You dont even wan t to know.

I diecided to use this graffic and put it up front instad of at the end,it fits me tonight,because I am not a happy camper!!!!!!!!!

Ok,let me just tell you all,I had the worst night at work ever!!!!!!It wasnt even my falt and I got the blame for it,I cryed and cryed right in front of the stupid Ass Manager of the stoor,He should have never talked to me like that and let me tell you,I have half  my mind to say something to the Union rep tommrow,if I see one of them.He was so rude to me,He knew it,because He came back to me,a couple hours later,asking if I was ok and I didnt say anything,just nodded and went and did my work,It was a bread platter,someone took an order and someone else was susposed to do it.There was no bread platter.I called the Manager back to the bakery and He had a very nasty attiude like I was susposed to know were everything is,even thoe I have been working there for almost 8 years,He kept going on and on and on and I just kept getting more upset.I couldnt belive it,well,yes I can.Hes been having complants by other people who work there.Just because He thins I should know how to do everything in the bakery,well,some things,I cant do and its not my falt.I dont know if I want to say something to the head Manager or not,but,I really want to.I could not stop crying.He knew He was worng,because,He kept comming by the bakery,one time to ask if I was ok and like I said,I didnt say anything.He talks to everyone like He is the head Boss and He isnt.Oh,let me tell you,I called my Boss,the Bakery Manager,crying to Her and She knew the bread plater was susposed to be made.Now,if it was made and no one didnt tell me were it was.UUUUUUUUUUUUG,I am soooooooooo mad.I came to be so upsetting,crying and not I am mad.I am also in pain,hurting.Some reason,my whole body is hurting.I hope He has a bad night,I am sorry that sounds bad,but I cant help it this time.I was crying so hard,my nose was red and it was embarising because I still had to deal with the dagon Coustmers.He will get whats comming to Him,dont you worry.I am going to get to bed,try and sleep.I have a head ache.I hope you all sleep well.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Sat.

Good moring all,

I hope you all had a good night sleep.I could of slept better,but,I am hoping I will sleep better tonight.I wanted to thank you all for encourging me and giving me the good advice on my entry from last night.I do have a question.

I am taking the Lexapro,the Doc told me to take it at night,how ever the bottle says take it in the moring.So what do you all think I should do?Last night was my first night taking it,it did help some with the pain,but,my hands have been bothering me.I go to the Docs on Wed.

I do want to do some changing in my life,I am going to start by writting stuff down.I think you all are right,maybe,things will come into place sooner or later,if you know what I mean.I hope you all have a nice day.Be safe and Kool out there.Peaceout.

ok,whats next?

Oh my goush,I just had a whole entry written and went to put in another pic and I deleted m entry and I am ticked off.LOL.More like mad,because,I was just spilling  out all my feelings and than zip.I cant belive that,I hate when that happends.Anyways.

I had a long tiring day,Mom and I did get our hair cuts done,I didnt get it died,but,will later,did get it cut short.will take a pic later.I have so many things running through my mind,as always,the same things,but this time,for some reason,it seems diffrent.

Ok,this is the hardest part,unless maybe you all have heard it before.Oh well,I dont know what is worng with me.I am taking a med called Lexapro,just started taking it tonight,susposed to take it at night.I feel like my life is in a rut,and cant seem to get out of it.Is that so worng of me to think that when there are so many other people out there having it more worse than me?

So why cant I just stop being so dagon afarid of life,just get out there and to the things I want to do,you know,I dont even know what I want to do.I think maybe it is has to do with all thats in my past and maybe I havent let it all go and just be me,the people I have hurt,mistakes I have done.

Hey,I am human,but people want tp blmae me and think its all on me when they cant even look at there own lifes.I have falts,I am not perfect,never have been.I will tell you,I am happy in a way,in another way,I am not.I dont want my old way back,I am happy with my life now,but,I want more.If you know what I am trying to say,or am I just confusing you all?I dont care what anyone thinks of me anymore.I want to know and do know sometimes the good person I am.I am glad that the people who do know me,know who I am and the love me for me.But right now,I will tel you this,I dont even love myself and thats the truth.Can you love someone and not love yourself?Maybe I am just tired,no,I am not,I want so more out of my life.I want it now,just dont know how to go about doing that.

So were do I go about doing that?How do I change my life?How do I make it better?How do I get out there,having fun?I know I have my boyfriend,but theres more,you know?Ok,well,I am going to try and go to sleep.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

Thursdays Happenings

Good moring all,

I hope you had a good nights sleep.I did,but,man I am still tired,wiped out.I havent had a day off since last Tuesday and my day off this week is tommrow.I had a busy day yesterday.I made a mistake on my app,its next wed,wasnt yesterday.But they gave me a new medicine to help me better than the last one.I hope it works.

I never heard of the medicine,i will get it tonight,hoping the Pharmcy has it.Its called,I hope I got the spelling right.jekapo or could be iekapo.anyone heard of it?Anyways,I am just so tired,I fell alseep last night one time,than just stayed alseep and left the puter on.LOL.I haad 89 alerts and got them all down.LOL.

ii am posting some pics of my neices and nephews,the ones from London,well there not from London.They are here on fourlough,if you all know what that means.I am thinking about getting my hair dyed tommrow,not sure,but,getting a hair cut,I need one badly.LOL.

I hope you enjoy the pics.I am going to get off of here,get a few things done,maybe take a nap.LOL.Have a nice day all,be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.

                    

 

Speaking of Tuesday.LOL.

Good moring all,

I hope you all had a good night sleep.I know I did,I guess I needed it.I was susposed to help Mom watch the kids,I helped a little bit,but I was so dagon tired,coildnt keep my eyes open and I fell alseep.LOL.

I go back to see my Doc tommrow,I hope it will be a good visit.I need to tell themm about my medicine,that I stoped taking,because it was making me to sick.I also need to tell them that I am still in so much pain with my hands,they are hurting so much,even hard for me to type.But I did get a good sleep last night.I took my old medicine I was taking and it helped me sleep.Well,its not old,but,you know.LOL.I was looking at my Digtal last night and I need to buy a battery for it and more philm.I know you can go to Cvs and get the pics taken off,but,I already done that once and dont want to do it twice.

I want to start taking more pics,only one thing,dont know how to add them onto my laptop.LOL.My Digtal didnt come with a Chargable plug,so,I have to buy a battery for it.Anyone know of a good one?Tommrow is going to be a long day.I work in the moring at 6,get off at 12,my app is at 1 and I will be spending the day with my boyfriend.I wont get to see Him much this week.

I do want to go to Target and get a bigger pool.I want to thank you all for leaving me so many good encourging words yesterdayI guess we all get down,I sometimes get down alot,but,I just worry to much.LOL.Anyways,I better get off of here and get a few things done.I sure wish I was off today,but,I am not.LOL.I dont like being off on Fridays,due to it being payday,I like working on Fridays,so,I can get my pay check and dont have to go into the stoor on my day off.LOL.Anyways,I hope you all have a nice day.Stay kool out there.Drink lots of fluids,Gatorate and water.I know,I dont like water,I rather drink Gatorate.Be safe out there.Peaceout.

Nity nite.

Good night all,

I just did a whole entry and was about to close,than somehow I lost it.Uuuuuuuuuuug.That never happend before.Makes me so mad!!!!!!!!!I am so stressed out,tired and need to have some fun in my life.Yes,I know,Roxy,I remember you telling me the other day,to do something fun.I just want to cry,because,I worry so much about everything,but,I also know,it gets you no were.

I want to feel greatful and blessed,because I know I have so much in my life right now,but,to be tottlay honest with you all,there somehting missing in my life or maybe not.I dont know.I do know one,I am lacking so much of alo of stuff in my life.I want to cry and scream.I am blessed to have so much.But theres so much going on in my life,that I want to change and I am scared to death of change.

Is there something worng with me that I cant change?I want to say,my life sucks,yes,there I have said it.Is it worng for me to say that?Because,I know there are so many people right now going through so much.My Broters wife,Her Dad is having heart surgy to see whats clogging His heart and He has cancer,but dont know what kind.If you all could say a prayer,I thak you.How do I get my life going?Were do I start?i feel like its useless.anyways,I will write more tommrow.I have a long week ahead of me.My day off iisnt till Friday,I hate that.But I am still greatful for my job.well,I hope you all have a good night.Sweet dreams.Be kool and safe out there.Peaceout.

Photo Scavenger hunt#114 will be due on Sunday,July,8.at 11:00PM EST.

       

Photo Scavenger Hunt #114 will be due on Sunday, July, 8, at 11:00 PM EST.
                                              
Our subject this week will be:  "Independence Day, freedom"
               
                                    

Please not that this is an extended Hunt and is due in nine days.  This should be a fun one and I do hope you all enjoy the subject!  Since not everyone celebrates 4th of July festivities, I thought that the word "freedom" would allow everyone to participate.  You could take photos of anything that represents this subject to you personally and interpret it any way you wish.   Place your full entry URL in the comments section below.  If anyone needs help with this don't hesitate to email me.   Have a safe and fun Independence Day!!  Happy Birthday America!!!

Enjoy!!!Sorry,the pics are a little small.

Sorry about the writting being dark,should of used the red color.Hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

 

We all had a good time on the 4th of July,even thoe it was small and quiet,it was nice.It was just my parents,my Sister,Her family and 3 girls from church who never seen the fire works before.So they were excited to see them.They came over to the house and before dinner we all just sat around watched tv,went outside,had some fun.Before all of that,it was my Mom,my Sis,my neice,2 nephews and the 3 girls,all sitting around in theliving room painting eachothers nails.LOL.

Well,execpt for my nephew,He did want to get His nails painted.LOL.One of the girls said,go ask your Dady.LOL.He did and Dady said no.LOL.

This is the nephew who wanted to get His nails painted.LOL.How ever,He was wearing a silver neckleace,at the bottom of the necklace had hearts,but that part wasnt showing.LOL.I think He was just trying to be kool.LOL.Kids.

This is my Big boy,oldest nephew out of all of my neices and nephews,Not a very good pic of Him that,dont think He was feeling that good.He was just sitting watching the History chanel,while the girls and my neice and other nephew was painting nails,well,you know,not my nephew.LOL.This guy,Kyle,He was saying,He couldnt hear the tv because of thoes girls laughing to loud.LOL.All in all,it was a nice day.For my,I still wasnt feeling to good and I just stayed in,being lazy,in my sweats and stayed in my room,watching tv,just elaxing.So there you have it,this is my Photo Scvanger Hunt,hope you liked it.