Yes,I am very talkative.lol.Bare yourselfs.lol.

Good evening yal,

           Hows it going?Good I hope.I am doing pretty good here.I am going to get ready to go to bed after I do this Entry.I feel like I had a whole week off.lol.It was fun,and than again,not having any money in my pocket,due to being on vaction and I already had cashed my vaction time in before I left,so,I didnt get a pay check last week,will get one tommrow.And there is a whole in my pocket already.lol.But,nothing for me,I am doing Christmas shoping.Its going to be easy this year.I know what I am going to get Gary.He says His Micowave works,but,it hasnt for a while,so,I am going to get Him one and He is always needing pots and pans.I alwys get Him somehting from Avon,He loves the clone,how ever you spell it,I know,I cant spelled.And no,I dont want to clone Him.lol.I am going to get Him 2 big gifts and a few small ones.Gary and I decied to get a Gift Card for my Mom at Khols.For my Dad,I have no clue.lol.Hes even more hard than anyone.My boyfriend is somewhat pretty easy.I am also getting my Sister a Gift Card from either Target or Khols.Sometimes its funny,because,we usllay wind up getting eachother the same thing.Like one year,we got eachother pjs.lol.In a way,I am glad,I wont be working to much,so,this year,I can actullay not be in panic to get everything done,meaning,when that happends,and I am usllay working alot,like say,8 hours everday,which I used to be working,I cant do that,my whole body would shut down,my kness would be so swolen up that I can hardly walk and that has happend to many times.Last year when we had the meaniest boss in our dapartment,which by the way,She quit.lol.She was hard on me,thats a long story I will get into at another time.It was right around Christmas time,She had me working 8 hours everyday,with only one day off.One day Gary picked me up,went to get something to eat,we was sitting at a bar and I was in alot of pain.When we was leaving,I had to lean on His shoulder and someone had to get me a chair,thats how bad my knees get at times.I am somewhat happy and hoping this all goes right,that,either my hours will change and I will get a few more hours,or,my boss,not the mean one,my boss that was working before this one will come back.I over heard.I know,thats not nice.lol.But I couldnt help it.One of the co workers was like,I bet you will be glad about that,I did say,I liked it the way it is now,and She was like you know you want more hours,I didnt say anything.lol.Its nice to have this boss,yes,She doesnt get mad at you if you dont get things done or if somehting goes worng.I like that.You dont have to worry when you leave.And if the other boss happends to come back,I just hope She has changed.She can be bossy to.I know,its hard on a boss,I really do.Thats why,NO WAY I WOULD EVER BE A BOSS!!!!!lol.I give them all the credit for what they do.Let me tell you,she has been there for me alot and helped me out in so many ways.I guess you can say I was HEr pet.I dont think some people didnt like that.Oh well.One good thing about that is,if She does come back.oh boy,I better watch out,because,that bakery,will be taken all out and put it all back together the way it was,meaning,the bakery now,is a huge mess and I dont want to feel like I am judgeing,but,She will have it spotless clean in a hearbeat.lol.Let me tell you,I hate it now,cause it is a mess and you cant find anything.I try my best to clean things.But,its like the boss now,doesnt care.Ok,enough about me venting with that.I did get a card today,which was a very nice thought.It was from my dentist,I gave my boss,the number and She called,I told my boss,I said,I think its about time you need to go.lol.Why do so many people dont like going to the dentist?And,yes,I am one of them.lol.But thats all taken care of.I need to email my Brother or better yet my Sister N Law from London and see what the kids would like for Christmas.My Brother doesnt read His email much.lol.Hes a man.lol.Anyways,I am going to get off of here and get to bed.Might sit up and get my address strighten out.Did I tell you the lights went out in our house this evening?Very realery it does,even in a bad storm,but it did today.I just took a nap and it came on.Boy,I must be talkative tonight.lol.Hey,does anyone know any stress excerise?I know of one,that I do alot and sometimes at work.I take my hands,put them behind my back and give it a good stretch.Ok,I am off.Goodnight.Sweet Dreams,dont let the bed bugs bite.Be safe and Peaceout.I really dont know why I am in a good mood.lol.Oh yeah,one more thing,I havent made my mind up yet about deleting my private journal,one of my J-landers mentioned that I shouldnt delete it yet,cant remember who.Thank you.TaTa.Did I see,Photo Bucket changed a little bit?

Out and about.

Good moring all,

           MAybe I can actulay get an Entry in this moring.lol.Nothing planed for me today,execpt,probllay going to the stoor with my Mom.Sometimes,I feel like just saying no,I dont want to go.lol.But I guess I will.They are calling for  bad weather all day today,rain,thunderstorms.Maybe thats why my knee was acting up.lol.Its werid,but true,my knee can feel when its rainy,snowy or damp out.I know,I am geting old,right?lol.I feel like going back to bed.I eat another box of my favr peprige farm cookies,I think I wont by anymore for a whule.But if I see em,I wil want them.My habit,is I take them to my room.lol.I am going to start filling out my christmas cards.But I guess I better get off of here and get cleaned up.But when we get home from the stoor,I am taking it easy today.Dress warm today.Be safe and peaceout.

Be Aware!!!!!!!!!lol.

I guess I felt the need to write another Entry.So much on my mind.First of all,I am going to delet my private journal,as I have no time for it.lol.This journal is enough.If I want to in a later time to put one up again,I will.I been thinking about so many things in my life.I want to say,that,I am comfortable with my life right now,in some ways,I am,in other ways I am not.I want to start improving my life better.I am always saying that I am not happy,that,I am miserable,but you know what,what it all comes down to.Its just Me feeling sorry for myself,being in my own pitty party.I have so much to be thankful for.I will be honest,at times,I want so much out of my life,but,really dont know what that is at this time.I want to actullay say I am happy,again,some ways I am,other ways,I am not.So many things have hapend in the past that,yes,I do regret,I am not doing this enty for anyone,but Me.I want so much for my life to actullay setlle down,be the way I want to be.I look around in my life and the people in my life,they are happy and why cant I be happy to?Because,I have to be happy for Me!!!!!!ME!!!!!As scary as it is,I want that.I know its an everday task,to be happy,not leting things get to you.Things in my life do stress me out and I do worry alot,you all know that.I know my Mom wants the best for me,wants me to be happy.To  be honest with you,I dont even know if I want to be married,that,right there,is confusing.Yes,I want to be with someone and,yeah,I do want to be married,but,maybe now isnt the right time.I dont know.I dont know what is the right time.All I know is,I want things to happend,I only want good things happening in my life.All through out my life,I have just been in this pitty party for so long,why?Its not getting me anywere.I do sit up in my room and alot of times,most of the time,I get depressed and I ask myself,were is my life going?What do you want out of your life?I have always wanted to help others,make people happy,give them something of my life I can give.Do you all know what I am saying?Or am I just confusing you all?I will also admit,that,I want so much happyness for my family,even the ones who I dont speak to,that is even my brother.So much hatered in this world,that is what is scarying me,so many people have hate in there lives,and there is no love,no sharing,no giving.I am just sitting here doing nothing.I have so much to give and I dont.I just thought of soemthing,out of the blue.I would like to write a letter to my Arthitis Doctor,Hes been a big help,but I would like to tell Him,everything how I have been feeling,I dont know,something has just come over me tonight and I felt the need to say it to you all.My Doctor knows,I am depressed,but,I dont want to be.Maybe someday,I can live without pills,but right now,I cant,and I feel guilty because I depend on them.And another thing,I would like to talk about, would like,love to make new friends,hang out,go to the movies,but I dont know how to do that,maybe they dont want to be around me.Maybe they can sence I am not happy.I dont share my feelings,like,I am saring this with you all.What I am saying is,I want to change and I dont know how.My boyfriend,has been the best guy in my life to help me out so much,at times,I feel like I am traped,but,I never want to loose Him.Is that worng?I love Him alot.I guess,what,I am trying to say is.I need to stop beating around the bush.I am 34,and things have to change.I am always making other people in my life happy,my Mom.Now its time to make me happy.I dont even know what that is.Anyways,its getting about that time and my shows are comming on.Thank you all for listning to me vent,but this is actullay not,well,yes it is.But,I jsut needed to get some things off my mind.thank you all for listning.

I am just plain tired!!!

Hi all,

         How is everyones evening?Hope you all having a good one.When ever I try to get on here in the moring,after doing all of my alerts,I would try to get an Entry in,but,never seems to happend,because,I am either having to go with my Mom,which I did this moring to Target,Christmas shoping,than,came home,did some cleaning around the house before Gary came to pick me up.I was going to try and do an Entry than,but Dad was on the puter.If its not me,its Him,but you wont see Him in the chat rooms and He doesnt have a journal.lol.Cant see my Dad having a journal.lol.That would be funny.I think He just bascillay gets on to check stuff and stocks,which I nothing about.It has been a very long tiring day for me.All I want to do is go to sleep,but,I want to watch my 2 shows before I go to bed.Gary and I went and saw a movie today,the Santa with Jack Frost,I have to be honest,it had its moments,were it was ok,but,I was half falling alseep during the movie and so wanted to take a nap.lol.But kept trying to keep my eyes open and hopeing would this movie ever end.I love Christmas movies,I do,but this didnt stand out for me,how ever,the ending,I did like,it was a cute ending and I did like it when they went back in time.So,like I said,it had its ups and downs.lol.I think the all time most fave christmas movie that I like and cannot find is The Polor Express with Tom Hanks,that was an AWSOME movie.I think I lended it to someone and never got it back,dont you hate that?I feel right now,I am just so tired and want to sleep,if I am laying in bed,watching my shows,I think I will fall alseep.Mom asked me if Gary and I had a hissy fit,because,I was a little cranky this evening and I said,no,I am just tired.lol.Mom took 2 of my old phones I dont use anymore and is going to show them to the lady who picks Her up and brings Her home from church.Mom feels like She needs to do something,because,She pics Her up and my Sister tells my Mom,She shouldnt feel guilty.I am glad my Mom isnt driving at night,it way to dangrous.I think I know what I want to get most of everyone forChristmas.My Mom,I asked my boyfriend if we can go in together and get a gif card from Khols,She likes Khols,Shes been there once and She really wants to go back,so,I want to at least give Her a 60 gift card.My Dad,Hes hard.lol.Any advice would be much helpful.lol.Thanks.I know what I am getting Gary,ofcourse He always tells me no,and you all know I cant do that.I feel bad He does so much for me and I cant do enough for Him.My Sister and Her Husband a Target gift card,maybe Khols,not sure.lol.I want a Lap Top,Gary knows that,but,not sure if I will get that.lol.I know,you can say it,I am spoild.lol.I would like to try and sell the one computer sitting up in my room colecting dust and I have a play station 1 I never use.But we will see what happends.I told Gary,that is the olny thing I want.lol.Well and the ring,but havent gone there yet.Well,I am going to get off here and do a few things.I hope you all have a nice evening.Oh yeah,I did get somehting done onto my cell phone,and in no way,I cannot loose that phone.I got a winnie the pooh,kinda like a stick onto my cell,it is so cute,but,I dont know how to take a pic of that,unless I can take it with my Digtal.lol.Can you tell I am tired?lol.Be safe and peaceout.

Me and my Boyfriend Gary.

I wanted to add this pic from when we was in Pcean City.I think its an ok pic,but,it looks as if my face is glowing.lol.

Pics of Dizney and will ne more,now that I found out how to work my camra.lol.

Hi all,

         Hope you all is having a good night,I hope ou all sleep well.I wanted to share some pics from Dizney,I have a lot more as I found out how to work my Camra.lol.Just messing around on the puter and found out.I was proud of myself.lol.So,hope you all enjoy the pics.I will add more,but it takes time to add them all into email,than save them,than go to PB.So here you go.

I love this pic,we are all with Piglet,I bet you know were I am?lol.than thats my neice Katie,dont know why She is pushing Her Brothers head out of the pic,than the other one is my oldes nephew out of all the grandkids.he thinks Hes so big,doesnt want to take pics with the us and pooh bear and friends.lol.

That is not a very good pic of me.lol.I didnt even know Shrek was in the pic with me,when my Sister took it.lol.What is He laughing for?lol.Ok,thats all for now.I wil show more later.I will see you all in the moring.Be safe and peaceout.

 

Its all good.lol.

Good moring all,

                  Hope you all had a godnights rest.I had a good night sleep,well,somewhat.Everything is ok with my boyfriend and I.Thank you all for your wonderful and good advice for me.I am greatful to have wodnerful friends like you.I woke up early this moring and found a text message,from,guess who?Yup,it was from my boyfriend.So,we made up.lol.But,you all are right,we really do need to sit down and talk things out.Just dnt know how to do that.Who would of thought my journal would last this long.lol.I would hear a few J-landers say when they first start there journal,that they want to delet it,but dont.Its funny.lol.But I think I am going to delet my other one.As I really dont use it that much,but,I want to make another one that will be more useful to me.Will,let you know what I will do.I fnally got rid of all of the unwantted stuff I didnt use and saved all of my graffics right onto PB.I am proud of myself.lol.Now I want to go through my favorite places and add all the journals I added in there onto my journal.But have a question for you all.When I add all of my stuf from my favorite places to my journal,does that mean it will save forever?Or should I still keep it in my fave places?Thank you for your help.Nothing on todays agenda.I think Mom wanted to go to Target,but,She went back to sleep.I have a dentist app,that I keep calling it off,so,I  better keep this one.lol.I wont be in there to long.I will be going out with my boyfriend today.I hope you all have a nice day and will talk with all later.Be safe and peaceout.