Reef decorating by my Neice Katie and Nephew Sean.

 

Good evening yal,

         Hope everyone is having a good one.Hope you all are safe at home and not out in all that busy traffic,doing last munite Christmas shoping.I do hope and pray everyone out there on the roads are safe.My Sister is out all the time.I worry about Her.I can actullay say,tonight is very calming,knock on wood.lol.So much to be done.I know it will be ok.I am feeling good now.My Mom is a little sick,I think most of it is due to Her just being stressed out.I went into work today and was just talking to my boss about things and She was just telling me what you all been telling me,that,I know,its just a stressful time of year,and Shes the only Mom I will have in my life time.I think we get along to much and sometimes to much is to much.lol.I have been praying for my Mom to find a good friend that She can go out with from time to time,you all know.Thank you all for being there for me,I know I can be a pain.lol.Oh yeah,the pics show in my journal of the Reefs are from my Neice Katie and Nephew Sean on my SIs side.I am pretty sure you could probllay tell who made which one.lol.I am going to make a Christmas entry for Krissy Scavanger hunt,hoping its not to late.lol.I been on here way to long and I still got alot of million and one thigns to do.lol.I dont know why I feel not a whole lot of stress.lol.The first Reef is from Katie,I put it in order of there ages.lol.They also have an older brother,He made a Reef for the other Grandma they have.Have a nice night.Be safe out there if you have to go out.Peaceout.Oh yeah,they might have had a little help,but,they mostly did it by themselfs.

You all are tired of me,arent you?

You guys must really think I am crazy?lol.I just wanted to take a munite and say that I am sorry for complaining.I am thankful for all the advice you all have given to me.Maybe sometimes I just say to much and people get tired of it.For that,I am sorry.Its been hard,I wont lie.But I am not going to do anything till after Christmas,that would be a bad,very bad thing to do.You all are right that I am the only one in the house besides my Dad,but,He is usllay at work during the day and its just me and Mom.If you all could say a prayer for Her,to maybe find a friend that She can talk to.I have you all,and my boyfriend.I have a bestfriend but I dont feel comfortable talking to Her.I feel like I am always saying sorry to my Mom and She never sees what She does.But,again,I have relized how that is and why that is.I know,I am a pain.I feel like all I been doing lately is venting out all my problems to you guys and I am thinking,you all are probllay getting sick and tired of hearing it.All I will say,it was a biggie this moring.We depend to much on eachother.I finally told my boyfriend,if thigns dont change,after Christmas,I may just have to look for a place,I dont know.We shall see.She is just stressing out so much.And today work called this moring,wanted me to come in and no one was here and I really didnt want to go in,because,today was mainly my last shoping day and I got it all done,just about.One more hting is all I need.They called the first time asking me if I can come in and I was upset,crying, and trying to hide it best way I can and they probllay thought I didnt want to come in because I was crying.lol.I wasnt crying,crying,but they could tell I was not happy.lol.So tommrow I will go in and explain to my boss and than I will probllay stat crying again.lol.thats all I been doing.Anyways,I need to get things done.As always.lol.Have a good evening,good weekend.Be safe and peaceout.

Its almost here,so much to be done.

                                                                  Moring all,

                                               Hope you all is having a good Thursday.So much to be done and Christmas is almost here.lol.I hope and pray everyone is having a none stressful Christmas.I know it can be.I want to thank you for being there for me yesterday.It is just the stressness that my Mom is having.Get this,one of my brothers had to mentioned that to have everyone at our house for Christmas dinner and you do not want to know how many that would be and I think thats why its been stressful and Mom worrying that the kids wont have enough to unwrap this year.She does the best She can.I am trying,trying really hard not to let it all get to me.We dont even know who is going to show up.lol.I help Mom as much as I can and She knows it.She knows I love HerI didnt know how things can be just so stressful.lol.It will all be ok.I even asked Her this moring,just now,if She needed to go to the stoor,which I know She does and I am going out with Gary later on this after noon.How long does it take for my Mom to get cleaned up and out the door?You dont want to know.lol.It only takes me 15 munites,sometimes less if I dont feel like wearing make up.I know there are people who just have to put on make up to just go to the stoor or.But anyways,I better get off of here,becuse I was just mentioned that I spend to much time on here and not enough time to do other things.I hope you all have a great day.Be safe and peaceout.

Happy Hanikkah to you all!!!

Sorry its a litttle late,but I waned to wish everyone who is celabrating Hanukkah right now,a Happy Hanukkah to you all!!!I dont know some about Hanukkah and the storys I have heard are so beatiful.May god bless you all.

Its ok now,for now it is.lol.

Thank you Des Desgins for the beatiful graffics

Good day all,

            I am so messed up.lol.Mom and I yet again,worked things out,even talked a little bit.She even mentioned that She would at times want me to have my own place.lol.But you know what She said?She said,She would come and get me and bring me back home.I knew that.lol.I just smiled.lol.We both aggreed that we have to work on things and not let things get to us.We both said we was sorry and I told Her I loved Her and She knows that.I guess it is just stressful around Christmas,just like you all said.I want to things to be right.I wouldnt know how to beging to tell Her how I feel about things that I have told some of you all in private.Its hard,never thought it would be this hard.But,I knew if I had moved out,She would come and get me in a hear beat.lol.And wouldnt like the idea of staying with my boyfriend.I aggree with the J-lander that it wold be nice to see what its like living before marriage.But I know the rules and I know how my Mom is about that.You all must of have been praying for my and my Mom.Thak you.Still keep them comming.I pray that my Mom would just find someone to go out sometimes with someone that She could have fun with and be comfortable with.Anyways,for now,its ok,not all good,but ok.lol.And another good thing is,my graffics are fixed.dont know how they got fixed.lol.Dad did say,He and my brother n law,when they were here last night dleted alot of thigns.lol.So now my grafics work.I didnt even let them know that something was worng.But the above pic is from De Desgins.Thank you.Thank you all for being patience with me.Told you the graffics would porbblay get fixed before Christmas.lol.Be safe and peaceout.

Christmas Spirit,were are you?

Good moring all,

        Hope all is well.I am doing somewhat ok.If you could all say a prayer for my Mom and I,I would me much thankful.thoes of you who have my private journal can go over there and see whats going on.I know Christmas can be very stressful,it is so commerilize now.I just want it to be over.I thought things were getting better,but,not as much.I want to hope and pray for the best to turn out good.I want to have a good feeling of Christmas spirit.I just want to thank you all so much for being there for me.You all know,I love oyu all so much.I need to get off of here and get some things done.Hope oyu all have a wonderful day.

Be safe and peaceout.

 

 

Good after noon yal,I thought you all would like to see some pics of my family from London.This is the Christmas pic,they just took,the other ones are from Hawolleen.

Its been so crazy around here,yet,its been nice.Finally things setting they way they neeeded to be.I mean,doesnt mean,I still dont worry about bills being paid.But,I am letting tha aside for now.Only one that I am just going to start sending 20 or 40 or what ever I can send to them.They are patience with me.You all out there in J-land must have been praying for my and my family.I thank you all,I thank God for the friends I have made here in J-land.Mom is comming around,She is trying to getting in the spirit of Christmas.She just worrys She doesnt have enough for the Grandkids.I worry to that I dont have enough to get for everyone.But things are calming down here.Tonight were going out shoping.Mom and I went out this moring and was actullay in a good mood.lol.I am keeping it that way.Hey,i got a question for you all.I am getting a Lap top from Gary for my Christmas preasant.Do you think once I have my own puter,things will be better?Meaning the graffics?I can see a diffrences in me when I dont have my meds,yal are right,I was out of it.I cant belive that would do that to you.Anyways,I am getting off of here,more htings to be done.I hope you all are having a good day.Be safe and peaceout.Its almost here.lol.