Long Entry,I think.lol.

Ok,were do I start?Yes,I am having problems again with the graffics,it seems to me like I messed up every time I saved them.Uggggggggg.This was turning out to the worst Christmas ever.lol.But,I think things are kinda getting better.It also seems to me as maybe everyone was having a little bit of Ba Humbug this year,how ever I could be worng.I woke up this moring feeling really,really not good and I was so tired,I dont know why.Maybe,I think it was because,I work late on weds and you have to do so much cleaning when you close.This time,I didnt even worry if I did anything worng,because,usllay I would call the next day to see how thigs went.lol.Because,I for the time in my life,I baked the muffins and one of my co workers called to see how I was doing and I hope I did ok with that.lol.Its really hard baking muffins.You have to keep them in there for a long time.We do them at night to get ready for the next moring.But,enough about work,well,one more thing,if I see the deli manager,my boyfriend asked if they needed any help and He said He could maybe use me,so,I will talk to Him tommrow.Hes pretty kool.He teases me around Garry.lol.Its all fun thoe.He was at Dezney the same week I was,but,He left before I did.Boy,has this year ever been so stressful,I bet everyone has been feeling like that to.I want to do so much for everyone and I just dont have enough money.Dad took my Mom and I out tonight for a little bit,just went to Rite Aid and K-mart,I was glad He took us,because,I really didnt want to go just with Mom and I,only because it is not safe.Dagon it,lost my train of thought,Mom just caleld me to do somehting.lol.Thank you all for leaving nice comments in my private journal,havent been there for a while.Did I tell you I have been really stressed out?lol.Does anyone know a good excerise for stress?I know one thing that I like to do with my shoulders/hands,wrap them around my back and put my head down tot he floor,well,not all the way down.lol.I know we all have our own problems,our own issues.But cant there be a day or 2 without any caos?I know,I cant spell.How can I start changing my life around to be healther,to be les stress.I know my DOc wants me to change my eating habits.That I dont know about.lol.But,getting off that subject,I will find out what I did worng with the graffics.Uggggggggggggg.I sent out alot of Christms cards,so,I dont know who got one.I belive,there was someone from the UK,I think Ilost your addy,if you know which person you are.lol.Sorry,you can tell,its been stressful.guess what,my Mom is putting back up the decortions.lol.Wodner if She will take them down again.lol.I sometimes would maybe like to just get away,stay at a friends house for a day or 2,I could do that,but it has been a long time since I have done that.I am more,whats the word I am looking for?And you know the ole saying about,you cant spend the night with your boyfriend,dont ask me why,long story,yes,I know,I am 34,but,you all Moms know the deal.lol.Dont ask me why I can spend a week with Him on vaction with Him.Dont ask,wont go there.But,I am going to get off of here,I would like to send more cards out.I cant belive how many cards I snet out.I also want to send cards to the soliders,is it ok if got there late?I am going to try and go to the post office.Should I put a pic in the card?I really dont know what to say.But,I am going to sit down tonight and write them out.Ok,this is turinging into a long entry.So on that note.I hope you all will have a blessed weekend.Be safe and peaceout.P.S.Ok,I am going to ask this,I am sure,I been a pain.lol.Does anyone know a good place were I can keep my images,still nothing will work for me.I am so sorry.I lvoe you guys.I also have heard of File Manager?But not sure how to use that.

I am going to hit the hay.lol.

Hi all,

        Good evening to you all.Hope its a good one.Thank you Sazzymademe for this beatiful tag,I lvoe it.Now that I can finally get them to work.lol.It was so much work to do tonight at my job.But the time I left the stoor.My shirt and my pants to my shooses,was soken wet.lol.Good thing it wasnt to col out.lol.But I am worn out and tired.About to fall alseep.Mom and I are somewhat speaking.However,She called me at work looking for something,of course,She was rushing to get ready for church and what She was looking for,She said,its not funny and hung the phone up.Oh well.No biggie.But,yet,I dont get,When its time to come around the weekends.She needs things for Sat for the kids to eat and things for church.We are speaking,yes,but some hard words were said and I do know we both love eachother.Just my parents need lots of prayers.I have to be honest,Mom and Dad were even talking about getting a devorce,I know Mom has always keep on saying that.But I dont think it will happend.I guess,during the holidays are tough.But,one good thing came out of and Gary didnt want to tell me,but He had,cause He had to know a few things and I dont know they wanted to know what kind of puter my Dad has.Gayr is getting my a Lap top,I am excited,He thinks He has ruined it by telling me,and I said no you didnt,thats what I wanted,I didnt even think I was going to get it.Do you have to have a wrieless set up?I know nothing about Lap Tops.Gary says,they was trying to rip Him off,He to sevral diffrent places.We are going to look tommrow.I think I am going to get an early Christmas preasnt.I told Him,He didnt have to do that.Hes my guy and Hes special to me.A lady at work calls Him Sugar Dady and no,He isnt that.He loves me and wants to see me happy.He knows I dont have alot of money.But I did buy HIm some stuff.He knows all about me,what I want.Next year,better be the ring.lol.Anyways,I am getting tired.I want to send some more cards out.HAve a nice night all.Be safe and peaceout.

In a hurry

I am off to work,but wanted to add this pic,I love it.I hope I got the name right.thanks Sazzymademe.I will be back later.HAve a nice day all.

It is I again.lol.

Its me again,just adding another wonderful Christmas graffic.I was excited to find somehting that would actullay work.lol.Anyways,better get off of here and get some things done.Cya later.I will probllay be on here before I leave to go to work.Be safe and peaceout.One more thing,I know some of you all use Fotki and just was wodnering if that is a good program?Which I think it is.lol.Can you save your graffics on there?Which the graffics are not made by  my,they are made be wodnerful talanted Pspers out here in J-land.

Things are some bettter.Thank you all.

Hi all,hope you all are having a good moring.Well,first of all I just wanted to say,that I think I finally got my graffics working.Not even using Photo Bucket,I tryed out Fotki and it worked,not chaging the graffic at all.How ever,I cant remember whos graffic this was,I belive it was Ds desigins,but correct me if I am worng.Thank you all for being supoortiave and giving me courage not to give up with my Mom.We are some what speaking.Its hard to give a hug and I know She needs one and I would love to give Her one.But,just dont know how.I did leave a not saying I lvoe Her,I always do that.SHe knows I love Her.I know Moms,need alot of love to.But just wanted to thank you all for being there.Its hard.I think its mostly hard during the Holidays,I dont know why.lol.Maybe its just stressful.She just came inand asked me to go to the stoor with Her.So I will need to get off of here and get cleaned up.Has anyone of you all sent Christmas cards to the Soliders?I am going to do that tonight,I need to get more stamps.lol.I probllay will go to the post office and send them that way.I might even try and see if I can make some beadded jewrly for them,but wonder if that would be a good idea?ANyways,things are looking somewhat better,not all there.But better.You all have been so very kind and caring.I love you all.Thank you all.Thank you all for helping me trying to figure out this graffic thingy.lol.I think I finally got it.Lets hope.lol.HAve a ncie day all,I am going to get off of here and clean up.BE safe and peaceout.

The feeling is just to much.

To be honest with you,right now,I dont even know were I am going.I can feel every sad feeling in this house right now.That it hurts to much to talk about.I feel I have lost my Mom,I mean,Shes alive and well,but,Her and I,right now are just not on good terms.I guess Her and my Sister have made up.Its like I am not even here,I am invisable and She probllay feels the same.Its like,its always my falt when things happend.I never felt this way,the kind of feeling that you lost someone,whos right in your own home.I feel She thinks I am at falt all the time.I cant breath,I cant think stright.Oh my,I feel the strangest thing happening to me right now,I can feel it in my throat and it hurts so bad,like I cant breath.I probllay shouls just got off of here and get some sleep.Thats it,its a done deal,I am crying and tears are just flowin and I really dont want anyone seeing me crying,so,I am just going to get off of here and head to bed.I love you all.Be safe and peace out.

I cant find the list of our Heros fighting in the war.would like to know if anyone has and can email

One more thing before I head to bed.Do any of you all have the list to our hroes,fighting over there in Irqu?I had a whole list of people I could write and cant find it now.If anyone has the list,please email it to me.Thanks so much.Good night.