Its me again,
Could you all say a prayer for my Mom,She is really sick and I am worried about Her.I am not going out today.I am going to stay home and take care of Her.I wasnt planning n going out today anyways. think I will cal my Boyfriend before He gets off of work and ask Him to bring some jello and some soup for my Mom.I know He will do that.He is such a good guy.Peaceout.
Good moring all,
I hope you all are having a good one.I am having a good one here.Even thoe I did a whole entry and a long one,I went to save it and it didnt save it.So I had to start over again.I hate when that happends.I am going to do what alot of you all do.I am going to copy and paste my entrys from now on to an email and if that happends again,I know I will have it and wont have to rewrite another entry.Like I am doing now.Bummer.Lets seeif I can remember what I want to say.LOL.Maybe this one wont be as long.Than again I dont know.LOL.
I am about to end this entry and go back to sleep.I seem to be having aol problems.Uuuuuuuug.I did sleep ok last night,even thoe I got up a few times during the night to go to the bathroom.I been up for a while now.But I will go back to sleep this moring.Toay I really need to get some things done.I am going to force myself to clean my bathroom and to clean my room rather I want to do it or not,I have to.Even thoe its not that really bad.But I still need to strighten up some.But I do need to get into my bathroom,that is a major thing I have to do today.I have to do some laundry.It is piling up.LOL.
Ok,I want to get this out,its been weighing on my mind alot lately.I dont know how to stop thinking about this one coworker,thinking that I am always doing something worng,when I am off or when I get off of work,even when my Boss says I did a good job,I still feel like I done something worng,even when I havent,I feel like She is going to write me up.Why do I always feel like that?IS LIKE MY Boss to;d me somehting last week.She told me I shouldnt be walking on egg shells around this person.I do.When I am home,I am always thinking about work,thinking I have done something worng to get written up.It drives me crazy,makes me feel depressed.Am I crazy?I need to do some changing in my life to make my life better about myself.I just dont know how to do that.I dont know if I am always saying that in my entrys or not.Do you all think I am stupid?Ok,now I feel bad.Maybe I should just end this entry and go back to sleep.But somehting is telling me I need to get this out.
You all always seem to have good advice and you all know how to encourge me and let me know I am a good person.I thank you all for always being there for me.if it wasnt for this Journal and J-land,I wouldnt know what I would do without you guys in my life.It helps me alot to get things out.It helps to know I have good caring people out there like you all.I just want you all to know how Greatful I am for you all in my life.There is alot of things I need to do today.I want to search on line and maybe you all could help me on this one.I dont know how I can go about to look for some type of classes to help me learn how to deal with being not stressed out and depressed all the time.I know my Mom would tell me,that talking and praying to God is the answer and going back to church is the answer.I know She is right and I do need to do that,thats another thing,I dont understand why I dont do that.I used to go to church all the time and I loved it.But I stoped going.I dont know if it is the church I was going to or not.My whole family is into church.My Brother and His family are Missornays.The only one if my family who doesnt attend church is my one other Brother and my Dad.My Dad,does need to be saved.I do pray for Him all the time to be saved to know God in His heart.That is what I want for Him.I know I am a beliver and I know I have God in my heart.I will admit that I do doubt,I dont know why.If I would die today,I do doubt that I would be scared to die.Sometimes,I think that,is there really a heaven and a hell?I know there is,but,I do also doubt there isnt.Is that werid I think of that or what?am I nuts?You all tell me what is the answer.Anyways,I am going to go get some cearle and go back to sleep.I hope you all have a nice day out there.I know this is kind of long.Sorry about that.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.
Hi all,
I hope you all is having a good evening,I am doing good here.work was good for me.Even thoe,I feel like I am falling apart.My left knee is still ver swolen and sore,when I walk down stairs,I have to sit on my butt and walk down.Dad thinks its because I havent taken my shot,but its not,its from when I fell in Sears a few weeks ago.This has happend to me before,when I fall,they swell up pretty bad.I been taking my Ibprofin,but doesnt seem to help.I probllay should go see my Arthitis Doc,but I dont like to go see Him.LOL.I dont.He makes me nervous.But I do need to see Him,it has been a while,even since I have cancled so many apps.
My left hand has been bothering me,seems thoe as my finger tips,have been very numb since yesterday,they wont stop feeling that way,feels very werid.I can still work and everything,but,they just feel werid.You know how when a part of your body falls alseep?Thats how they been feeling.I rub them,even put them under water,nothing seems to help.Man,like I said,I feel like I am just falling apart.Oh well,I guess life goes on.I also feel like I been in a rut,I feel fine when I am at work or out with my Gary,than when I come home,I dont feel like doing anything,and I know things need to get done.All I been wanting to do is lay in bed and watch tv.So is somehting worng with me or what?Hod you get out of a rut?Anyways,I am going to try and get some things done here.I am going to go check on my Mom to,Shes been sick.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.
Hi all,
Man,I been so lazy today,just doing nothing really.I guess sometimes you need a lazy day.LOL.I have been thinking about joining some type of classes,maybe it will be good for me to.Not sure yet,thoe.I was thinking,maybe they have some classes about stressed or being depresed.I do want to try and also get out more.I need to do that.But today,it was just nice to do a bunch of nothing.I will be back later.
Good moring all,
I hope you all are having a good moring.I am doing ok.I slept better last night,even thoe when I woke up early this moring,I belive it was only one time I went to the bathroom and when I got out of my bed,I couldnt walke,because of my knee being to swolen.I had to hold onto things to walk to the bathroom.Than I came back to bed and stayed there.Well,I am still here and its after 11.LOL.I took 1 and a half of Ib Profin to help the sweeling go down,I hope it does.Because I have to work tommrow.My right hand still feels funny,like numbnss.Ok,I know,I am falling apart.LOL.
I am glad I am off today,I wasnt even thinking about going into work today.I am just going to chill out.Ii may go back to sleep for a while.I am still in my pjs.LOL.I guess today is going to be a lazy day for me.Gary is working all day so I wont get to see Him today,maybe tommrow.I know I nned to clean myself up,take a shower,I think I will do that before I lay down.I know sometime today,I have to clean my room and do some laundry.Nothing else going on today,unless Mom wants go out after the kids are gone.We always have the kids over on Sats while my Sister and Her Husband are visiting for church.
I do want to talk about this one co worker who really gets on my nerves.I know we all probllay have one of them like that.I have to be honest,all of us that work together in my Bakery,dose not like Her.I dont think She is happy with Her ownself.She never has anything good to say about anyone.She thinks She is always right.Well,I got news for Her She isnt.One day,what do you do about it?I try to ignore it and not let it get to me.She is this one person,that even when I am not working,I wonder if I did somehting worng at my job.How do you not let your job get to you?Anyways,I am going to get off of here and get a few things done.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.
Good moring all,
I hope everyone is having a good moring.I am doing pretty good right now,despite how my knee and my hands are feeling.I guess I was so tired when I came home from work,all,I did was take a bath,went to bed,i didnt even really eat dinner.For some reason,I wasnt to hungry.Even thoe I am a little hugnry now.LOL.I slept some better,even thoe,I kept waking up every hour and having to go to the bathroom.Dont ask me why.But let me tell you,somehting werid that I never felt was going on with my left hand.It felt really numb and it is swolen now,but it felt so werid,that I couldnt even feel it.I didnt like the feeling.its a little better this moring.I think when I did to much at work my hands dont to good,since I have arthitis,among other things.LOL.
My Boss told me a really nice thing yesterday,it really means alot to me,because I dont think to highly of myself and She was telling me,that I am Her favorite person out of the whole bakery,I am like a Sister to Her,it made me feel good to know that.I do know that I am special and alot of people care for me,but,just to hear it like that,really means alot.You all know what I mean.She was telling me,that She is concerned about me and She thinks I dont take good care of myself,She knows I worry about my parents alot.She wants me to take care of myself and to have fun in my life.I guess I dont know how to do that.Ok,getting off the subject,I hope I will be able to work today,I think I can do it,I only have 5 hours and I hope I dont have to stay any longer.Yesterday I had to pan and go into the freezer,today I dont have to.Anyways,its almost about that time to leave.I hope you all have a nice start of the weekend.I will catch up on alerts later tonight.I am off tommrow.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.
Good moring all,
I hope everyone is having a good day today.I hav to get up because I was called into come into work a little early and leave it 7.Oh well,guess I could use the money.But I am a little tired,I ddint sleep to good last night.I went to bed at my regular time and woke up at 12,didnt go back to sleep till almost 3 in the moring.Yes,thats late for me,the latest I have stayed up in a very long time.LOL.Well,maybe I will sleept good tonight.I just felt like sleeping in all day today till I went in later to work,but,they want me to come in early,because someone called out.It usllay goes by fast,when you have alot to do and I am sure when I go in there today,I will have alot to do.I just hope I dont have to pan.I rather bag bread and close up than pan,go into the freezer,but,I will do it if I have to.Its just my right kneed isnt doing to well right now,its vrey swolen and it kinda hurts.Its been hard for me to get up when I am sitting or laying in bed.I hope I dont have any problems tommrow moring because I have to be at work at 8 in the moring,so,I have to get up early.I will just come home this evening and go stright to bed.Come home,take a bath,eat dinner and go right to bed.I hope I dont have to stay longer tommrow.Anyways,I better get off of here and get cleaned up.I hope you all have a good day.be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.
