Hsppy 4th of juliy everyone

Hi all,

       I just want to say that I hope everyone has a safe and Happy 4th of july.I know there will be alot of fun activities for everyone this weekend.I just want all of my family,friends,my J-land buddies also to be safe but most of all to have fun with your loved ones.This is the time to be with your love ones,share the past good memories,share new memories.Not sure what my family has instoor this week,but we usllay have a family get together on the 4th and its alot of fun,just being around family and the kids.And I sure will be thinking of my brother and HIs family over in London.I do miss them alot.So everyone out there please be safe,most of all,have fun and enjoy!!!GOd bless you all and I love you all.Peaceout.

Worried for Tiffany

Hi all and good moring to all,I have something that I would like to talk about that needs a little,okay,alot of attention right now.I am so worried about a coworker of mine,She is just a youngin,only 25,She has alot of problems and needs alot of help and prayer.I dont like using the word retarted,so,maybe I will say She is mentilay changel.She will never admit She is slow.Shes had alot of  bad things happening to Her.I want to help Her,but only so much I can do to help Her.She would never go into a group home,because She doesnt think She needs it and I think She needs it,it would be good for Her to be around people like Her.I know its sad to say,but what can I say,but its the truth,that She needs it.I want to sit down with Her and talk to Her about what She needs and what would be good for Her and make Her happy.Because She isnt happy,She is sad,She is depressed,She doesnt have a good family life that works with Her or helps Her.She didnt have good parents like I do to help Her.And maybe its none of my buisness to say anything,but,She listens to me.I try to do the best I can for Her,have Her over,spend the night.Because She doesnt get to have much fun in tiffanys life,that is Her name.I think the best thing for Her is could be a good group home,but,maybe I am worng.I know its probllay not my place to say.But someone needs to sit down with Her who knows more than I do,to help Her.She is a new christian,who doesnt understand alot of things.She is slow,of course,I am slow and I admit that.I know another person who I work with,Her Mom works with special needs like Tiffany and I wish She would talk to Her.Because She really needs a good happy life and I want so much for Her.Because right now,She is in a bad place.I jus wanted to share this with all of you and maybe get some feedback.I need to get off of here and get cleaned up for work.I may have Her spend the night with me tonight,all depending.Hope you all have a wonderful day.Be safe.Peace out.

 

finally feeling better

Hi everyone,

             I can actullay say,I feel so much better than I have in a very long time.It is a blessing.I actullay had a good night sleep.After seeing my doctor yesterday,helped alot.It helps to talk about things and get them out.I dont think its a bad thing.I am taking a new medicine which is helping.So,things are looking better,I am so glad.I am not so depressed,stressed or tensed.I am even going to start trying to face my fears,which my doctor wants me to.You know my parents are so prective of me,even at the age of 34.I probllay dont even act like I am 34,but,I am,I was born on May 13 1972.lol.Anywyas,I have lots to do before heading to work soon.Hope you all have a good day.Love you all.Peaceout.

And the beat goes on

Okay,I feel like I need to be sorry for complaining so much lately.I just been in a rut.Tommrow,I am going to talk to my thereapsty and see my doctor after words.Yes,I am 33 and I guess its good to see one.Sometimes I wonder if it helps.I been so depressed and feel like I am not getting anywere with anything.So what is worng with me?So if yal have any advice out there or anything to ask my doctor,sure would like to know.Thanks,have a good week ahead.Peaceout.

Trying to figure it all out,hoping I will get three someday

Hi all,good moring,hope everyone is doing fine.I am headed off to work soon.I really need to get myself out of this rut I am feeling,how do you do it?I know I been sounding like such a complainer,full of doubtness and that is not the person I want to become.I dont know how people do it,how they can be so happy,full of life and zest,like my sister.She is a good and wonderful person,has so much love for the Lord.My sister is truly blessed,She has 3 wonderful kids.She is a good Mom.I just dont know were my life is right now or were I would like it to be.Just hope I can figure it all out.Anyways,I better get off of here and wait for my Dad to come back and take me to work.You all have a blessed day.Hugs to all.Peace out.

and so it goes on

Hey guys,hows it going?I hope all is having a good weekend.I am having a good weekend,even thoe,I am feeling a little tensed in my shoulders,mayb because I am feeling stressed,just so much to worry about,and I know its not a good hting to worry about things,but how do you just stop worrying about it all?Its my constance battle in my life,I think I get it from my Mom.lol.I mean,really,how do you just let it all go and start having some fun in your life?I know I have alot to be thankful for,I am blessed beyond blessed,but,yeah,theres a but in there.lol.I do have someone to talk to about things like this,but I have only been seeing for a few times,which I am making some progress.All in all,I just hope somehting good comes out of it.I am seeing a counslor.Nothing worng with that.I just dont udnerstand why right now,I feel so tebsed and stressed out from worrying,worrying about bills,I dont have alot of em,but still worrys me.DO I sound like I am a complainer,I guess I do.That is not what I want to sound like.But I cant lie and say I am happy,which I am still trying to figure that out.I have a good family who lvoes me,a good boyfriend who lvoes me,who is always there fo me for what ever the reason.Anyways,I will stop there.Will see you all later.Peace out.

Thinking about things

Thursday

Good moring all,well,it feels like a gloomy day today for me,even thoe the sun is out.All I feel like doing is sleeping all day long,dont know why.Havent felt like that in a long time.Well,havent felt like sleeping like that anyways.I guess I am feeling depressed today.Writting in my journal helps me to get my feelings out and listen to other peoples advice.I cant understand why the life of me,I cant move on,let it all go,live my life and be happy.I have so  much in my life to be happy for.I am so blessed beyoned blessed,but,I guess there is still alot missing in my own life I need to get in order,which scares me more than anything.One thing that keeps me back is my fears,I just dont understand that.I want to be strong,face my fears head on,but I cant.When I see my doctor Monday,I will talk to Him about it.Maybe He can help me.There has to be a reason why I am on this earth,why God has me hear.I would love to get back into church to.But I dont know.I know that I am a christian and that I am saved and God loves me.I am not perfect,I made alot of mistakes in my life.I cant keep staying back here,I have to move forward,just dont know how to do that yet.Anyways,I need to get off of here,get cleaned up before heading off to work.Thank you all for listning and for you wodnerful advice.One more thing,I think I am going to take the time later with my journal,fix some thigns in here and just keep on writting my feelings and thoughts out.Because if it helps,than that is a good thing.Yes,no?

a poem

 

This is a poem from my couisn Shellys,a friend of HErs from a long time ago.

 

Personalize your message here....Personal Paper Air-Plane

 

    I am your personal air-plane that glides to different winds.  I fly to know that we are the best of friends.  You throw me high so I may glide, but yet to fall and hear your soft sigh.

 

    You walk along the grassy land, and pick me up to take a different wind.  I may stay up longer than before, as you stand to watch me fly and soar.

 

    Oh, shall I find an ever wind, that I won't have to fall again?

 

    I am your personal air-plane that glides to different winds.  I fly to know that we are the best of friends.  You throw me high so I may glide, but yet to fall and hear your faint sigh.

 

    Oh, how I wish you could stay by my side, to run along and watch me glide.  Your friendship I want to be mutual, forever and always so full.

 

    You keep me in the air when you're by my side, I float on a cloud as I fly.  You show me God's grace as you help me in this world that I must face.

 

    You've been so helpful, yet so far away, I wish you could be here, be here to stay.

 

    It's a windy season, when I fall that's the reason.  Too many things can build up inside, all this can shake me when I glide.  That's why I wish you could stay by my side, to keep me still as I fly.

 

    I know you can't always be there to pick me up where you have thrown me.  I understand, can't you see.  It's a dream I hope will come true, 'cause you're a dear friend.  I love you.

 

Mark McConnell - 198?

thank you veryone,online buddies and j-land buddies

Hi all,Happy Monday to everyone.Its been a good day.I just wanted to take a moment to all my online buddies and to all of my j-land buddies for all the nice comments you all have left.I was thinking about that today at work and just wanted to drop a line,wanted you all to know how much you mean to me.Your like my own family.I am a newbie in j-land,I love it,I love getting to know diffrent people and what there lifes are like.I just want to say that my j-land are very special to me.Thank you all so much,all of you!!!Sometimes I feel like deleting this journal and starting over,because I dont think it fits me.lol.But I think I will keep it.I guess its a part of me.Anyways,I just got home from work,I need to take a shower,wash my hair,thinking aobut taking a nap,or maybe just watching a dvd,than again,I will probllay fall alseep.God bless you all,have a wodnerful day,I love you all

Letting it hang loose

Hi all,hope eveyrone had a nice Fathers day!!!We will probllay have a quiet family dinner tommrow night,but,not so sure about that.But I did get my Dad 2 nice shirts and some socks.Which He can always use.I know Hes probllay been going through alot right now,going through the loss of my Grandma,but,She is in no more pain.I know She is in heaven.He went up to the house Pa,to get ready for the auction,which that is roguh,He could use some preayers.My Dad isnt saved,He doesnt know the Lord,and I want Him so much to know the Lord and be saved.I am n ot close with my Dad,I am more close with my Mom.But I know my Dad loves me and will always be there for me.Dont know why its hard to talk to my Dad,we have never ever talked.But I do know,He will always be there.But enough about that.So many things been going through my mind lately,dont know were to begin.How do you know when to let your past go?How do you know how to be happy?What is happy,what does it mean?I guess I been doing tsome thinking,which I am always thinking,but,neever seem to get anyhting done.I hae so many fears in my life,I want to stop being so scared.I know some people say I will never get married,I will never do this or do that.Which makes me mad.But I guess I need to let all that go.Just dont know how,it is hard.How do you see the good things in life,in your own life?How do you make the life around you better for yourself?I strugle with so much.I am 33 years old,still living with my parents,I dont drive,but,I do have a good job,with good insurances,I have a good boyfriend who is always there for me and lvoes me and will do anything for me.But still feel theres so much mising in my life.I guess I come to relize that this is really bothering me and I need to let it all out.The best way to do that is here.I love J-land,as oters may call it,journal land.lol.It has helped me,getting my feelings out.Getting to know other people and what they have been through.Sometimes I feel like nothing is going to ever change,that this,my life,will stay this way.I dont want to feel that way.I do feel like I am holding onto the past,which I hate.I feel like alot of people in my life dont know the person I am,the good person,I am.I will stop here and come back later.Peace out.

Happy Fathers Day to all and to the Moms who are dadys also!!!

Dancing With Daddy (Happy Fathers Day)Just want to say a Happy Fathers Day to all of you and to all of you Moms out there to!!!Enjoy your day,cherish this day and all of the memories.God bless xxx and ooos

Moments in life

 

MOMENTS IN LIFE

There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one,
which has been opened for us.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling..
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

Don't count the years-count the memories...........

What a day!!!

Hi all,its been a while since I been here,so I thought I would drop a line and see how everyone is doing.Yes,that is a pic of Me!!!Not a very good one.lol.That is me and my neice,isnt She a cutie?I love being an aunt.I love all of my little racles.tommrow night should be fun,if I am in the mood I willsit down and make some beaded jewrley for my neices who will be spending tommrow night after church with Grandma,Grandpa and of course me.I think I will take some pics,dont know if I should use my cell pic phone or my digtal camra.lol.But anyways,it should be fun.today wasnt much fun thoe.I am such a clux,okay,so you all know I dont know how to type.lol.I fell at work today,I am fine,my bad knee is a little sore.But I am ok.I was just trying to get everything done before I got off of work and I was rushing,and didnt know what happend till I landed on the floor.lol.Box went flying.lol.My shoulder is sore to.But I am alive.lol.It is my boss who needs prayer for HEr family,She lost a son yesterday,He was killed.Dont know all the details.But I would be greatful if all of you out there could say a prayer.Thank you soooooooo much.She is a good person with a good heart.It is sad.Well,I am going to get off of here for a while,I think I need to rewash my hair.lol.You all have a good night and will talk with you more later.I love you all.

Just thinking about things

Hi all,I have a question for you all.We all have are own ways of letting go of our own stress from our daily lives.What do you all do to let go of that?Just been thinking about things lately,been dealing with alot and wanted to know what you all think,so,I would love some advice or anyhting.Thanks.

At times,this is were I really want to be.lol.

I  love this pic of me,an on line friend made it for me.It always reminds me of always wanting to be on a tropical island all by myself.lol.Sometimes I want to be there.lol.You all have a nice night,I am tired,its been a long day and I am ready to go nity nite.lol.Can you tell,I am tired?lol.Peace out.

My Grandparents when they were young

 

 

 

Hi all,wanted to share this pic.This is a pic of my grandparents.I cant belive they were that young.lol.My Grandad had been gone for a long time,how ever my Grandma just passed away this year.Wonder why She doesnt look so happy?lol.Its just amazing to look at pics like that.They were holding one of my uncles.

 

Happy Birthday to my boyfriend!!!

Happy Birthday Gary!!!!!Hi everyone,I have a question for all of you.tommrow is my boyfriends birthday.I wanted to do something crafty,but,not sure what I wanted to do.I know its kinda late to do this.Hes not much for sweets,he likes pies,usllay I get Him a ice cre

am cake,but,this time,I bought Him a apple pie.he loves that.But if all have any ideas on something fast for a crafty idea.Let me know.He is a great,wonderful boyfriend and understands I dont have alot of money.He said I dont have to get Him anything,but,I did,I am going to get Him a few things.He wants a fan,so,thats one thing I want to gte Him.But I want to show Him how much I love Him and that He is a blessing in my life.So I want to do somehting craft.Thanks.His name is Gary.He just done so much for me and for my family.Would be much thankful if you all have any ideas.Have a wodnerful weekend.Love you all.Happy birthday GAry I love you.To bad He doesnt have a puter,so He wont see this.lol.

TIGF AGAIN

TGIF!!!!!Its Friday again.lol.Which means,its payday again.lol.I am sooooooooo glad about that.I am broke.lol.I hope you all have a great weekend.I am going back to bed for a little bit.I had to go get my stiches out this moring,had to be at the dentist at 8:30.My teeth are doing so much better and I feel alot better about myself.Its been a long haul,but,I am almost done!!!!!!!!WooooooooHoooooooooooo.I have to be at work at 12,so,I am going to take a little nap before I have to get ready.Hope you all have a wodnerful weekend,I lvoe you all and please,be safe out there!!!!!!Peace out!!!!!!!!!!!

update on my new teeth

Hi all,

Hope all is having a good day.I am great with my teeth now.lol.Well,actullay,I been kinda keeping them out,I need to leave them in,I been doing it off and on.So I can get used to them.Tommrow I go get my stiches out.Blk I am taking you with me to the dentist!!!!!!!lol.Just thought you wanted to know.Hope you are feeling better with that crown.I think I been pigging out so much lately because I havent been able to eat regular food.lol.It is so funny.But all in all,I am doing wonderfully well.I am amazed with myself.lol.Hope you all have a good week and weekend.Tommrow is TGIF!!!!!!!!WoooooooooHoooooooo.Which also means payday.Thank goodness,because I am totlay broke.lol.Peaceout.And I just want to say thanks to everyone for thinking of me going through my teeth.lol.You know who you are.Love you all.Thank you also Blum!!!!!

From Pooh Bear Himself.lol.

This is from pooh Bear Himself.lol.

Make new friends,but keep the old.One is silver,And the others gold.Like a circle,which has no end,birds and bees,can make good friends!!!! I love you all!!!Wanted to add this link,its a good site with alot of pooh bear stuff.Enjoy!!!I love Pooh Bear and friends!!!

Pooh the Bear - A site about Winnie the Pooh and friends