctors that I was going to cancel,but,I think I need to see Him.I took 3 pills this moring to calm me down and Doc said it is ok to take 3 and boy,I was relaxed,but by the time Gary came to pick me up,I was cranky,because all I wanted to do was sleep.lol.Plus I asn happy about COmcast.I take Cloazepam in the moring,I know,I spelled that worng.lol.And I take Amatriplyn at night,ok,I spelled that one worng to.lol.I could use about,maybe just 2 days of rest,I say that,but,than,I feel like I am always on the go.I have been feeling very light headed and dizzy lately.My mouth has been very dry,I think that could be due to the meds.I feel I just cant relax,sometimes I feel like I am just doing to much and keeping myself busy all the time.Is something worng with me?I know I got the bloo work back and it said I was ok.Or am I just being parnoid?lol.I dont know.I am trying to make everyone happy,trying to work my problems out,and I dont even know were to begin.Not that its a biggie,but,I want some change in my life and it is just sressing me out BIG TIME.I want to say,I hate the way I am living,my life,I just dont know how to make the right moves.I feel like I am going no were.Ok,sorry about venting.I hope you all have a good night and agood weekend ahead.I work tommrow,than I am off Sat,probllay Sun to.Be safe and peaceout.

Thursdays happenings.lol.

Good moring all,

                   Hope you all are having a good one and with your coffee in your hand and a donut in your other hand.lol.What your getting ready to read is somehting I get every moring when I check my mail.Dont know who sends them to me,unless,I had them send them to me.lol.Butmanyways,this sope to me today,talks about temsion,and yesterday,was a double wammy.I had tension all over me and I dont know were it came from and I couldnt get rid of it.I was hurting so bad,from my back,to my neck,shoulders and arms.I feel some better this moring.I guess I have alot on my mind.That I really want to try and change things,yeah,saying it is easy than doing it.lol.I know.lol.I must of been so tired last night,I took my bedtime medicine,I think I was watching a dvd,soon as I turned it on,I was out.lol.I also took one of my Arthitis pilss and that helped this moring.I am feeling good right now,we shal see later how I feel.lol.Thank you all for give me good advice yesterday in my entry.I love you all so much.Roxy,thank you for lettting my know aboug aol being free.I do hope you all have a wonderful,relaxing,calming day today.Its cold in here,my puter isnt set up yet.They came yesterday moring,was here for sevral hours,trying to get a signal,they said would be back in a few hours,but nope,they never showed up,never even called,my boyfriend is paying for all of it.They better show up today.Some other dude was susposed to come by and do something to the outside pole line,dont ask me,I know nothing.lol.But,they better show up today.lol.I am getting very unpaitence and I want on my LAptop!!!!!!!!I hope you all have a nice day today and I will be back later.

January 4, 2007

Workplace Sanctuary
Taurus Daily Horoscope

The tension of your professional life could make you feel like escaping into the sanctuary of your home today. Although that is a place where you can seek refuge from the stresses of the external world, learning to integrate a practice of relaxation and stress reduction at work might serve you better today. Perhaps you can try to make your workspace a place of calm and serenity by placing plants, soothing artwork, or inspirational poems where you can see them throughout the day. When you see your items of healing, you might wish to take a deep breath and remind yourself that peace of mind comes from within.  Even in a place where things seem hectic, you can still have tranquility and peace of mind.

Creating a haven for ourselves no matter where we are gives us the extra strength we need to cope with tensions that arise. So often we might think of our homes as places to where we can run from our problems, curl up, and withdraw from the world. If we can see that there is so much more power in creating a retreat in our most hectic environments, we will find that instead of having to run to a secure place, we always have safety and serenity with us. By bringing healing energy into your professional life today you will stay constant, at ease, and happy, regardless of what happens around you.

I had alot on my mind and I have alot of questions for you,thanks.

Thanks Cab's Creations,for both of the graffis shown here love them so much.Thank you CCC,I am so sorry,I forgot who you are,forgive me.

Hi all,

        Good day to all,hope you all is having a good one.Its ok here.I havent been feeling like writting much lately.Not depressed,just have alot on my mind.Today COmcast is hooking up my inter so I can use my Laptop and use it anywere.Now,I know you can dow load aol,but will you have to pay for it?I know nothing about COmcast,dont think I can get my online journal from there.I just hope they come back before I leave,so,they can tell me what to do.lol.I dont think its that hard.But it wil be fun,just sitting in my bedroom,and I dont have to come into this cold room,were there is a big,huge black mold right up above me.I try and put warm cloths on,but it doesnt help much and my feet are always cold.lol.I can deal with everything else being cold,but,my feet,my feet have to stay wram.Not when I am sleeping,I hate wearing socks to bed,never had,but some people do.lol.Why?lol.I have alot of questions to throw at you guys,maybe you can help me out.I have been thinking alot about cancling one of my doctors,as I dont think I need them,I need the medicine of course,to helo me sleep and with depression.Its not as bad,the depression.I want to talk to my regular doctor,see if He can give me the same medicine my Shrink does.I just cant afford to be seeing so many doctors right now.I am just trying and wanting to be more responsible with my bills,which I dont have alot.But seeing theeses 2 doctors and paying them both,I just cant.My journal helps alot with getting my feelings out,venting and letting it all go.I relize I dont need to see a Shrink,I know its bigger word for it,but,I cant spell.lol.Now,maybe in the future,if I need to see them again,I will.What do you tihnk I should do?It is just stressing me out and I want to make it more easy on me.Plus my shots with my Arthitis,I need to have,and with seeing so many doctors,I cant handle it right now.Thats what has been stressing me out.I want thisyear to be a better one for me,my family,my friends,my boyfriend.I know I have my problems,I worry alot.But I want to try and work on that.I also would like try and work on being more healthy,yeah,right.lol.But I think that would help in a big way,with me being so stressed out,as my Doctor says,my regular doctor.I know my Arthitis doctor,wanted me to see someone to talk to.But right now,Ij ust cant handle paying the bills.I am not behind,but,I am behind on one.So what do you all think?I been delaing with so much,that I jsut cant take it and I want to make a better life for myself.To much pressure,to much stress,to much worrying over things I dont need to be worrying about.SO,I just wanted some input on tis and maybe you can help me out.One more thing,my Dad maybe getting rid of Aol in the near future,not sure when,not happending anytime soon.I just wanted to let you all know that.But its not a big hurry.I will have COmcast,but I think I can down load Aol,but will it cost?I hope thoes people come back before I leave,so they can show me what to do.I neve even relized you can watch dvds on my Laptop,shows you how much I know.lol.So,I had alot of questions for you.Sorry about venting.But I needed to get alot of things off my mind.If I decied to stop seeing my Shrink and thereapyst,I will tell my Arthitis doctor and let Him know.I just cant handle this right now.My shots are more important and the medicine that keeps me from going insane.lol.You know,I iwsh I could just stop cold turkey.lol.But I cant.If it helps me,it helps.I have one more question and I will let you go,this has been on my mind alot and I been trying to find ways of helping me out through this.I have alot of sress,tension in my back,shoulders,I been trying to excerise and it doesnt seem to help,do you all have any aideas?What about taking Excdrin?They have it for tension.Whats the deiffrents between stress and tension?Am I crazy?lol.Thank you all so much for listning to me going on and answering my questions.I been up all moring,waiting for them peopel to show up.I will most likly be on COmcast tonight,sitting in my room,right in front of the tv.No doubt,my Dad will want to play around on it,since it is,high speed internet.lol.I love you guys.Have a great day.Be safe and peaceout.

Be back later.

Hi all,

       Hope you all had a nice New Years.I knew I was going to fall alseep way before 12 and I did.lol.I didnt even get to see the ball drop.Oh well,maybe next year.lol.Maybe I am just getting old.lol.I was just tired and I am tired again today.I feel like my shoulders are all tensed up.I might come back her eand add a pic or 2.But,right now,I just want to get off of here,go lay down and take a nap.I couldnt get on line earlyer,because it said something about to much memory space.Thanks to emabecmar for helping me out.I have laot of alerts to catch up on,but,will do that later.I am going to go rest.Man,I feel old.lol.No,just being Christmas and New Years,takes alot out on you and working.I dont want to complain.I am hping this will be a btter year for me.I have some thinking to do about some things,not not my boyfriend,He is staying were HEs at,in my heart.Thank you all for a wodnerful year and another wodnerful year ahead.Have a nice day all.Be safe and peaceout.