Confused

Good evening,

                    Hope its a better one for you all than it is me.I thought I would do an entry before I get really,really tired after cleaning out my storage.I must say,I had alot of unwanted stuff in there.lol.But I have alot I saved onto Pb.It took a few days to get rid of em.I am still not done yet.But let me tell you about today.Remember I told you that I was going out with my boyfriend after going out with my Mom.But that never happend,as when I got home,I had a message on the house phone saying they messed up and I was susposed to be working today.SO,I didnt go out with Him,I went stright into work.As I was going into my dspartment,I didnt even see my boyfriend,I always think Hes in the back doing somehting,So He was out front putting up some kind of fruit and His boss was staning with Him.Gary,my boyfriend said hey,were you going and I said,I am going to work.I was in a rush so I just went into work.My boyfriends boss is so nosy and my boyfriend,Gary is so senative.I dont know what is really going to happend tommrow,to be honest,I dont know if I even want to speak to Him right now.He is thinking I dont love Him anymore,I dont apprictea Him anymore,I know,I spelled it worng.He came and said goodbye to me,which He didnt look to happy.He asked me,you dont love me anymore,I am like,if I didnt love you,I wouldnt keep on rining up marriage.And that was the ticker.Let me back up a munite.He calls me at work,jsut as soon as I am finishing up cleaning.It all happend fast when I talked to Him on the phone,no wait,He was like,I pushed Him off and didnt even bother to care about comming over to say hello.I always do,I always come over and say Hi,and when I am in a rush to get to work,He knows.I dont know what really happend on the phone,because it all happend so fast.I have a feeling,it doesnt look good.So may things going through my mind.i think He is a big baby.I love Him,I care about Him and want only the best for Him.But on the phone,He was like,whats the deal,you dont even love me anymore,because of His stupid boss getting into our business,told Gary that was rude of me,when I didnt come over and said hello.Sometimes,I am just in a hurry.I didnt even see Him there,He said thats not true,I saw Him.But I didnt.oh,let me tell you this,this is what I am so upset about.I got to start talking about marriage,I was like,you dont even want to get married.He said,no,I dont want to get married.Than He was like,so,whats going to happend,like its all on me and I have to make a choise.So,I said,I see,I got my answer,than hung up the phone.I dont know what I want to do.Sometimes it takes a day for us to make up.But I just have this feeling,that maybe I kew along,that its not going to work out.I dont know.I dont want to think that.if we happend to take a break or even break up,Hes going to think I take advanaged of Him,because He has helped me so much with alot of things.Between you and I.I am ready to let go to see if He really loves me and would marry me.But He will always throw in my face,you only wanted me for money.I am confsued.I am seriously thinking of just letting it go.But I do love Him.If Hes not ready to settle down and get married,well,were does that lead me?aot of times,wehn we have our spit spats,we are fine the next day,but tommrow I dont.Anyways,I am tired,just want to crawl in bed and go to sleep.Hope you have a good night rest.Be safe and peaceout.

Its Monday?Oh Boy!!!

Good moring all,

             How is everyone today?I hope you all are doing well.I am doing pretty good here.Looks like another gloomy day,with little rain.I am getting ready to go out with my Mom for a while.I figure,I should go out with Mom and give some of my time with HEr without complaining.lol.Ok,yes,sometimes I may get erritaed.But I relized,She needs me company and shes not going to be around forever.You all know what I mean.I even got up early this moring around 7 and thats early for me.lol.I got on here,check my mail and started cleaning out my aol storage again.I had another question,but cant remember what it was about storage.If I remember,I will ask later.I am also going out with my boyfriend later about 2.So,I have a full day.WoooooooooHoooooooo.Still kinda upset about work and the hours being cut back,I think it may get a little better during the Holidays.Alot is changing,I will explain later.I just have to keep on praying things will get better,well,start to pray,I know I been reall bad about doing that.Anyways,I better get off of here and get going.Mom is almost ready to leave.She was telling me last night the whole church prayerd dor my Brother over in London,He is really having a hard time right now.I hope you all have a good Monday.I will be back later.I wanted to do the Monday moring question,but forgot.I am in a rush.Be safe and peaceout.God is always with you,even thoe it may seem like He isnt.

Its just to much stuff on my puter.lol.I have a long ways to go.lol.

Good evening yal,

               Hope everyone is having a good night.I am doing pretty good here myself.I have a little worrys,but,not to big to worry about,thats just me.lo.l.I wanted to do an Entry,before Dad calls me for dinner and I need a break from being online.lol.We are having one of them already made chicken,I think coleslaw and something else,so,I am hungry.I been going through my pictures and graffics,man,I didnt relize how much stuff I had in there,not just from my graffics.I think it is helping alot,because,its alot easy getting online now.But what I want to know is,what I been doing is,saving all of what I want onto photo Bucket,than deleting them,than deleting them from the recyle bin.That should work,right?I hope so,because,man,I just cane belive I had so much stuff.Alot of it is Hawloeen stuff.lol.But I am keeping all of them,all of the graffics,most of the stuff,just the stuff that I dont need,I am deleting.But other than I am ok.I am had a pretty good day today.I am off tommrow.I took advantage of taking a nap today,which I haven done that in a long time and it felt good.I feel like the engernize bunny.lol.I am still not happy about the hours being cut,but everyones hours are bring cut.Things are diffrent.But will make a not to tell my Boss,I am not working late on Thanksgiving and She should better know that.lol.Anyways,all the stoors close at 6.he day after Thanksgivng,is a slow day.lol.I want to work early Thanksgiving,and I will work Fri and Sat.I dont mind that.I did get to work early today,so,that was good.Why do always stress out about so much in life?I am kinda looking forward to Christmas a little bit,just dont like shoping.Mom and everyone else goes all out for the grandkids,I dont have to and they know I dont have alot of money.But the kids are happy anyways.They only get one gift from me.My Mom goes all out for them.Shes the Grandma.This week,I will be doing some stuff around the house.I kinda wish we was in a smaller house.But,I am happy were I am at,till I get married.lol.Anyways,I am going to get off of here and take a break for a while.Who knows,I maybe on here all night.I dont know.lol.When the puter was upstairs,I was on there all night long,that was way back,way back.lol.Anyways,have a good night all,till I see you again.Be safe and peaceout.

Getting things done.Hope it stays that way.

Goodnight all,

                    I really need to get off of here and hit the hay.lol.I been on here for a while.I hope you all have a goodnight sleep.I have to get up early for a change.Lets see how well I will do.lol.I have to be at work at 8,well,I am going in with my boyfriend at 7,so,Dad wont have to take me.lol.They might even let me start early,who knows.One thing,which I shouldnt worry about is,I will see one coworker who I havent see for a long time,because of hours and me being on vaction.Thats the one who asked if I was predisit.But,I am not going to let Her get to me.Shes also the one whos been complainging about me.Oh well.Anyways,I been on here,going through my graffics and pictures that I wanted and dont want.I been deleting alot of them,than going into the recyling bin and delete them from there.I hope that worked?I didnt relize ow much stuf I had in there that I didnt even use and some I was like,what was that doing in there.lol.But as soon as I get this taken care of,I am going to use PhotoBucket.Thats what I been using,will take me a while to download all my graffics,but thats.I am almost up to 200 graffics on PB.lol.But is PB a good thing?I dont know anything about the other one that I see people have been using,I did sign up,but,still have no clue.So,I may just stick to PB.I like it.Anyways,thank you all so much for your wodnerful advice.Maybe sometime this week I can strighten out my private journal and some other tid bits.lol.Since I have a few days off from work.I was thinking of doing some kind of side job at home and putting it on here,but I dont know.All I know how to do is make beadded jewerly and someone else is already doing that.I just want to think about maybe doing something on the side to make a little money.Any advive would be helpfu.Ok,I really got to go to bed.I need my beatiuy sleep.lol.I know,I know,I am a bad speller.Have a good night all.Be safe and peaceout.One more thing,will that actullay work,if I keep deleting what I dont want and use,than go to my recyle bin and permently delet them there?Thanks again.

More questions,thank you.

Good evening all,

                Hope its a good one for you.I am doing good here.Work was good,I did good.Thanks to all the good advice.I so much needed it.Ok,yes,I am still playing around with the colors.lol.I cant belive thanksgiving is next week.I think this year has gone by so fast.Ok,I have a few questions,concerning my graffics,I do have Photobucket,what about that other one,cant think of the name,Foltky,somehting.If I were to do this,would I have to sit down one day and just send all my graffics to which one I will choose.Which one is the best?Because I do need to do this.And will it save my graffis for good and I can use them all the time?But,after I send them there,how do I delete them from aol?sorry,I dont know anything about this.But Dad keeps fussing.lol.He didnt today,but you never know.Anyways,I need a shower,I feel yuky after I get off of work.Have a nice evening,weekend/week ahead.Be safe and peaceout till next time.

Thank you,I love you all.

I just wanted to say a quick thank you so much for your good advice and encourgment.I am headed off to work.Thank you all so much.You all made me smile.You gave me the best advice of just going in there with a good attiude,which I will do.Thank you for helping me with all my graffics.I think I will take time to do that tonight,since I am off tommrow,or at least I think I am.lol.Thank you.I so much needed that.I was still feeling so down and I am feeling much better.I love you all.Molly,thank you for comming to my journal,even thoe you dont have one yet,thank you for leaving nice comments.Have a great day all.Feels like summer here.Be safe and peaceout.

What to do with all the graffics.

One more thing,does anyone know how I can keep al of my graffics in another place?Could I put them all on a cd?Dad is kinda fussy with all my stuff I have on here.Because it is slow getting on and off.Thanks so much and have a nice day.