Sundays Happenings.

Hi everyone.

I hope all of are having a good night.I am about to go to sleep,I am pooped.LOL.I dont think any of you have seen a pic of my Mom and my Sister Christina,thats the one who talked to my Boss,I should have gone an talked to Him,but I forgot and was kinda scared to,ok I admit it,I am a chicken,but I do have to talk to Him.I have no back bone.LOL.Meaning,I am weak when I have to talk to my Boss.My Bakery Manager,She just doesnt want me to go,because Imentioned it to Her and She was like,thats net week.I didnt say anything.I should have told Her,well,you was the one that said I could go on my vaction when I came back to work.But I will mention that if I talk to my Boss.She has to give it to me.Besides,its not like its going to be busy.I do so much for my Boss,its not funny.she says She doesnt want to work me to hard,since I just got back,well She is,I have been doing so much,I just get so tired when I get off of work.But I do sleep better.Which I will tonight.I asked Gary if I should call the head Boss tommrow and talk to Him,Gary told me that I should do it in person.I am so afarid to do that.I dont know why.He did come by the bakery an I should have said something.But I am stupid.Thank you all for the kind,caring words you said in my entry the other day.I am going to try and get some sleep.I am going out with my Mom and my Sister and the kids.We are going to do some shoping and than have lunch.Chinies,I know I spled that worng.I am a bad speller.I probllay speled that worng to.Have a good night all.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

I feel really stupid.

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good evening.I am doing ok.I just got home from work.I had to close tonight,I said I would,so,I did,which I am getting the hang of now,even thoe I still hurt,but,actullay not to bad,how ever my feet are kinda hurting me now.But all in all,I am ok.Even thoe I been doing major heavy work,,since I got back to work,its been hard but I can do it.Good thing,I have a vaction comming up,which I am looking forward to it.How ever,let me tell you what happend today,which I wasnt happy at all about it and I have to fae it tommrow moring when I go into work.I am really embarssed about it.I dont want to go into work,because like I said,I will have to face it.When I went to work,my Boss just came out and said to me,I dont think you will get to go on vaction and I just looked at Her and said,so what do I do?She said I should go to the head Boss and beg Him to give me my vaction.Fisrt of all,She was on a power trip,when I came in,meaning She was in a bad mood.I will probllay be in a bad mood tommrow.I dont get it,I just dont get it.I dont get Her and right now,I dont get me.LOL.

I know this is a huge pic,but I like it.This is one of my fave shows,I hate that it is the last show this Tuesday,till next year.Anyways,I think we could use a new Bakery Manager,She will never give me my money back that She owes me.I could use that moen.Ok,let me get back to what I was talking about.She told me,that when I came back to work,everything was fine,that I would be able to go on my vaction,She even said She would give it to me,no matter what,than She turns around today and said,I might not be going on my vaction.I was mad and upset.I think She just said that  because,for one thing,like I said,She was in one of Her moods.I asked Her what should I do and She,first said,talk to the head Boss and beg Him,thoes were Her words.I think She just said that,because,She doesnt want me to go.Well,you know what,I am going,even if I get fired tommrow.LOL.Its not actullay funny.But,I either have to laugh,or cry.LOL.But here is the embarssing point.I texed my Sister,told Her I wasnt sure if I will get to go on my trip,She comes in the stoor and aske me were is my head Boss,my Boyfriend said,He was gone already,which He wasnt.So my Sister talks to Him and tells Him about our vaction,She explains that everything was set in motion,our plane ticket and our Disney Cruse.I didnt want to loose out on it,because,I put alot of money into it,so did my Boyfriend.Now I think about it,I dont want to go into work tommrow.But I have to face the music.I read in one of my friends here in J-land,Monea,sorry if I spelled your name worng.She was talking about,She had an embarssing moment.Well,I think this toped Hers.LOL.She tels Him that my Boss aid it was ok and that today,She tells me,I had to talk to Him and beg Him to go.He tells my Sister that everyhint should be ok,but He had to talk to my Boss.She isnt going to be happy with me.The thing is,my head Boss asked my Sister,why I didnt come and talk Him.now that I think about,I really hate myself for doing this.

Do you think everything will be ok tommrow?I think it will be ok,but I really feal bad about not going to Him and talking to Him.I can hear my Boss now.You cant handle things on your own,you have to get your Sis to help you do things.If She was in a bad mood today,She will be tommrow.I cant take it anymore.I o need to stand up for myself,I will talk to Him and tell Him that I am very shy when it comes to talk about things like this.My Bakery Manager will be like/I was going to talk to Him,and I didnt know my Sis was going to talk to Him.I am really upset with my Bakery Manager.I do alot for Her,go out of my way.But I know what will happend,She will lie,I think She will even lie about what told me.I am going to feel really stupid.I guess I will find out tommrow,what will happend.My Boyfriend says dont worry about it.I know my Bakery Manager will talk about me,She will probllay talkabout me behind me back.I can hear the other lady who works with us in the moring doing donuts,She wil be like,you are a big baby and cant hadle doing things on your own.if I have to,I will talk to my head Boss by Himself,not with my Bakery Mananger.I guess I am going to have to face the music.She can be so fake sometimes.Maybe I shouldnt say that.She even said to me the other day,talking about who is going to be presdient,I didnt sa anything,not going to.Shes voting for Obama,She said that Her and another lady who does cakes,because She is black and the cake lady is spanish,they are,I cant spell this word,mynoirty.I dont get into that stuff,I am tired of hearing it.I am not racist,I am the only white person back there.But I get along good with everyone and I like everyone.Dont get me worng.It just upset when She told me that.I was like,when She was saying,I said,dont get me involvd,because I said,I was voting for anyone.No one intrests me.I dont mean to offend anyone,that is not what I was trying to do.I think I need to get off of here and get some sleep.My stomach was hurting me so bad tonight at work,I felt like I wasnt going to make it,but I did.Ok,I think thats enough,I probllay talked your heads off.LOL.Anyways,have a good night,be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.I would like to know what all of your opions is on what happend to me at work.Thanks for barring with me.I will let you all know what happends tommrow.TaTa.

 

Weds Hapenings.

Hi all,

I hope everyone is having a good night.I am doing ok here,even thoe I am tottlay wiped out,tired,feel like sleeping for days.I guess I am glad to be back at work,for one good thing,I got my Health Insurance back,which only took 24 hours for it to get kicked back in.They have a new system when you punch in and punch out.You also have to take your own time card with you and done loose it,because if you loose it,you have to pay 10 dollors for another one.When you punch in and punch out,you have to put your index finger,kinda like getting finger printed.LOL.Which I think is a good thing,that way,people wont take other peoples time card by accident.If you have to stay a little later,the Manager has to punch you in,which I did today,I olny stayed one hour later.To be honest,I dont think I could ever work 8 hours,because,I sure did feel pain in my legs today.Because I had to pan everyday this week.Its hard,because you have to lift boxes up out of the cold freezer,which I shouldnt be in there in the first place.But its ok.Next time,I just know to wear long jeans.LOL.

I wish I was there right now,well,I actullay will be Sept 9th,for my Disney Cruise,which I am a little worried about asking my Boss of my Dapartment to let me off for just that week and I wont take anymore vactions till next year.LOL.So,please tell me,not to worry about it,because I am thinking I will get fired,which I probllay wont.Someone got fired today in our dapartment,because,for one thing She called out last night,but that wasnt it,She has been doing that alot of times.She worked with us before,got married an quit,than came back to us after She got a devorce,She than got married again and now is pregnat,but She isnt with the man,who doesnt even think He is the Father,kinda sad.You hear all kinds of drama.LOL.All in all,I am glad to be back at work,it sure does get my mind off of things.But I worry about the Doctor bills I need to pay on,which I am way behind.Do you all know anything about working with thoes people you see on tv that help people who are in debt?I was thinking about maybe looking into something like that who could help me payy off my Doctor bills.I worry about that all the time.I know I have bad credit all the time and it bites.Stresses me out all the time.I hate to ask my Dad for anything,even thoe I know He will always be there for me.Like I said,that stresses me out soooooooooo much.Now I forgot what I was going to say,hate when that hapends.LOL.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout

pics.

 

Felistiy is the youngest in my Brothers family over in London,that is Her younger Brother Jacob,oing school work.

Zack and Stephen oing School work,they have Hom School.Stephen in the brown shirt is the 2 oldest Son.Zack is the 3rd oldest.

Emily is the oldest in there family.

Sunays Happenings.

Hi everyone,

How are all of you doing?I hope you all are doing good.Me on the other hand,is tired.Yup,its a good tired,I cant belive I even said that.LOL.I think I am glad to be back at work,even thoe its still hard for me,which I do belive its getting better each day.But it does keep my mind off from worrying so much about everything.LOL.I am trying to take it one day at a time.When I am at work,I try so hard not to think of being in pain.one of my CO workers,always tell me,She says dont think of the pain,block it out,its not so easy to do.Do you all have any advice on how I can do that?Do you think that will really help for me to do,to try and block it out?I want to realy learn how to find some tapes on pain,like I think it was Jeannette Jotting who said it would do me some good,I think when I go to the Libray,I will find something on that.I think its time for me to stand on me own 2 feet and leanr how to have a pastive out look in life.

I would love to go and see my Arthitis doctor to ask Him what would help the swelling go down for my knees,because they are always swolen.The only thing is,I havent seen Him in a long time,wonder if He will see me again?I am worried about my Boyfriend,He hasnt been doing to good,I went back to work and  now Hes out,He maybe going back to work Tuesday.He has to get a tooth pulled on Tuesday,His first tooth being pulled.Than His foot got really swolen and He had to see a foot Doctor,He gets the gout every now and than,he also had to get some blood taken,because the foot doctor is worried,because He saw some red marks on His legs,I forgot what its called,I know it starts with a C.If you all could say a prayer for Him,I would be greatful.Ok,I am going to get off of here and go to bed.I think once my head hits the pillow,I will be alseep.LOL.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Weds Happenings

Hi everyone,

I hope you all are having a good evening.I am doing good here.My Second day at work was really hard,my first day went good.But my second day I felt like I was ready to pass out by the time I got off of work.It seems like when I start to hurting near the time I get off of work.I hope it starts getting easyer.I heard that it might take a while to get used to using my muscles,like my legs.I kinda like being back,gets my mind off of other things for a while.But I am only working 4 or 5 hours,that all I need.People tell me not to think of the pain,how can you not think of it?Do you all have any ideas?Because let me tell you,I am in pain by the time I get off of work and limping to the car.

I try to do little excerises when I am standing at work doing my job.Maybe I will start taking some Alieve.I wanted to asl you all if I should try to get on SSI,while I am still working?Maybe it would be a good idea to try to get on it,if  I do get on it,than maybe I can quit.Just a thought.One good thing I have is I called my Union about my Health Insurance,told them that it kicked out in July and I was bak at work,they said it only takes a few days to kick back,which I thought would take a few weeks,which I am glad it only takes 2 days.That way I can still go to the Doctors and get looked at,which I need to do before my vaction.I am hoping they will still let me go,I know I am not susposed to really have it,because I been out for so long.But we will see.Who wants to go in my place?LOL.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Being my first day back,was rough.I did good thoe.

everyone,

I hope you all is having a good day.I am,well,being my first day back at work,was tough,but I did a good job.Right now,I am hurting some,but it is my firt day and I havent used some of my muscles,so,it will probllay be rough for the next few days.To be honest,I was doing good till about 9:00,than I started to saying to myself,I dont think I can do this.I tryed to keep thinking good thoughts.I did sit down 2 times,one time I sat down and got up,I didnt sit down long enough,so,my Boss told me to sit down for 20 munites with my legs proped up,which helped.So my first day was good.

Than when I went to clock out,which I didnt have to because they had to do it manullay,tommrow I have to get finger printed.LOL.No,I am not going to jail.LOL.WHen I went outside to wait for my Dad to pick me up,I was hoping the meat man who works in the meat dapartment wouldnt say anything,because He saw me limping when I went to sit down and when I went to get into the car,He saw me that I was having a hard time.I will tell you this,I cant work no more than 4 hours,thas all I can,by the last hours,I was hurting.We will see how the rest of the week goes and specillay tommrow.Thank you all for thinking of me and praying for me.I can already feel its not going tobe easy and I am kinda doubting myself.Dont get me worng,I did very good at work with getting everything done,which susprises me,but standing upf or that long of a time,even thoe its only 4 hours,is hard.I am now just resting my legs,so, I am going to get off of here and rest.Have a good day all and the rest of the week.I will probllay be back tpmmrow and let you al know how it goes.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Going back to work.

Hi everyone,

I hope you all is having a good one.I am doing ok here.Well,gues whos going back to work tommrow?Yup,me.It feels like my first day back.LOL.I am a little nervous,thinking if I dont make it.Because its been a while for me standing up for thoes long hours.Well,I will only be working 4 hours and I have 2 days off.We shall see how I do.I have Wed and Sat off.Even thoe my Sister was saying the other night when my Sister and Her family came to dinner,She was saying that I probllay wont be working for to long and She is probllay right.I wonder if I could still try and go for SSI?Anyways,I need to get to some things done before I head to bed about 8.I have to be at work,bright and early.I work from 6 to 11.I hope you all have a nice night.I will let you all know how it goes tommrow.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

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My Brother and His family who are Missonarys in London,Dady is taking the picture.

Can you see how windy it is over in London?

My oldest Brother,Dadys little girl.

Having fun.

 

In memory of the king of Rock -N- Roll,Elvis.

He was and still to this day,the king of Rock -N-Roll.I might have been little to remember the day Elvis died,but I know our house was always filled with His music and we watched His movies.My oldest Brother was a huge fan.My Mom and Dad was going to take Him to see Elvis,and my parents got see Him one last time before He died.But even today,His memory still lives.Elvis will be missed.

                                 

Weds Happeings.

How is everyone?I hope you all are having a good week,I guess you call it a Hump week?LOL.I dont know if thats right.I am hning in there.My Boss picked me up at my house and took me to my Doctors,So She could talk to the Doctor and get the note right,the note to releave  me from being out.So we get the note and took it up to my work so the head Boss could clear it.The head Boss of the stoor said He would look at it,because the asst. manager had it.But the head Boss said He would have to send it to the main office.So,now I am thinking there could be  problem.For one thing the head Boss was shaking His head like I cant come back to work.So I am not to sure if they wnt me to come bck to work,even my Boyfriend thinks they dont wnt me back.My Boss in the bakery wants me back.She knows that I am  good worker.What do you all think might happend,do you think they want me back?

I know my Dad doest want me to go back and in a way I dont want to go back.Anyways,I am getting tired and I am going to go to bed.I hope you all have a nice nightBe safe and kool out there.Peace out.Do you all remember the movie War Games?I love that movie.I think I went to see that movie with my oldest Brother.

Fridays Happenings.

Hi everyone,

I hope you all is having a good Friday.I am hangin in there.Maybe you all can help me out some.I dont know what i am really doing anymore.I am not back at work and I dont think I am going back and I dont think my Stoor wants me back.I dont even know what I am saying anymore.I thought my Asst Manager of the stoor was going to help me out when She said She was going to call my Doctor to get a note so I wouldnt have to see Him since I dont have any Health Insurance.But I dont think that is turning out good.She was susposed to call me back,never did.To be honest with you all,I dont want to go back,than again,maybe I should have gone back along time ago.But than I am thinking,maybe this is susposed to turn out this way,me not going back to work.I need to do something now,if they tell me I need to be Rehired,than Iam not going back to work,after working so many years and getting 16 an hour.It just seems like no one is working with me.

So,what do you think it sounds like?I cann tell you right now I am out of all of my medicine.I never thought it would come down to this.Now my Boss of my Dapartment wants me back,She tells Gary that She wants me back.I really think I dont have a job and I feel like I did mess that up.I try to tell myself,things could be alot worse.I mean,I know I have a roof over my head and people who love me,but I have no Job and have no Health insurance.I just dont know what to do.I dont want to always be worrying about everything.I want to be happy,find something I love.If I am not going back to work,whih I dont want to.Because it sounds like no one wants too help me.Than I need to get things going,get on SState Health Insurance and go for SSI.thank you all for listning to me complain.I know,it always seems like I am complaning.I just hope things will get better.Be safe and kool out there.I also worry because I have bills comming through from my co pay.Peace out.I feel like this is a strugel that I am going through.Will it get better?I also feel like this is what I am susposed to do,so I can do more,help people.What do you think?

feellings.

Hi everyone,

I hope all is good.I am hanging in here.The days,they get so lonly and I dont know what to do.I am very ad and feel very alone right now.I know what I need to do about work,I need to make an app to see my Doctor so I can go back to work and get my health Insurance back.My head is filled with so many sad emtions.I feel right now I am in a bad place and dont know how to get out of it.I have no money to pay my bills,Doctor bills,no insurance.But Monday Will call my Doctor,go into see Him and get a Doctors note.

To be honest with you,I have no clue what I am doing with my life.I know the days are so lonly for me,the nights are ok.Today I was very depressed,I didnt do anything and didnt feel like doing anything,so I just stayed in my room.I didnt used to be like this when I was in Highschool.I had a life,I had funI didnt have a care in the world.But now I feel like my life is one big mess.Why can I find something in my life to be happy about?Will this strugel in my life end?Will  find peace again?Its like I cant win with my life.I want to have some fun and I feel like I dont even know what that.I am scared that I feel like I am falling apart.I cant see my Shrink becaue I dont hav the money.Yes,right now I hae my life.Ihate being 36,when will it get better?

So I ask you,can I find a peace in my world that will make me happy?I know its mind over matter.I just want to know how does everyone know how to find things in life to entertain you.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

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