Thursdays happenings.lol.

Good moring all,

                   Hope you all are having a good one and with your coffee in your hand and a donut in your other hand.lol.What your getting ready to read is somehting I get every moring when I check my mail.Dont know who sends them to me,unless,I had them send them to me.lol.Butmanyways,this sope to me today,talks about temsion,and yesterday,was a double wammy.I had tension all over me and I dont know were it came from and I couldnt get rid of it.I was hurting so bad,from my back,to my neck,shoulders and arms.I feel some better this moring.I guess I have alot on my mind.That I really want to try and change things,yeah,saying it is easy than doing it.lol.I know.lol.I must of been so tired last night,I took my bedtime medicine,I think I was watching a dvd,soon as I turned it on,I was out.lol.I also took one of my Arthitis pilss and that helped this moring.I am feeling good right now,we shal see later how I feel.lol.Thank you all for give me good advice yesterday in my entry.I love you all so much.Roxy,thank you for lettting my know aboug aol being free.I do hope you all have a wonderful,relaxing,calming day today.Its cold in here,my puter isnt set up yet.They came yesterday moring,was here for sevral hours,trying to get a signal,they said would be back in a few hours,but nope,they never showed up,never even called,my boyfriend is paying for all of it.They better show up today.Some other dude was susposed to come by and do something to the outside pole line,dont ask me,I know nothing.lol.But,they better show up today.lol.I am getting very unpaitence and I want on my LAptop!!!!!!!!I hope you all have a nice day today and I will be back later.

January 4, 2007

Workplace Sanctuary
Taurus Daily Horoscope

The tension of your professional life could make you feel like escaping into the sanctuary of your home today. Although that is a place where you can seek refuge from the stresses of the external world, learning to integrate a practice of relaxation and stress reduction at work might serve you better today. Perhaps you can try to make your workspace a place of calm and serenity by placing plants, soothing artwork, or inspirational poems where you can see them throughout the day. When you see your items of healing, you might wish to take a deep breath and remind yourself that peace of mind comes from within.  Even in a place where things seem hectic, you can still have tranquility and peace of mind.

Creating a haven for ourselves no matter where we are gives us the extra strength we need to cope with tensions that arise. So often we might think of our homes as places to where we can run from our problems, curl up, and withdraw from the world. If we can see that there is so much more power in creating a retreat in our most hectic environments, we will find that instead of having to run to a secure place, we always have safety and serenity with us. By bringing healing energy into your professional life today you will stay constant, at ease, and happy, regardless of what happens around you.

I had alot on my mind and I have alot of questions for you,thanks.

Thanks Cab's Creations,for both of the graffis shown here love them so much.Thank you CCC,I am so sorry,I forgot who you are,forgive me.

Hi all,

        Good day to all,hope you all is having a good one.Its ok here.I havent been feeling like writting much lately.Not depressed,just have alot on my mind.Today COmcast is hooking up my inter so I can use my Laptop and use it anywere.Now,I know you can dow load aol,but will you have to pay for it?I know nothing about COmcast,dont think I can get my online journal from there.I just hope they come back before I leave,so,they can tell me what to do.lol.I dont think its that hard.But it wil be fun,just sitting in my bedroom,and I dont have to come into this cold room,were there is a big,huge black mold right up above me.I try and put warm cloths on,but it doesnt help much and my feet are always cold.lol.I can deal with everything else being cold,but,my feet,my feet have to stay wram.Not when I am sleeping,I hate wearing socks to bed,never had,but some people do.lol.Why?lol.I have alot of questions to throw at you guys,maybe you can help me out.I have been thinking alot about cancling one of my doctors,as I dont think I need them,I need the medicine of course,to helo me sleep and with depression.Its not as bad,the depression.I want to talk to my regular doctor,see if He can give me the same medicine my Shrink does.I just cant afford to be seeing so many doctors right now.I am just trying and wanting to be more responsible with my bills,which I dont have alot.But seeing theeses 2 doctors and paying them both,I just cant.My journal helps alot with getting my feelings out,venting and letting it all go.I relize I dont need to see a Shrink,I know its bigger word for it,but,I cant spell.lol.Now,maybe in the future,if I need to see them again,I will.What do you tihnk I should do?It is just stressing me out and I want to make it more easy on me.Plus my shots with my Arthitis,I need to have,and with seeing so many doctors,I cant handle it right now.Thats what has been stressing me out.I want thisyear to be a better one for me,my family,my friends,my boyfriend.I know I have my problems,I worry alot.But I want to try and work on that.I also would like try and work on being more healthy,yeah,right.lol.But I think that would help in a big way,with me being so stressed out,as my Doctor says,my regular doctor.I know my Arthitis doctor,wanted me to see someone to talk to.But right now,Ij ust cant handle paying the bills.I am not behind,but,I am behind on one.So what do you all think?I been delaing with so much,that I jsut cant take it and I want to make a better life for myself.To much pressure,to much stress,to much worrying over things I dont need to be worrying about.SO,I just wanted some input on tis and maybe you can help me out.One more thing,my Dad maybe getting rid of Aol in the near future,not sure when,not happending anytime soon.I just wanted to let you all know that.But its not a big hurry.I will have COmcast,but I think I can down load Aol,but will it cost?I hope thoes people come back before I leave,so they can show me what to do.I neve even relized you can watch dvds on my Laptop,shows you how much I know.lol.So,I had alot of questions for you.Sorry about venting.But I needed to get alot of things off my mind.If I decied to stop seeing my Shrink and thereapyst,I will tell my Arthitis doctor and let Him know.I just cant handle this right now.My shots are more important and the medicine that keeps me from going insane.lol.You know,I iwsh I could just stop cold turkey.lol.But I cant.If it helps me,it helps.I have one more question and I will let you go,this has been on my mind alot and I been trying to find ways of helping me out through this.I have alot of sress,tension in my back,shoulders,I been trying to excerise and it doesnt seem to help,do you all have any aideas?What about taking Excdrin?They have it for tension.Whats the deiffrents between stress and tension?Am I crazy?lol.Thank you all so much for listning to me going on and answering my questions.I been up all moring,waiting for them peopel to show up.I will most likly be on COmcast tonight,sitting in my room,right in front of the tv.No doubt,my Dad will want to play around on it,since it is,high speed internet.lol.I love you guys.Have a great day.Be safe and peaceout.

Be back later.

Hi all,

       Hope you all had a nice New Years.I knew I was going to fall alseep way before 12 and I did.lol.I didnt even get to see the ball drop.Oh well,maybe next year.lol.Maybe I am just getting old.lol.I was just tired and I am tired again today.I feel like my shoulders are all tensed up.I might come back her eand add a pic or 2.But,right now,I just want to get off of here,go lay down and take a nap.I couldnt get on line earlyer,because it said something about to much memory space.Thanks to emabecmar for helping me out.I have laot of alerts to catch up on,but,will do that later.I am going to go rest.Man,I feel old.lol.No,just being Christmas and New Years,takes alot out on you and working.I dont want to complain.I am hping this will be a btter year for me.I have some thinking to do about some things,not not my boyfriend,He is staying were HEs at,in my heart.Thank you all for a wodnerful year and another wodnerful year ahead.Have a nice day all.Be safe and peaceout.

Happy New YEars to all!!!

Good moring all,

                  Happy New Years Eve everyone!!!I hope it will all be a good,safe and happy one for each and everyone of you all,and to my online buddies as well.I wouldnt know were I would be if it wasnt for you guys.I think I would be lost.lol.You know,thinking about it,when I first did my first page of my online journal,I never would have imagined it would get this far,never even relize,I would get any comments.Even thought of many times to delet this journal or even go private,I just couldnt.You all have been there with me through it all,good times and bad times,you suported me,given me advice when I needed it,you all encourged me,so I wouldnt give up.You met the real me,not hiding by any walls.Thats just not me.I think I have came along way, through you all.Its been an amazing journey and know it will be an even greater journey ahead.I know I had alot of downers in 2006,I can only pray it will get better in 2007.Theres so much I want to say,theres so much I want to share and I will.Often alot of times,I wanted to give up so much,but,I knew and know now,that I cant,I know there would be to many people out there who love and care for me,would be tottlay sad.But more to the point,I am scared to even give up,if you all know what I mean.But,I fight,I fight because,of who I have become,the people in my life wouldnt want me to give up.Its been a roller coaster ride,but,I feel as thoe this year,will be a calming down ride.So many things I have learned.I have learned not to give up.I wanted to thank each and everyone of you for being there for me along the ride and knowing that you will be there for me always.I have met so many wodnerful people along the way,always comenting me and even people who dont have journal come to see mine,I thank for that,I thank you for being there.So much more I want to say,but,will do that later.Today is a lazy day for me.Not going to be doing anyhting for New Years,I thought of having someone over,but,I think I am just going to chill out tonight,watch a movie or to,than probllay fall alseep before 12.lol.Usllay,thoe,I wake up at 12,when the ball drops,turn my head and go back to sleep.lol.Well,thats all I have to say for now,I do want share some pics in the next entry.I hope you all have a Safe and fun Happy New YEars.Love you all and thank you all for being there for me.

Its almost here!!!

Good moring all,

                Hope you all are having a good one.I am still feeling under the weather.But,I am glad I am off tommrow.Still dont want to go into work today,but I will and I am not staying later.lol.Even if they ask me to stay,I am saying no.I hope you all will have the best and safe New YEars.I hope its a fun one.What is everyone doing?Me,I am doing nothing but resting.lol.I guess its a good thing I am not having anyone oever.I will probllay be alseep before 12.lol.I usllay am,sometimes I will wake up right at 12,than go back to sleep.lol.When we were little kids,we all stayed up till 12 midnight,took some pots and pans and spoons,went outside and just started to bang on them.lol.The cars that would pass us by,would beep.lol.It was a fun childhood memorie.Its funny how we all grow up and change.Anyways,I think I am going to get off of here and get a few things done.I might try and find some chicken noodle soup.I hope you all have a safe and Happy New Years.Its been a wodnerful blessing to know each and everyone of you.Thank you for being there for me.God bless you all.Be safe and PEaceout.

Not feeling good at all.

Before I start,I am trying to pick a color and stay with it,I like the one I am using,the green one.What do oyu all think?Or if you all have any other colors in mind.Thankie.

Good moring all,

              Hope everyone is having a good start of the weekend here.For me,I dont feel its a good one.I am feeling sick,I feel icky all over and have a pain on the left side of my stomach.I just feel awful.I dont feel like going into work today,but,I will.My boss usllay works late today,not sure if She if She is working late today because of our astt manager in our dapartment is out.But I will tell you,its been a long time I felt this way and feeling like I am going to throw up.My head hurts,my ears hurt and my eyes.Sorry if I am complaining.I guess its a good thing I am not having anyone over for New Years.I think I am going to ask for Sunday off.Even thoe,SUn and Mon are time and a half.I got up early this moring so I can get some thigns done,clean my room before the peopel come in and hook me up to my own inter net.Wooooooohooooooo.I am excited about that.I will have comcast,but,I also have a free disc to aol.I hope they come early,because,I have to be at work at 1.And my boss said I can come in when ever they get done.Its between 11 and 2.This house feels so cold right now,usllay does,feels more colder in here than outside.Anyways,I thought I would come on here and say good moring and let you all know I am thinking of you all.I will still have my journal,because,Dad still has His puter down stairs,which I am in now.lol.I hope you all have a safe and fun Happy New Years.I will probllay be in bed before 12 on New Years Eve.lol.I usllay am.Be safe and peaceout.

 

Never usllay make en entry this time of day.lol.

Hi all,

    Good day to you all.

                 I hope you are all having a good one.I am doing ok here.But I am feeling a bit under the weather.Not feeling to great.I dont want to go into work,but,I need to,staying home and being inside can get me down alot.lol.But I am not home all the time.lol.I have some great pics to share with you all,from my family in London,they are Awsome.I will do that later.I havent been feeling like doing anything today.Just been lazy.Dont feel like putting on any makup,so,I might not do that.lol.I was going to have a friend over and I told Her She was aloud to spend the night,but,Mom isnt feeling good,I am not feeling good,so,I told Her,its not a good time.I just hope She wont be mad at me.I told Her to tell my boss,that She was going to spend the night.So,I will leave my boss a note that if She needs us to work,we can work.I just feel so sick right now,feel like puking.lol.Sorry.Maybe I am tired,havent goton the rest I need to.But I think I will this weekend.Sometimes I am glad when my boyfriend has ineventory,He goes into work Sun moring,goes back intowork sun night,long day for hIm.I usllay just rest.lol.So that will b e my rest day.Anyways,I better get off of here and get cleaned up.I dont want to look half way like a bumb going into work.lol.I hope you all have a nice evening.I uslay never have time to make en entry before work.I will post some pics later,when I have time.At least,I will still have my journal here on my Dads puter and I will have own puter in my room,when the Comcast people come to hook it up tommrow.I cant wait.Be safe and peaceout.